Well This Sure Ain't Funny

It was night and Gerard was sleeping again, and, well... I was... being, I guess.

I didn't feel like taking another walk to meet more drunken people who wanted to fuck me, right now so I was just sitting on the floor watching Gerard sleep... and no, before you say anything, I'm not a creep. He's just so cute and there's nothing else to do, that's it.

Well yeah maybe I have a tiny crush on him, but shut up.
He's just so nice and funny and cute and I need to stop.

I can't even believe that I'm arguing with myself in the middle of the night.

This is not how I imagined dying... at all.

I got pulled out of my thoughts by Gerard, who turned his back towards me.

How rude.

Now I can't see his cute face.

Fucker.

I stood up and walked next to Gerards bed, because I'm a creep like that.
Gerard looks so peaceful when he's asleep that he makes me calm down too, I don't exactly know why but he has that effect on me.
"Why do you have that effect on me." I whispered smiling to myself knowing Gerard wouldn't answer...
"What?" ... or trusting that he wouldn't hear me.

"Why are you in my room Frankie?" yeah that was his new nickname for me, which sent shivers down my spine.

"I uh..." oh shit. 'yeah I sneaked into your room and watched you sleep.' that didn't sound so good. "... I got lost." what the hell Frank? Really?

"What?" Gerard smiled trying not to laugh at me. Gerard pulled himself to a sitting position still trying to hold back laugh.
"Oh god I just..." and there he goes.

Okay.

Fuck it.

I'm done.

Fuck people.

Fuck Gerard. That's what you'd like to do.

I NEED TO STOP TALKING TO MYSELF.

"Shut up Gerard. It's boring here so I came here to check on you." I whined trying to get him to shut up. He's never letting me forget this.
"Okay... okay. I'll shut up. Sorry." Gerard breathed out pulling out his most horrific smile ever.
"Please don't ever smile like that again, gosh." I said walking to the door.
I put my hand to the door knob and looked back at Gerard.
"Get some sleep. I'll find something else to amuse me." I laughed and pulled the door shut after me.

Great job Frank.
"Great job."

Notes

I was going to get on my laptop tomorrow and keep writing this but then I remembered that I'm busy all day so I made this in kind of a hurry but whatever.. :'DD