She Even Poked The Holes So I Could Breathe

I wake up the next morning, partially in a good mood because l didn't have a nightmare like l usually do. Maybe it's the luck of the 'gang'... gang of weirdos as l like to call it. Today l decide to wear a black Black Flag shirt and some of my ripped, grey skinny jeans. I head out of the door to school, barely getting a goodbye from my parents. As l'm on the bus, I realize that l actually have the same bus as Oli; l didn't recognize him yesterday because l didn't know him in the morning. I plop down next to him and he dazes out of his daydreams.

"Oh, hey Christa. Did you and Ray get home safe last night?" Oli asks, looking genuinely concerned as he wore a slight smile. I admired that he was so... considerate.

"Ya, we both did. The party was pretty fun last night." I start, hoping to strike a conversation. Oli beams at me and nods his head up and down.

"Right? You know... I was thinking that you and Ray would be cute together." He says and I immediately tense up.

Me and Ray? No, no. I hardly know him. Yes, he is nice and sweet, and he has soft brown eyes, but no way. I don't even know his last name! Wait, that's a lie, it's Toro. But still! I don't like anyone at this school, and in all honesty, l've never ever liked anyone in my entire life time. I just don't get attracted to people, at least not easily. Ray Toro... shit, l can feel myself blush when l think of him. Not because l like him, because l don't, but because what Oli said embarrassed me. Suddenly, there is a shaking on my shoulder and I stop staring at the seat in front of me and am face to face to a giggling Oli.

"Christa, you really got into some deep thoughts just now... was it about Ray?" Oli joked, but l didn't find it funny. I frantically shook my head and stared away from him.

"No! I was just thinking of... Mikey and Pete and Patrick!" I say as a lame excuse but instantly regret it. Shit! l was supposed to keep my mouth shut! Oli looks at me confused and I become shaky and sweaty. Oli raises an eyebrow at me and l feel like l'm gonna throw up.

"Why would you be-" Oli started but he was cut off by the bus driver yelling for us to get off his bus. I quickly did so and leaped into the cold, New Jersy air. I really hope that Oli dropped the subject.

I see Patrick stride towards Oli and I and by now l'm really hoping that Oli won't say anything but nooo, he has to say something right as Patrick is within three feet of us.

That's it, I've ruined everything.

''So Christa, what were you saying about Mikey and Pete and Patrick?" Oli asks and my mind shuts down and I can't think of an excuse; I can't even open my mouth. So Oli asks a second time.

"Alright, Patrick, I think it'd be best for you to talk to Pete and just ask him if he loves yo-" but my sentence drops like my mouth as l see Pete approaching the three of us. I glance over at Patrick and his face is confused.

"Hey guys! Hey baby." Pete squeals and kisses Patrick on the cheek. I see a figure bob behind Pete, the silhouette has glasses, awkward legs, pursed lips... Fuck! Mikey!

As Pete kisses Patrick, l see heartbreak in Mikey's eyes, guilt washing over Pete's face, and confusion in Patrick's.

Patrick gives me a look and l slowly shake my head at him, thinking he'll ask Pete if he loves him or not and deciding that that'd be a bad idea to do here and now. But no, Patrick asks him.

"Pete! Doyouloveme?" Patrick quickly whispers under his breath and my heart stops. He wasn't supposed to ask that! Pete looks at Mikey, then at me.

"Can you repeat that hon, I didn't get that." Pete softly says but there's a hint of upsetness lying underneath his voice.

"I said... I asked if you... love me...?'' Patrick repeats and I shut my eyes closed. I can't deal to see all of their faces; especially the heartbreak in Pat's eyes, the anger that should be coming at me from Pete, and the look of guilt in Mikey's expression. It's all my fault. But Pete couldn't get away with cheating! It's not right! I decide to open my eyes after a few seconds of silence and everyone is staring at me. Patrick's crying.

"Of course I love you, Pat. Why would you ask tha-"

"No! Pete, stop! Tell him the truth or l will!" Mikey bursts. Pete looks shocked and has that 'oh shit' look spread across his face. Pete then stares at me and rushes towards me with such a look in his face that it scares me.

"YOU SAID YOU WOULD KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT YOU LITTLE BITCH! YOU RUINED MY RELATIONSHIPS; BOTH OF THEM!" Pete screams at me whilst grabbing my wrists and violently shaking them in the air. I wince but begin to get angry with Pete.

"IT'S NOT MY FAULT! YOU JUST HAD TO BE A WHORE AND DATE TWO FUCKING GUYS AT THE SAME TIME! NOW IT'S YOUR TIME TO-" I yell in Pete's face but something breaks between us and pulls us apart. Patrick. He looks so broken with tears streaming down his face.

"Pete, y-you're ch-cheating on m-me?'' Patrick chokes out and l gasp at the sight of someone so sweet being so hurt.

I suddenly feel big hands around my shoulders and l swing my head around to see who it is; and it's Ray. He always seems to be here to make me feel at ease.

I realize that the entire 'gang' is crowded around us, Pete now on the ground with someone throwing fists to his face. I think it's Frank. I glare at Mikey to see Gerard having an intense, angry conversation with him. I can make out a few of the words: Cheating... Patrick... Apologize... Ruined because of you. Each worst sputting out of Gerard making Mikey cry harder and then Gerard's face softens and he hugs Mikey, soothing him and whispering what looks like an 'I'm sorry'.

Everything seems like such a blur and l think i'm about to pass out, but l don't because Ray is holding me tight and is gently slapping me on the cheek trying to keep me awake. I look over Ray's shoulder and see someone trying to drag Frank off of Pete, I think it's Brendon. Frank has a murderous look in his eyes as he tries to escape from Brendon's grip and back onto Pete. Gerard rushes over to Frank, letting Oli accompany Mikey, and he tries to calm Frank. Frank soon settles down and Brendon is now trying to help up a bleeding Pete.

Patrick's wailing, Mikey's crying, Frank is puffing, Gerard is desperately trying to calm Frank, Oli is hushing Mikey, Brendon is gasping at Pete's image... It's just all too much.

"Wait wait! What happened?!'' Brendon questions over all the noise and my world begins to fade and go black. But before I pass out, I attempt to spill a few words out.

"Sssorry... I-it's m-my fault." I stutter out right as Ray's arms tighten around me and I'm out cold.

Notes

Hey guys, it's Monroeville.

I'm sorry for not updating in a while! I've just been feeling tired and a bit off lately so I've been having no time to do things. That and l'm always out of the house.

Anyways, tell me what you think of this chapter. <3