Frank’s P.O.V

My mind starts waking up and I feel my body pressed into Gerard’s; I moved a little and I automatically felt a hand against my cheek. Gerard’s soft fingers lightly grazing over my skin made a shiver go down my body; I opened my eyes and see Gee smiling.

“Hey baby, did you sleep well?” He asks, I nod and go to sit up when a huge spark of pain runs up my lower back; I yell out and Gerard quickly sits up. He tells me to lie back down and I gladly did. I tell him where the painkillers are and he gets up to get them. I couldn’t help but stare at his bare backside while he’s slipping on his boxers; It truly was a amazing sight. He sees me staring and he winks making me blush. When he’s gone I play with a string on the blanket and think. I lost my virginity; To the handsome Gerard…Who says he loves me. I smile and sigh; Things have been getting better. After he comes back we lay in bed for awhile just relaxing until I feel no pain. I ask if he wants coffee which was a stupid question because of course he does.

I go to get up but then stop when I realize I’m still buck naked, I all of a sudden feel nervous and ask Gee who looks away; I smile because he’s really understanding with me. I go to the closet and pull on a shirt then the dresser and quickly put on boxers and skinny jeans.

“Okay, I’m done” I say to Gee who turns around and smiles. He then walks over to me and places his hands on my waist pulling me closer.

“You are beautiful Frankie, Do you know that?” he says. I really don’t think I’m as beautiful as him so I shrug my shoulders.

“You are the most beautiful person ever. You need to know that; I will tell you a thousand times so you can see that you are” I blush because every sweet thing that comes out of his mouth makes me fall in love with him more. He kisses me and I smile. I go downstairs and start making the coffee he wanted; When he comes downstairs he automatically gets a text from Mikey saying that his mom told him to eat breakfast. I thought it was funny because I never really had a mother like that. When I’m making pancakes Gerard gets jealous because he burns them; I need to see him make them sometime to see if he is over reacting or not.

We talk a little during breakfast having minor conversations but then we cuddle and watch some T.V for awhile, after a bit Mikey calls pleading that we come over and hang out with him; Gerard seems annoyed but he really doesn’t care. I agree because we really didn’t have anything better to do. I wonder what it is like having a brother; especially a younger one. I keep thinking that if you are the older brother you feel more protective over the younger one. That’s what I see in Gerard; He seems really protective over Mikey. When we arrive his mother brings out some snacks…Even though we just ate breakfast. We all began talking about random nonsense what seems like forever but I like talking to these guys so it’s all good

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It was 1:45 PM and we are still at Gerard’s place; His mother was still in the kitchen making lunch I guess. I was laughing hysterically about a joke that Mikey made about the school principal when my phone starts ringing. Trying to contain my giggles I looked at the screen and it said unknown number.

“Hello?” I said trying not to giggle more about Mikey’s joke.

“Hello…Is this Frank Iero?” A woman asked, she sounded like she was crying.

“Yes, who is this?” I responded.

“My name is Kari I’m a coworker of your parents…There’s been an accident” She said almost crying again. I quickly sit up startling Gee and Mikey, them looking at me confused.

“What happened?” I ask frantically, my heart now beating faster.

“There…There was a gas leak, and your parents lit a match for a candle…Their room exploded and…” she couldn’t even continue before she was sniffling. My heart sunk and I felt like I was going to throw up. No, no, no, this isn’t right. They said they would come back.

“Are…Are they okay?” I quietly asked. I heard a faint sob form the other line.

“Frank…They…They were in the explosion…I’m so sorry Frank, they didn’t make it” I stared in front of me. No, no, they can’t be; this is just a dream. There happily in Maine on their business trip and they’re going to come back next week; my hands started shaking.

“I’m…I’m going to hand the phone…over to someone else” I quietly said, I heard a hum from the women and with shaky hands handed the phone to Gerard. Both of them were staring at me worried but Gerard took the phone. He placed it up to his ear.

“Hello?” he asked. I stared at the T.V in front of me; not watching it, just staring. I couldn’t hear the other end but Gerard said ‘his boyfriend’ so I’m guessing she asked what relation he had to me. I zoned out not wanting to do anything; No…they had been there for barely three days. Dad said they left Wednesday and they were coming back in two weeks; I glanced over when Gerard covered his mouth to hide a gasp. Tears springing in my eyes I jumped up and rushed up the stairs I heard Mikey call my name; obviously he had no idea what was going on. I ran into Gee’s room and closed the door; I couldn’t even make it to the bed before I fell on my knees and began sobbing. No this is a dream; it has to be a dream. A gas leak, in their room? I scooted back to the wall beside the door and pulled my knees up to my chest. This isn’t real, they’re coming back right? I needed them to come back, I don’t care that I barely saw them. I loved them, they took care of me. They watched me grow up and I’m not going to see them again. I hugged my legs and placed my head on my lap sobbing; I remember the conversation I had on Thursday with my mother when she called.

*Flashback*

“Hey mom” I said into the phone, I was sitting at the table eating some dinner.

“Hey sweetie how was school?” She asked, It was the same as most days, Gerard walking me to and from class, with the constant insults during.

“It was fun” I responded; Taking a bite out of the grilled cheese I was having.

“Good…I’m sorry again about not telling you we were leaving. Truth is the office didn’t even know until the day before and it was chaotic.” She explained

“Its fine mom” I laughed; I could hear her smile from the other side.

“So how have things been with you and Gerard?” she asks, I grinned at the name.

“They’re going well” I responded, I heard her scoff.

“Frank, you’re my son. I want to know more. Tell me!” She urged and I couldn’t help but giggle at her excitement.

“Mom it’s going fine, Nothing really to exciting” I groaned.

“Fine, I leave your love life alone…Are thinks okay at school, with other kids” she asked sternly.

“They’re better than last year” I mumbled, My mom sighed.

“I know it’s hard Frankie, It will get better” My mother assured; I hummed I response. I hope it will.

“But the best news today would be, if this meeting goes well then the company could give us less hours with the same pay and we could be home more” she said happily. My face lit up as she said that; I’ve always wanted them to be home more and I really hope they would.

“That’s great mom, I can’t wait” I said, she laughed at my happiness.

“Okay sweetie, it’s getting late and we have a meeting in the morning” she sighed.

“Okay mom. I guess I’ll see you when you guys get back and we can hang out more” I responded.

“Of course, I promise we’ll hang out more. I love you sweetie”

“I love you too mom, Tell dad the same thing” I said standing up and putting my plate into the sink.

“Of course, See you in two weeks” At that we hung up and I went up and got in my pajamas. I lay in my bed happier than before; I hope I would hang out with them more. I hope the meeting goes well so they get to. I closed my eyes and slowly fell asleep.

*End of flashback*

I was still crying so much; I didn’t think the tears were ever going to stop. She promised…She promised she was going to come back and hang out with me. Why did this happen. Please be a dream, Please be a dream. I knew I was in denial but I could only hope. I hugged my legs tighter, tears still falling from my face. They were there for three days, three fucking days and now they’re gone. I don’t want to believe it. It was only about five minutes I lay sitting by the door when it slowly swung open; I thought it was going to be Gerard but when I looked up it was his mother. She took a quick look around the room before she saw me on the floor next to her; quickly kneeling down next to me she looked at me. I couldn’t bring myself to look her in the eyes. She sniffed and placed a hand on my shoulder.

“I told Gerard to stay downstairs while I talked to you.” She started explaining. “Frank, I talked to the coworker. They’re not sure what’s going to happen but they’ll call when they get something. Frank I want you to stay here with us for a bit until they get this figured out” I popped my head up.

“N-no it’s fine…you don’t have to do that. And you n-need to talk to Mr. Way about that” I said, my voice shaking.

“Frank I want to and I can’t let you stay at that house by yourself. Trust me he would want the same thing” she said. I nodded understanding her worry.

“Are they really gone?” I whispered, still in my half denial.

“I’m afraid so” she replied and another tear rolled down my cheek. At that moment we both hear the front door open.

“Hey guys” says Gee’s dad happy but a moment later “What’s wrong?” he asks more sternly. I hear someone say something but I’m not sure what it was. Less than a second footsteps are running up the stairs to the room; once he sees the scene his face turns form confused to worried.

“I’m going to talk to him, we’ll be just a minute” I nodded and placed my head in my lap again. She left the room and I think they went into their own bedroom. I closed my eyes and tried not to cry again. They’re gone… They promised they would come back. I clenched my fist at the thought…They. Are. Never. Coming. Back. I ran my hands through my hair and took a deep breath. About a minute later the door opened again to reveal Gee’s dad who looked very saddened; Mrs. Way right behind him. He kneeled down next to me like she did and looked at me.

“Are you okay Frank?” Of course I’m not fucking okay, my parents just fucking died. I knew he was just trying to comfort me; I probably wouldn’t know what to do in this situation either. I just shook my head and looked down.

“You are staying here okay, As long as it takes. Even until you turn 18 if that’s the case, okay?” So basically I’m moving in. I nodded

“Okay, I’m going to drive you to your place so we can pack” Mrs. Way said. I nodded again and tried to stand up, My legs wobbled from sitting down but I held myself up thanks to the wall. I slowly walked downstairs and saw Gerard pacing around the living room and Mikey leaning on the wall. I’m guessing he’s been informed on the situation. When Gerard sees me he freezes; I’m pretty sure I look like shit. I glance at him and Mikey who’s looking just as worried. In a moment Gerard launches at me and hugs me; I would cry but I think I’m out of tears for today.

“Frankie” he whispers holding me close. I looked to him.

“Apparently I’m moving in” I mumbled.

“They told, It’s going to be all right” I sighed; I really doubt it right now. I pulled away and looked around I looked to Mikey who came forward. He hugged me also.

“I’m sorry Frank” He said “We are all here for you okay?” I nodded

“You guys are the only ones I have left” I said and pulled away. I turned around to see Mrs. Way standing by the door with her car keys. I nodded towards her and Gerard grabbed my hand leading me out the door. By now it was only 2:30 PM and I was sitting in the car with Gerard and I in the backseat, Gee held me close and I laid my head on his chest. That’s when I realized how fast things could be ruined. Just last night I was the happiest person in the world; I loved somebody and they loved me. Then I had sex; I woke up this morning in the best mood but now…My heart was throbbing with pain and it was just empty. My whole world came crashing down. We arrived to my house and I stared at it for a moment.

“You can come in” I told Mrs. Way, She nodded and unbuckled her seatbelt.

I unlocked the door to my house and quickly stepped inside. I heard Gerard say something to his mother but I couldn’t hear; I walked to my bedroom and looked around. There were still clothes from last night on the floor but it looked the same. I grabbed a suitcase from my closet and began packing my stuff; I did not have that many clothes so luckily they all fit. After I packed all of it I stood outside my parent’s room hesitating if I should go in. I slowly opened the door and stepped in; there was a sense of emptiness in the room. I’m not sure if it was because they weren’t in here for three days or because they were never coming back. I looked around and say the usual stuff; there was a closet, a bed, a dresser, and a nightstand. I slowly walked over the nightstand and opened the drawer. Inside there were several things.

I picked up a wrist watch that was still in good shape; I slid it on my wrist and it fit perfectly. I gave a small smile knowing that I could have something of theirs with me always. I rummaged through some things until I found a picture; I couldn’t believe it. It was a picture about a year ago from my birthday; It held me, mom, and dad smiling widely. I was very happy that day because they were off of work and could celebrate my birthday; we went to the carnival and talked about everything that was possible. It was the best day ever with them. I stared at it until I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist.

“Everything alright?” Gee asked, I lied earlier I guess there were more tears today. I nodded wiping off the liquid that fell from my eyes. I held the picture up to Gee and he gave a slight smile. My parents were never prone to keeping pictures or childhood memories, There weren’t any pictures hung on the wall like there was at Gerard’s house. I’m not sure what she did with them. I held it closely as I searched through the drawer; I didn’t find anything else interesting so I turned to Gee.

“I’m all packed” he nodded and grabbed my hand. Gee picked up the suitcase and I held the picture to my chest; I didn’t want it to get wrinkled. We went in to the living room where his mother was waiting patiently.

“Do you have everything you want?” she asked I looked around

“I think so” I replied. I thought for a moment
“Wait!” I said and rushed back to my room. I grabbed the drawing that Gerard made for me and carefully peeled it off the wall. I went back into the living room and nodded. Gerard smiled when he saw what I had.

She gave a small smile and we made our way to the car. During the car ride I stared at the picture forever; the way the carnival lights shone in the background, the pinkish-orange sky behind us. Just everything about it that there was to see. When we arrived back to his place…or I guess I could say my home and walked in. Mikey and his dad were silently watching T.V. When they saw us they looked relieved.

“Is anyone hungry?” Gee’s mother asked.

“Umm…Can I just take a nap?” I asked

“Of course Frank, Go right ahead” She assured.

“I’m going to join him” Gerard butted in, they all nodded and we headed upstairs. I pulled out some pajamas from my suitcase and set it in the corner not feeling like unpacking. Right now I could care less about my self consciousness and started quickly stripping my clothes; throwing on some shorts and a shirt. I was just so tired and worn out; Gerard did the same thing and we crawled into bed. I laid my head on Gee’s chest and took a shaky breath. All this was a lot to take in; I just wanted to lay in bed forever and forget about the world.

“We’ll figure it out okay Frank?” I nodded too tired to give a real answer. Gerard caressed my cheek and we stayed silent just quietly breathing before my eyes slowly drifted close.

Notes

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