*Frank's POV*

Me and Gee walked home silently, just holding hands, with little grins on our faces. It wasn't an awkward silence though, it was a comfortable silence, both of us just enjoying each other's company and knowing that the other one wasn't getting hurt right now. I said a quiet goodbye to Gerard outside his house, to which he replied with a small 'Bye.' and a kiss on my forehead. I probably was never going to get this smile off of my face.
I headed up to my room, dread quickly washing over me realizing that I was so tense when I heard the door open that I'd forgotten all about the call that the school was going to make when I didn't show up, desperately hoping that it wasn't answered by my mom, and my mom hadn't seen the message. I slowly creep up to her room, half expecting her to jump around some corner and beat me, only to get there and realize that the message was, in fact, not opened, so I simply deleted it.
I walked back across the hall too my room, collapsing onto my bed as soon as I got there, and set my backpack right next to my bed on the floor. My thoughts instantly went to Gerard.
I thought about a lot there. I though about how his hair was so perfect, framing his face nicely, and just bright enough without being blinding. I though about how you could get lost in his hazel eyes for hours and it would probably feel like minutes. I though about how I'd fallen asleep on him, so happy, and then i thought about what came after. I was initially happy and excited about what had happened, and then I realized that really it was just a huge heat of the moment thing and he probably is re thinking it at home alone right now.
He probably didn't actually care that much about me, I mean we were just a release for each other, right? I mean I didn't think of it like that, I was genuinely nervous and scared every time I told him something, but he just went straight out and said he cut. I mean, does anyone else do that that easily, or is it just him using me to get stuff off of his chest?
Also, I mean what we did behind the bushes, seemed real, like we actually cared, but what if that was just me? At this time in my thinking process, I was crying hard, so I worked on clearing my mind, but it didn't work, and I ended up crying myself to school at 4 in the afternoon.

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I woke up to that feeling on my face telling me that I, in fact, had cried myself to sleep. I got up, picking up my phone and checking the time, only to find out that due to me not plugging it in, it was out of battery. I slowly got up, simply because I was tired, and walked across my room to plug in my phone. I pulled my curtains away from the window hoping for an indicator towards what time it was, and noticed that it was still pitch black. I stood there for a minute, thinking, and eventually decided to go downstairs and grab a cup of coffee, figuring I was to awake anyway to go back to sleep.
While waiting for the coffee water to heat up, my thoughts drifted to Gerard, and about how today was Wednesday, a school day, and we'd have to go to that hell hole. I also thought about how it might be a little awkward around each other considering yesterday, and how I'll probably end up being awkward, considering my thoughts last night.
The water whistled making me jumped, and I quickly pulled the whistler thing off of the kettle as to not wake up everyone in the neighborhood. I finished making the rest of my coffee, just kinda going through the motions, and not thinking about anything but Gerard, and arguing with myself whether or not he hates me. I mean, we were a thing as he told me yesterday, but that still doesn't mean he wasn't doing that to console me after what had happened yesterday, and my thoughts last night might still be right. I mean, I really liked him, and I knew I was gay after what had happened with Bob, but because of that, I didn't know if Gerard, a guy who'd met me a whole three days ago, actually was considering me, after Bob, who'd been my best friend for years, hadn't given two shits about me.
I winced, realizing that I'd just tried to drink my coffee, and finding out that it was still scalding hot. I put the coffee down, and went over too look at the clock, considering I didn't actually know what time it was yet. I was prepared for it to be horribly early, considering I'd fallen asleep at four, but it turned out that it was actually only a very overcast morning, and only six o'clock AM. I walked back upstairs to an almost fully charged phone, but decided to leave it plugged in while I was getting dressed for school, knowing I needed to leave at 6:30. As I took off the skinny jeans from yesterday, to throw on one that didn't have cum stains on it, something fell out of my back pocket. I put on a new pair of pants, and picked it up too look at it.
It was a number.
And it said 'xoxoGerard' under it.
Gerard left me his number. I quickly slipped off my old shirt, and put on a different old band tee rushing over to my phone to add Gee. Once it was done I texted him.

ME: Hey, it's Frank.

I put my phone on vibrate and set it in my back pocket, pulling mu backpack onto my shoulder and going downstairs, just hoping my coffee wasn't too cold now. As I passed by the clock, I noticed the time. 6:15. I had 15 minutes. Forgetting the coffee, I rushed upstairs to quickly smudge on some eyeliner until I thought I looked at least slightly acceptable, casually walking downstairs after my eyeliner had decided to cooperate with me today. Suddenly, I felt something buzz in my back pocket, and took my phone out to see a text from Gee.

GEE: Oh my god Frankie, I thought you wouldn't text back.

I smiled at my phone and sat down at the dinner table where my now cold coffee was, deciding to have a conversation with Gee, not really caring that my coffee was cold, just caring that it was caffeine.

ME: Why wouldn't I?

GEE: I was thinking that the whole thing yesterday was like in the moment or whatever, and maybe you were done with me.

ME: I was actually thinking that too.

GEE: Well then let's stop thinking about that, I bet it's just bringing both of us down.

ME: Yeah just slightly.

GEE: Well I'm coming over to yours so we can go to school now. It's 7.

ME: Okay, I'll be waiting.

I waited for Gerard to knock right behind my door, deciding I did't want to wait outside for him in the cold. I'd already grabbed my jacket and backpack, stuffing my phone and ear buds into my jacket pocket. As I heard a knock on the other side of the door, I opened it smiling, pulling Gee into a big hug. He pulled back from the hug a few seconds later.
"You were crying?" He asked, surprised.
"Yeah... last night. I do way too much thinking, sorry." I replied, feeling horrible.
"No it's cool if you cried yourself to sleep last night, cause so did I."
"We need to stop this don't we?" I asked, already knowing the answer, although my depressed side was still unconvinced.
"Uh yeah. Maybe just slightly."
I laughed a little at his comment, and grabbed his hand, closing the door behind me, and we turned to the left this time, actually heading to school. I had a feeling that today was either going to be good, or bad, I just couldn't tell which, and just stuck with 'Well it's good now, so settle with that for right now and stop over thinking things'.

Notes

I'm sorry I haven't updated in like 5 days. I needed a break, after realizing how hard updating daily actually is, and feeling bad for every time I got upset when an update wasn't out on one day. So yeah. I'll try working harder to update more often, but I'm trying to sort my mind out right now, and this was a good was to get my mind off of stuff, but I don't really get in the writing mood when I'm like this.
Anyway, that got a little deeper than expected, so I'll sum up.
I needed a break.
I'll try to update more.
My mind needs to be sort out a little right now.

Anyway.... I hope all yalls liked it and are ready for my next update since it'll be them at school, a lot more exciting than it sounds trust me, I've planned this.