Return To Me, My Love

When I finally manage to pull myself together again Mikey and Pete help me up onto my bed and they both kneel beside it as I lay back and Mikey reaches out and squeezes my hand before saying "Gee whatevers going on, that's not a healthy relationship and I'm worried about you." "I love him so much Mikes, even after everything but it's killing me. I need him around, I need..." I trail off, sobs overtaking me again and a few minutes later I ask to be left alone, Mikey and Pete leaving the room and I curl into a ball around the spare pillow on my bed and let myself cry, feeling completely defeated and broken. I finally manage to cry myself out and just as I feel myself start drifting off to sleep again my bedroom door opens and before I can even turn my head to see who it is they slide onto the bed with me and I am enveloped by a sweet scent, like strawberries and vanilla and warm arms wrap around my waist as a warm chest presses to my back and I look down to see heavily tattooed hands and arms holding me. "Frankie" I whimper out as I start to cry again and I flip myself over and bury my face in his neck. "Shhh baby, I'm here, I've got you" Frank whispers before leaning down and pressing kisses to the top of my head and I whimper again before going quiet, clenching my hands in the front of his shirt. We remain silent after that, Franks hands gently rubbing up and down my back as I snuggle further into his chest for warmth and my eyes slip closed, his comforting hold helping me drift off.

I wake up a few hours later with Frank still sleeping beside me, his face slack and he looks so peaceful and beautiful that I can't help myself as I lean over and press my lips to his, his warm breath washing over my lips as I lean in and just as I go to pull away Franks lips start moving with mine and I press back into the kiss, our lips slowly working against each other until Franks hand comes up to tangle in the back of my hair and his hand pushes my head down a little more, increasing the pressure and holding me there as his tongue slides it's way into my mouth and I groan softly as my eyes slip closed and I start to really kiss back, Franks tongue dominating mine and I surrender to him, letting him lead the kiss and just as he goes to pull back for air his hands slide down to grip my hips, quickly flipping us over and as soon as my back makes contact with the mattress his lips are there again, his tongue invading my mouth as he slides his body ontop of mine and I give in completely, my hands sliding up to tangle in his hair and a few seconds later he starts to slide his lips down my neck. sucking and biting and licking and I moan softly as I tilt my head to the side and give him better access and he starts sucking on one spot that makes my whole body shake underneath him, his leg shifting between mine to grind his thigh into my hardening dick and I buck up into it a little, neither of us speaking a word as lust takes over and in what feels like no time at all Frank has us both naked and is kneeling between my parted legs, his slicked up dick forcing its way inside me and when he's in all the way he locks eyes with me and he stares for a second before saying "I want you baby, I love you with everything I have and I want to be around all the time, I want to spend every day with you and it kills me that we can't. I love you more than I ever thought it was possible to love anything , more than music even and if I could I would be here with you but I can't, not for right now but once this tour is over in a few months I will be there, I will take the time off until we have it right. I need you to understand that it's not that I don't want to be here, I really really do baby but I need to finish touring first and I need you to be ok with that. I can't stand it when we fight, I fucking hate it so much but what I hate more is to see you sad and crying so please, can we come to a compromise for now because I can't stand to see you like this." I take a deep shaky breath, thinking over everything Frank just said before I say "Frankie I love you so much and I'm scared I'm losing you. Being away from you is so fucking hard and it feels like what we had is slipping away from me and I don't mean to act so crazy but I'm just so fucking scared to be without you," more tears rolling down my cheeks by the time I'm finished, my heart laid out for him to see. "Don't cry baby, please" Frank pleads as his own eyes well with tears and I gently reach and cup his cheek, my thumb stroking under one eye and he leans into my touch before saying "You're not ever going to lose me baby, I can promise you that without any hesitation. I'm yours, truly and completely and no matter where I am or who I'm with you're always on my mind. Being away and touring is hard for me too and I miss you so fucking much but we can get through this, I promise you." I continue to stare into Franks eyes for a few long seconds before he leans down and seals his lips to mine again and as I start to kiss back his hips shift and he slowly pulls out before thrusting back in and we start up a steady slow rhythm, the sensation feeling amazing and when Frank pulls away from my lips again he pants out "Missed your body so fucking much," thrusting back in again and pulling a whimpering groan from my lips.

An hour later Frank and I are laying naked in my bed still slightly panting for breath as we come down from our toe curling orgasms, our rhythm so slow and steady we fucked for longer than we ever have before and my whole body feels warm and relaxed. "Is there anything at all I can do to help you feel better baby?" Frank asks, obviously knowing he can't give me the one thing I really want. "I don't know" I tell him as I slide closer to him and he pulls me tight against his side. "I know it hasn't worked out so great in the past but how would you feel about joining the tour again? One of the techs just quit and we have a spare bunk on the bus. You could either work merch again or just hang out, it's up to you but that way we could be together and I promise you we will work on things while we're on the road." "I don't know" I say again, unsure about how that would go or what all the other guys would say and think about that. "I'm not leaving again until tomorrow night so you can think about it a little if you want" he offers and I nod, thinking it over and after another few minutes Frank climbs off the bed and pulls his clothes back on, throwing mine at me and saying "Come on, I'll take you to dinner" and I smile up at him as I drag myself out of bed and pull my clothes on too, slipping on shoes and we leave the apartment hand in hand, Frank taking me across town to our favourite place and we spend the whole meal smiling and joking and I feel my worries start to fade away again.

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