I love you for you

Gerard's POV

The ride to Frank's was silent except for the occasional directions he had to give me or else we'd spend way too long and i'd end up getting us lost. Once we had gotten to his house i parked next to the curb, because i felt it was rude to park in someones drive way unless you know them a little bit.

Frank's house was stunning it was a small two story mansion type house with pillars in the front and a hanging porch light on the chain. It was also white with a dark blue door.

"wow Frank" were the only words i could manage.

"you wanna come in yeah?"

"yeah uh sure as long as its fine with your parents?"

"yeah they don't mind" He replied blushing noticeably. I slowly got out of the car and followed Frank. I felt so unsure of every foot step feeling like i didn't belong here, everything was to clean to expensive looking aka the exact opposite of me and my life. I was silently making up lyrics to occupy my mind so i wouldn't have a panic attack along side the fact with my 'problem'.

"tell me how can i contain everything inside? Slow down! do you wanna? Slow down! In the moment that you start to fall. Are you comfortable?"

After a moment i hadn't even noticed we were already inside and Frank had disappeared. Silently i had a panic attack and lyrics hit me like a train.
'' I'm sha-sha-shakin' emotions dislocated Fake apologies! (fake apologies) can i just call it quits?"

Then i heard steps coming down steps and i froze and my mind went blank.

"You ready to go?" i heard his silky sweet voice ask. My mind quit working and the only thing i could manage that said any type of 'yes' was a nod.

"okay come on'' he looked at my smiling while his duffle bad dangled in front of his knees it looked heavy because he had to use both hands in to hold it up, once again looking like a little kid. Then my problem reminded me it was there. Wow what a peso move Gerard i thought hatefully to myself.

"do you want me to carry that for you?"

"Uh yeah sure" he stuttered like he was embarrassed and handed over his bag which was surprisingly light. Considering the hard time he looked like he was having when he was holding it. I wondered if he was light? I give up i can't control these thoughts! He stared at my mask for a moment before walking to the car. 'What was that all about i wondered?' Oh well. I put his duffle bag in the back seat and then got in and begin driving us back to my house.

Frank's POV

We rode back to Gerard's house in silence. I found it awkward and felt like something needed to fill the space.

"what CD's do you have?" i asked hopefully to get a conversation or two out of his beautiful lips, and allow me to learn more about him and remove this 'sheet' from him making him a mystery.

"Uh a little bit of everything Misfits, The Used, Thousand foot krutch, Get Scared, Escape The Fate, Three Days Grace, Mayday Parade, Taking Back Sunday, Clint Eastwood, Pink Floyed and Metallic." When he spoke he used his right hand to count the CD's and make gestures like he was telling a story and his hands were the biggest part.

"Wow" I said amazed "you do have a little bit of everything! I love 'Get Scared, The Used and Three Days Grace!" smiling with pride that he had something i liked he didn't say a word but continued driving. I picked The Used Artwork album and put it on. I haven't ever heard this album by them, but i was sure it was gold. Just like all their other albums. When it started playing Gerard took one hand off the wheel and begin tapping his leg. I watched him for a moment before i spotted his 'problem'. Oh god, i wonder what that was from? How long has he had that? Silently i panicked and decided i could try and see what had caused it without asking directly.

"Uh i think it's a fair warning Gee" i used his nick name to see if that had any effect which i doubt it would considering how ugly i am and how straight he was.

"That i sometimes sleep walk just in my boxers" My eyes never left his crotch and i don't think he noticed he was too focused on the road and tapping along to whatever song this was called.

"It's fine" He bit his lip probably trying not to laugh and continued.

"I don't think Mikey would care." My heart sank a little. I'd be staying in Mikey's room? Well i guess it only made sense considering the fact Mikey had invited me and not Gerard.

"cool" i replied flatly.

"well we're back." His face was flushed.

"Uh Gerard you okay?"

"Uh oh yeah why do you ask?"

"Um i couldn't help but notice your little uh well 'problem'" His face went completely red.

"I'm so sorry its just well i um.......i don't .......really know what caused it? Maybe it was.............that girl on Space Dandy?" Of course it'd be that girl on Space Dandy her tits had practically been playing peek a boo with her shirt.

"Its fine well i guess you'd better take care of that? I'll get my bag"

"Yeah thanks Frank i am so sorry you had to see it though." He begin to get a little sweaty and honestly it was hot. He quickly ran inside and to his room to take care of it. Surprisingly his parents weren't home and he hadn't mentioned anything about them so i figured this must be normal to them? Anyway i got my bag and went inside Mikey greeted me by the door.

"Welcome back Frank" He smiled so wide i didn't think it would be safe if his smile widened anymore.

"haha thanks where do i put my bag?"

"Oh you could put it up in Gee's room for now i'm sure he won't mind."

"Okay um i'll be right back." when i turned around to go to Gerard's room i realized i had no clue where it was.

"Um where would his room be exactly?"

"the second floor first door on the left."

"cool thanks mikes."

"Sure no problem you better hurry back we're going to watch saw if you're back down or not i'm starting it!"

"don't worry Mikes i won't be long!" I replied smiling. Then i continued on to find Gerard's room hoping he had sorted out his problem. I knocked once. Then twice. Then three times no one answered so i figured he might be asleep. When i opened the door he defintally wasn't asleep.

Notes

Hello kittens! One of my longer chapters with some teaks i hope you enjoy it. the songs in this chapter are start to fall by Get Scared and then Problmatic also by Get Scared. Just in cause you were wondering also i'd like to know what you all think of this little bit i wrote i'm not sure if you'd call it poetry but i'm really self conscious and don't feel like i deserve to call it poetry but i am trying really hard.

“I wish we could talk right now but i would fall apart in your hands. I am as fragile as a weathered wall. You tell me i am as beautiful as a glass rose, but i am no stronger.”

Huh? huh? I like it current mood tho. Bleh. I get really bi polor at night tho fun fun fun well i would really love feedback kittens! Anyway have a wonderful day and remember to smile and remember to keep running!