Return To Me, My Love

When the bus finally stops Frank and I remain in his bunk for a while, our conversation having lapsed into silence after he agreed to therapy with me and we just lay together, my head resting on his chest as he holds me close, one hand gently playing with my hair as my arm wraps around his waist, my fingers gently rubbing against the bare skin of his side where his shirt has ridden up. We lay in silence until the sounds of the other guys moving around collecting up all their stuff and moving it off the bus fades and Frank rolls his head to the side, pressing his lips to my forehead before saying "We should get going." I nod, sliding back a little so Frank can get out of the bunk, his hands reaching back in to help me out too and as I make my way back into the front lounge he double checks his bunk before going into the back lounge to make sure he didn't miss anything, coming back and telling me he packed everything yesterday morning so we grab his bag from the hotel off the table in the front lounge on our way out the door, Franks suitcases sitting in the parking lot beside the bus. While we are collecting them all up a cab pulls up and Franks manager comes over and tells us it's for us and we thank him as he helps us load all Franks bags into the trunk before we climb in and the manager tells Frank he'll call him before shutting the door and we drive away, Frank giving the cab driver the address for the apartment before trailing off and looking over at me, asking "Or, actually I don't know where you....." "The apartment is fine" I tell him, a small smile spreading across his face as his hand slides across and into mine, our hands remaining entwined for the rest of the ride.

By the time we manage to get the last of Franks stuff upstairs I am exhausted, dragging the last bag down the hallway into the bedroom before I collapse onto the floor and when Frank comes back in from the bathroom he chuckles softly before saying "Wouldn't the bed be more comfy?" "This is ok" I tell him, letting my eyes slip closed and a few seconds later I hear a soft rustling and when I open my eyes Frank is sitting beside me, his hand reaching down to gently push my hair back off my forehead. "I've missed you, more than I thought could be possible" he tells me and I swallow hard before saying "I've missed you too, but after everything I've been through I think it's best that I've learned to stand on my own. I can't keep letting you hurt me Frank and our relationship isn't healthy." "I know I've done some really fucked up things, our whole relationship even but more so recently and I know you don't deserve even a fraction of what I've put you through and I know most other people would have walked away years ago but after everything we somehow manage to find our way back to each other and I think that means it's really meant to be. It kills me that I hurt you so badly in Paris" Frank trails off to reach out and gently take my hand, the one he broke, pulling it into his lap before he continues. "You know I never meant for that to happen right? I would never intentionally hurt you that way I just got caught up in everything that was happening and it was like I couldn't control it and I hate myself for it. I love you Gerard, you're the most important thing in the world to me and I know we agreed to therapy but I think I also need therapy for myself because I don't want to hurt you anymore."

We fall into silence again after that, our relationship still in ruins but it feels like we are in a better place. We move from the floor to the bed and after a while of holding me Frank gets up and starts to unpack his bags, sorting through his clothes and getting ready to wash them over the next few days before he leaves again and I lay under the covers and watch him until my eyes drift shut and I fall asleep. I wake up a few hours later from a nightmare again, hands touching me and I freak out, screaming and throwing my hands out to try and protect myself before I hear a dull thud followed by a gasped curse and I snap my eyes open, seeing Frank kneeling beside me holding his mouth and I realise I just punched him. "Shit, I'm sorry" I rush out as I sit up and Frank shakes his head, his hand coming down from his mouth as he says "It's alright, are you ok?" And I see his bottom lip starting to swell a little, the skin below it going red. I ignore his question, my hand slowly reaching out to cup his chin and I gently stroke my thumb over the spot I just hit and Frank leans into it, his eyes locking with mine and I frown as I say "I'm sorry" again. "I had it coming, don't worry about it" he tells me, smiling slightly and I feel my lips pull up slightly as I smile back before I lean forward and press a gentle kiss to his chin, only just catching his bottom lip and as I go to pull away Frank tilts his head down and leans forward, pressing his lips against mine and we share a soft slow kiss, no tongues, just the gentle movement of our lips together and when the kiss should be done neither of us seems willing to pull away, Frank pulling back for just a fraction of a second for a breath before his lips are moving with mine again, our mouths slightly parted but still no tongues and it feels different and special and full of feeling and after another few seconds Frank shifts around and gently eases me back onto the mattress, his body settling over mine and his hands come up to gently tangle in my hair as he continues to kiss me soft and sweet.

Before I know it Frank and I are kissing a little more forcefully, our tongues starting to come into play as we gently tangle just the tips together and Frank slides one hand down out of my hair, softly stroking the side of my face as he makes his way down before trailing it down my side and when he reaches my hip he slides it back up under my shirt, his warm hand spread out against my side and it feels like his skin is burning mine but it feels amazing. After another minute I guide us to roll over, Franks back pressed into the mattress as I straddle his hips and his other hand slips down and under my shirt too, both of them trailing up and down my bare back while I press my body down closer against his and I feel his half hard dick pressing against mine, the breath leaving my body for a second as a shiver of want runs up my spine and when I pull away to gasp in air Franks hands slide back down and tug my shirt up, his eyes questioning and I sit back in his lap, his dick pressing into my ass and I squirm slightly to tease him a little as I grip the front of my shirt and we both work to pull it off me, throwing it on the floor as Frank sits up and reattaches our lips, his too warm hands touching my back again and I slide my hands down to tug at his shirt, getting it up around his neck before he pulls back and allows me to take it off, his shirt joining mine on the floor before he tips us to the side and as he trails his lips down my neck I feel his hands tug at the waistband of my sweat pants and I relax back into the mattress, bringing my feet up to brace against it as I push my hips up and Frank sits up and shuffles back on his knees as he starts to slowly ease my pants down, my boxers going with them and once I'm completely naked Frank pauses, glancing up at me for a second and when I show no objection he leans down and presses a gentle sucking kiss to the head of my dick, making my whole body shake as I groan softly, my eyes slipping shut and when I feel the warm wetness of his mouth engulf me I gasp a little louder, my hands clenching in the sheets as my eyes remain closed and Frank starts a slow steady rhythm, gently sucking and licking as he bobs up and down on me, clearly in no rush to make me cum and it feels amazing, every nerve in my body feeling like its pulsing with pleasure.

Frank continues to blow me for a few more minutes, periodically pulling off to kiss and lick up and down my length like he's worshiping my dick before he takes it back into his mouth again, one of his hands gently rubbing against my lower stomach while the other works on his belt and when he has his jeans open he shifts around and tugs them down far enough to kick them off, pulling off my dick again and as he kisses down my length he keeps going, gently kissing over my balls as he guides my legs apart further, his warm hands gripping the back of my thighs and pushing them up towards my chest a little, exposing my hole to him fully and he wastes no time in kissing straight down to it, his tongue gently darting out to lick over the puckered flesh and I let my eyes slip closed again, my body shaking as he starts to full out rim me, his tongue working my hole perfectly and I feel my entrance getting slick and wet right before his finger gently works its way inside and I push down against it, urging him deeper while his tongue licks around my now stretched hole and I could cum just from this, beads of precum rolling down my dick as my body feels overheated but somehow it's just not enough. Frank continues to finger and rim me for a few more minutes, adding a second finger before he slips them from me and presses one last kiss to my hole, the bed shifting slightly and I force my eyes back open to see Frank reaching into the drawer for lube, squirting some into his hand before he reaches down and slicks himself up, my eyes widening at the sight and I know it's probably my mind playing tricks but I swear his dick is even bigger than it was before and after he wipes his hand off on the sheets he settles back between my legs, gently guiding them back up how he had them before as he lines himself up and gently slides his way inside me, the stretch slightly burning and when I gasp he pauses, only half way in but giving me time to adjust and after a moment he leans down and presses his lips to mine as he thrusts forward a little more and I breathe deeply against his lips as he bottoms out, his dick filling me up and stretching me open more than I remember in the past but I love the burn that shoots up my spine. Once he's fully settled inside me Frank pulls back just a little, his face still close enough to mine that our noses brush, his hands braced against the mattress either side of my head and I wrap my legs around his hips, keeping them up how he wanted them and we share a soft smile before he pulls back half way and thrusts in again, a soft gasp leaving my mouth and he keeps going, building up a steady slow rhythm and it's nothing like our usual frantic sex where we try to bring each other undone, this is slow and soft and for once I feel like it wouldn't even matter if we cum or not, the whole act feeling more important than the end result and I bring my hand up to tangle in the back of Franks hair, bringing his face back down just a fraction so I can kiss him again.

We fuck for what feels like hours, both of our bodies covered in sweat, beads rolling down Franks neck and chest and dripping onto mine and the sheets are soaked beneath me, my whole body feeling tired and spent but we still haven't cum yet and I don't want to stop, my head swimming and when I gulp in a breath I can smell and taste the muskiness in the air around us, the whole room smelling of sex and sweat and it just turns me on even more, my whole body constantly shaking and twitching and every touch from Frank feels like an electric shock. "I love you baby, with everything I have and I want to be the man you deserve" Frank pants against my lips and I shake all over as I stare into his eyes and say "I love you." We fall silent again after that, our harsh panting being the only sounds in the room before Frank gasps out "Fuck, so amazing baby" and I nod frantically as I pant back "I never want to stop." Frank smiles wide as he leans down to kiss me again and after another few minutes I shift my hips, Frank slipping just a little deeper with the new angle and I practically scream in pleasure, Frank smirking as he raises his eyebrow at me, his hips snapping forward just a little harder and my back arches off the bed, my body pressing up against his even more and we both know this is it, Franks hips snapping forward harder and faster and I move underneath him, pushing back against his rhythm and it only takes a few more thrusts, Franks stomach rubbing against my dick just right as its trapped between our bodies before I feel something in me let go and I start to cum, the first spurt shooting out with such force it splatters against our chests and as my muscles contract Franks whole body tenses and shakes and I feel him start to pulse inside me, our hands grabbing at each other wherever we can reach as he cry out in pleasure, my eyes slipping closed as I keep cumming, my head tilted back into the mattress as I gulp for air, a constant stream of moans and broken pleas escaping me and Frank buries his face in my exposed neck as he does the same, making way more noise than I've ever heard him make in this situation before and he cums so much that before he even pulls out I can feel it running out of me soaking the sheet beneath me and as he pulls his hips back the last little spurt shoots out and hits my stretched hole, making my whole body shiver at the sensation. "Fuck babe" Frank pants out and when I force my eyes open I see him kneeling between my legs, his eyes fixed on my hole and he reaches out and slowly rubs over it, my whole body twitching at the feeling as I groan and he chuckles softly to himself before gripping my thighs and gently easing my legs back down onto the mattress and once I'm comfortable he collapses down beside me, his hand taking mine and we both roll onto our sides so we're facing each other as we try to regain our breath, my whole body feeling sensitive and overheated.

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