Frank’s P.O.V
*Saturday*

I woke up as usual facing the wall as Gerard’s arm was wrapped around me; I sighed, I don’t think I could ever get used to this. The grip tightened letting me know that he was awake; I rolled over letting me see a smiling Gee.

“How long have you been awake?” I asked my voice still sounding tired.

“About ten minutes” he responded

“Why didn’t you wake me?” I questioned scooting closer and snuggling into his chest; He just shrugged his shoulders.

“I like watching you sleep” he said; I chuckled and looked to the clock that read 12:15 PM.

“You want some food?” I said looking to him

“Sure, you cook it though” he grinned

“You need to learn sometime…How about we make pancakes and I’ll guide you through it?” I explained; he thought for a minute before sighing.

“Okay; don’t blame me if I burn the house down” he laughed as he kicked off the blanket; I playfully shook my head and did the same thing.

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“Now flip it” I instructed as Gerard stood over the stove, spatula in hand; he carefully flips the pancake over and once he realizes that it’s not burnt for once he grins. I had him make one before by himself so I can see how burnt they were; they weren’t bad…they were still edible.

“I did it” He cheers

“Finally” I joke, he gives me a glare and wipes some pancake batter on my face; I scoff and do the same thing he grins and tries to do it again but I run away.

“No you don’t” he calls and quickly wraps his arms around my waist pulling me back; I giggle and try to get out of his grasp.

“You better get the food before they burn” I warn, he looks back to the pancake that’s still on the pan and nods; not before giving me a quick kiss and turning back to the stove. After we made several pancakes; made by both of us Donna comes into the kitchen.

“Hey boys” she smiles; we give a hey back and she looks to the pancakes

“You cooking again Frank?” she asks

“Not this time” I say gesturing to Gerard; she looks astonished

“Gerard cooked?” He nods looking proud.

“My baby’s growing up” she squeals walking over and kissing his face.

“MOM” Gerard protests while I hold in a laugh; she turns to me.

“And you helped” that’s when she comes over and kisses my face; I smile and let her.

“Mom stop; I’m the only one who can kiss him” Gee grins and I blush.

“Okay I’ll be in the living room” she says

“You mind if we go to the mall today?” Gerard asks

“Go right ahead” she smiles; we nod and sit down to begin eating.

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“Shit, I need to the restroom real quick; be right back” Gee said as soon as we were in the lamp lit parking lot; gosh we didn’t mean to stay in the mall forever because it was already dark; we didn’t even get anything. We walked around then got some coffee then walked around some more.

“Okay” I laughed “I’ll wait here” He smiled and walked back into the mall; I was only there for a couple moments before I heard shuffling behind me.

“Well, well, well look who we have here?” I recognize that voice, turning around it was Bryce. Yep the crazy kid who cut me and said he will find me is now standing right in front of me; luckily he was alone…and so was I, fuck. Good mood spoiled again.

“What do you want?” I question while he just smiles

“Didn’t Tony give you the note? You know what I want” he replies taking a step closer.

“Why can’t you just leave me alone” I snap, he steps closer

“One, You got me expelled-“ He starts but I interrupt him.

“You got yourself expelled; if you would have just left me alone none of this would have ever happened!” At that line he punches me right in the jaw; instead of falling over I stared at him, instead of crying my eyes went dark and I started thinking. I have had enough of his shit; He fucking beat me up, he cut me and when I finally though he was gone out of my life he decides to still try to find me. When he saw that I didn’t fall he tried to swing again but I dodged it and tackled him to the ground and began punching at every surface of his skin I could; He yelled out and I still continued punching him in the face. I was basically sitting on his stomach while he kicked and tried to get me off of him; I saw and felt blood falling from his nose and lip. See, I wonder how he likes it?

“FRANK!” I hear someone yell and seconds later I’m being pulled off of Bryce and to my feet; I glance over and it’s Gee looking down at Bryce’s now bloodied face.

“I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU IERO; YOU BEST BELIEVE IT. I WILL KILL YOU. NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES” Bryce shouts as Gerard drags me across the parking lot to the car throwing me inside; he gets in and drives a like a block before pulling over and turning to me.

“Frank what the hell happened?” he asks

“Bryce magically showed up and punched me so I fought back” I responded looking down at my bloody and bruised knuckles.

“Baby your jaw” he gasps; I pull down the roof mirror and sigh when the spot where Bryce punched me has a nice dark bruise on it.

“Shit how am I going to hide this from your mom?” I exclaim

“Bryce found you, again; and your worried about what my mom will say?” he questions, I sigh and lean my head back on the seat.

“It’s okay” he says softly; I just give a nod and look back to Gee who was still staring

“Do you think he was following me?” I questioned

“No honey; we were just there at the wrong time” he assured, I nodded again

“Okay let’s just go home; I’ll just go upstairs and you can say we’re tired. Which I am but they won’t see the bruise…yet” I explain. He gives an okay while I turn to the window trying to ignore the small pain in my jaw; we arrive home and open the door and I am relieved to see only Mikey sitting at the couch.

“They asleep?” Gee questions as I keep my head tilted so Mikey doesn’t see the bruise.

“Ya they went up like an hour ago” he replied; we nodded and headed upstairs to the room.

“I’m going to restroom” I say while Gee gets ready for bed; he nods and I walk into the restroom.

I stare in the mirror looking at the bruise that now is darker then before; how did he find me? Was he already at the mall and just saw me, or something else? Why can’t he just leave me alone; I don’t want this anymore? I just want to go somewhere or go to school without being called names or almost getting beat up; is that too much to ask? I wonder if Donna has any makeup so I can cover this bruise? I open one of the cupboards and see a couple shelves where everything is held; my eyes graze over things until I stop at one thing that stands out in my mind…a small box of razor blades. Most likely for Mr. Way and shaving or something. I stare at it for a moment until my mind wanders to my past; when I used them. Everything about my past was either getting beat up, shoved in lockers, or called names; that was all. I literally cried myself to sleep every night after using the blades on my stomach or thighs; why not now?


I slowly pick one up and twirl it around my fingers. Everything that’s been going on with Bryce, my parents then thinking about my past with Aaron; I realize that Bryce, in some ways, are kind of like Aaron. He beat me up, threatened to kill me because I finally fought back; I mean Aaron was worse, he sent me to the hospital. I lift up my shirt to expose my scars; these are mostly because of him. I was alone, I had no one and no one cared anyway; It was just me hurting myself. I mean my parents cared about me but with all their work and things they weren’t there to actually help with most of it; I know they cared but they were just never there when I needed them most. I haven’t done it in at least three months and lately it’s been so hard; I look back to the razor that’s still twirling between my fingers. I take a grip on the blade moving it slightly closer and look back to my scars; then I start to think…

What about Gerard? He has helped me through so much; he has comforted me and has been there for me through it all. If I do this I can hide it from Mikey and their mom and dad but not Gee; he will notice something’s wrong and how will this affect him? He says he loves me and I believe him; I don’t want to hurt him…then why am I hurting myself? It started out with Bryce, then the dream with Aaron, then he found out that I used to hurt myself, then my parents, he’s helped me with all these things. He’ll be so disappointed and hate me if I do this. His whole family has helped me so much by just letting me stay here then doing this isn’t going to help at all; I don’t want to hurt anybody but all these thoughts running through my head of things that happened these past year make it difficult; why are they running through my head anyway? It’s been months; I guess I’m over thinking everything. I put my shirt down and put the blade back quickly closing the cupboard; my eyes start filling with tears thinking about what I was about to do. I tug on my hair taking a deep breath.

“Frank?” I whip my head around and see Gerard leaning against the door that I didn’t even realize that was open.

“D-did you” trying to ask if he saw; he nods and walks over wrapping his arms around me in a comforting embrace. What was I even thinking?

“I’m so sorry” I say into his chest a tear running down my cheek; he pulls away and wipes it off.

“Let’s go talk” he says, I nod and he leads me back into the bedroom. I am now sitting on the bed in between Gee’s legs while he sits back against the headboard arms wrapped around me and his head on my shoulder.

“Go ahead” he says softly, I take in a breath collecting my thoughts on how to put it.

“I went in and tried to see maybe if your mom had makeup to cover the bruise…and I saw the blades; my mind started to think about everything that’s happened with Bryce today and before. I lifted up my shirt t look at the scars and started thinking about Aaron and what he did; I was just over thinking everything. I started thinking of what people say at school; which was confusing because it’s never bothered me before; Everything bad that has happened to me, Aaron, Bryce, bullies, my parents…it was all on my mind; just everything” I said staring at one of the Green Day posters on the wall.

“Frank if you ever start feeling that way or thinking like that, you need to come to me; I know it’s been rough for you but I’m always here if you need me. I don’t ever want you thinking like hurting yourself is an option; It isn’t an option and never will be, not anymore. You have me to talk to or even yell at if you need to; I will be here” He say sternly but with care an emotion.

“I know, I’m sorry” I say another tear running down my cheek which I quickly wipe it away.

“Hey it’s okay; you didn’t do it, that’s good” he soothes pulling me closer and tucking some hair behind my ear.

“But I was thinking about it though; I shouldn’t be thinking about it!” I exclaim looking back down at my bruised knuckles; Gerard pulls me even closer until I speak up again.

“I stopped when I remember something…I remembered that people care about me this time…that you care about me and I that you would be disappointed and hate me if I did that” he opens his mouth to protest but I continue,

“I know, I know, you wouldn’t hate me; it was just a thought” he nods urging me to continue.

“You’ve done so much for me and I realized that that wouldn’t have helped at all; it would do nothing for any of us. I realized that your whole family helped; Mikey with just laughing and talking with me distracts me from all the stuff, it’s a small deed but it helps a lot. Then with your parents letting me stay here with you guys after my parents… But them letting me stay here was possibly the kindest and comforting thing yet; it’s better than staying in that house alone.” I end, he moves me so my body is turned sideways so he could look at me better.

“Like I said you can talk to me about anything; I know it’s rough but there is always someone who cares okay?” I nod and lean my head on his bare chest.

“I just don’t want to think those thoughts” I whisper

“Well think of something else…Think about how our one month anniversary is on Friday” he said and I couldn’t help but smile; a whole fucking month we’ve been together. I know it’s not that long but to me it was a huge thing; but I just wanted to keep it small.

“I would never forget” I say, he plays with my hair; I love how he makes me feel better after that small dark conversation.

“Is there anything you want to do?” he asks.

“Not really; just something small” I respond shrugging my shoulders; He thinks for a moment.

“How about we spend all day on the couch, watch some movies and order pizza?” he suggests, I grin more.

“I would love that” I reply, he nods and pulls the blankets up so it’s covering us.

“I love you Frankie, never ever forget that” he says softly

“Never” I whisper.

“Go to sleep baby” he says; I nod and close my eyes.


Mikey’s P.O.V

Gerard will fucking kill me if he saw that I was eavesdropping again; I heard Gee say ‘let’s go talk’ so I was curious; I headed upstairs and quietly pressed my ear against the door.

“Go ahead” I hear Gerard’s voice say softly

“I went in and tried to see maybe if your mom had makeup to cover the bruise” What bruise? “and I saw the blades” Wait what?

“My mind started to think about everything that’s happened with Bryce today and before” Wait he ran into Bryce today; that might have been why he has a bruise.

“I lifted up my shirt to look at the scars and started thinking about Aaron and what he did; I was just over thinking everything. Everything bad that has happened to me, Aaron, Bryce, the bullies, my parents…it was all on my mind; just everything”

He…he has scars; well if they were on his stomach then I would never have seen them. Then he was talking about the blades in the bathroom; was he going to do it again? That’s what he was thinking about; was hurting himself again. Who is Aaron? Someone from the past i'm guessing.

“Frank if you ever start feeling that way or thinking like that, you need to come to me; I know it’s been rough for you but I’m always here if you need me. I don’t ever want you thinking like hurting yourself is an option; It isn’t an option and never will be, not anymore. You have me to talk to or even yell at if you need to; I will be here”

I listened as Gerard spoke again comforting Frank; so he was hurting himself in the past. I wonder how long he hasn’t been though? Then Frank apologizes; Why is he apologizing he hasn’t done anything wrong? Then he starts talking about why he didn’t do it; I need to make sure I talk to him more then. I didn’t realize we helped him this much; I mean even having him live here wasn’t a big deed to me. After a bit of comforting they start talking about their anniversary; wow almost a month they’ve been together. That’s the longest relationship Gee’s had and from what I’ve heard the only relationship Frank’s been in…I really need to get a girlfriend. After a goodnight from Gee then some silence I know that their done; time to take action.

Notes

WQESRTGUJIKJHBGERSCHJKL:HGFDXCGHJKLJHGFDSRCRVGHJ...Sorry that was me throwing up; that's what i've been doing all week.

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