Hold On Tight and Don't Look Back

Frank’s P.O.V
*Friday*

I am in love with Gerard. There I admit it; it seems like every time I saw him butterflies would erupt in my stomach and I would get a little nervous. Then he always made me laugh and giggle, no one has ever done that. Just seeing him made me instantly happier; I never thought I would fall in love and I’m quite scared actually. What if I tell him and he gets weirded out and leaves. No one has ever cared for me like Gerard has; He’s seen me cry my eyes out and seen me go through a laughing fit. He knows about my past and is still here doing everything he can to protect me from the bullies. I still couldn’t ask for anyone better; Gerard is that someone I’ve always hoped for but thought they didn’t exist. Well he exists and he is my boyfriend who I love dearly.

*Flashback*

My mind traveled back to Wednesday when he stayed the night; me scooting closer to him, It was more comfortable when he was around. I fell asleep fast so I’m not sure what happened but all I could feel was Gerard tuck a strand of hair behind my ear before falling asleep himself. Don’t even get me started on the morning. I woke up from the alarm but Gerard was still asleep; I turned to him and watched him for a minute taking in his features. He was facing me, his chest slowly rising and falling; I lightly rubbed his arm causing him to stir. His eyes slowly opened and when he saw me his face split into a grin and I swear he couldn’t get any cuter.

“Hey, did you sleep well?” I asked, he nodded and sat up. I did the same thing.

“Can you make some coffee?” he asked in a really sexy morning voice, I giggled and started getting up. When Gerard didn’t move I knew exactly the reason why. Before I stepped out the door I turned to him.

“I know you have morning wood, No need to hide it” I said giggling, Gerard blushed a dark red which was cute because he doesn’t blush that often; Well not as much as me. I headed out the door while he stared at me. I made the coffee and a couple moments later Gerard comes down fully dressed for school; I hand him a mug and he smiles.

“Thanks for letting me spend the night” he says taking a sip of the hot beverage, I chuckle.

“You could practically live here” I joke but Gerard raises an eyebrow.

“I’ll take that into consideration” I laugh and place my empty mug on the counter.

“I’m going to get dressed, be right back” he nods and I head upstairs. I walk into my room and sit on the bed; my gaze falls upon the picture that Gerard drew of me. I can’t believe he drew me; I stand up and walk over to it and just stare at it for a minute.

“My talented boyfriend” I mutter

“Why thank you” I hear a voice from the door that startles me, I jump up and look to the door

“Gerard you fucking scared me…What if I was changing and you came up here?” I yell at him. He laughs and looks over me.

“I wouldn’t mind” he jokes, I roll my eyes.

“Let me get dressed” I say closing the door. Hearing the footsteps descend down the stairs I begin to actually get dressed. After I fix my hair I head back downstairs to see Gerard watching the T.V. It was only 6:30 AM so we had 30 minutes to spare; I sit next to him and he pulls me closer, I rest my head on his chest and he smiles; I listen to his heart beat and it’s beating really fast. I lean up and look at him.

“Are you okay?” I ask, He looks at me confused

“Ya, why?” He says

“Your hearts beating really fast” I respond placing my ear up against his chest again, He shrugs his shoulders.

“I’m fine” I nod and we continue to watch television until it’s time to go. I lock up the house and we head towards the school holding hands.

*End of Flashback*

It was now Friday night and Gerard said he was coming over soon he had to go home because his Aunt was over there. I gave him a spare key since he said he was going to be over here every day for the next two weeks. His words not mine. It was 9:45 PM and I’m sitting on my bed doing some stupid project when I hear the front door open.

“Frank?!” I hear Gerard call throughout the house.

“I’m in my room!” I call back; I hear footsteps running up the stairs and a small knock at my bedroom door. “Come in” I say. The door opens to reveal a happy Gerard.

“Hey Frankie, what are you doing?” he asks sitting next to me his back against the headboard.

“Stupid science project” I respond filling in one of the questions. All of a sudden Gerard pulls it away from my grasp.

“It’s Friday, No homework!” he protests, I can’t help but giggle. Gee always seems to smile when I giggle and it makes me even happier. I lean my head on his shoulder, he smells like coffee. Gee kisses the top of my head and I start thinking.

Just tell him you love him…You can do it. If he is really the guy you fell in love with he won’t leave will he?
Tell him; just do it…Do it now!!!

“Umm Gee?”

“Ya Frankie?” I take a deep breath.

“I’ve been thinking about this for a bit…and I’ve been scared to tell you…”

“What is it honey?” he says looking me in the eyes.

“Gerard…I…I love you…I mean a lot. Like I’ve never felt this way and whenever I’m around you there’s just something there that I can’t explain. I understand if you don’t feel the sa-“

He quickly cuts me off my roughly pressing his lips on mine. After a moment he pulls away and looks to me with a grin.

“You don’t how long I’ve wanted to tell you the same thing. I love you Frank, so much. Every time I see you I turn into the happiest person in the world and I absolutely love you.” I stare at him in shock; he does feel the same way?

A grin spreads on my face as I push the textbooks off the bed and onto the floor, I lean closer placing my lips on his and he scoots closer wrapping his arms around me. This is an awkward position so I quickly swing my leg over Gee’s waist and straddle him; he was surprised but he soon continued through the kiss. I wrap my hands through his hair and lightly tugged. After a couple moments Gerard runs his tongue over my bottom lip and I part them; in less than a second he shoves his tongue down my throat and I let out a raspy moan; I try to ignore the sudden tightness in my skinny jeans. With Gerard and I making out in between breathes he utters some words.

“I love you Frankie” he mumbles and I can’t help but smile. This…I did not expect this, He loves me too. I could not be happier; It felt like all worry I had was washed away and replaced with even more love. He’s done so much for me since I met him and I can’t thank him enough; My feelings for this boy are bigger than I ever hoped but I’m glad it happened. I’m not sure how it happened but it did. Breaking the kiss I lean my forehead on Gerard’s, me still smiling; I think for a moment of possibly the biggest decision of my life right now. I take a breath in and look to Gerard.

“Gee?” I whisper

“Ya baby” I lightly blush and look into his eyes.

“I’m…I’m ready” he leans back and looks at me for a moment.

“Tonight?” he wonders, I nod

“Are you sure honey? You’re not doing it because you think you have to?” I shake my head.

“No Gerard. I love you and I want this” I explain.

A grin creeps on his face and he nods pulling me back into a heated kiss. With me still on his lap he quickly flips over so I’m laying on the mattress and he’s hovering over me, I gasp at the sudden movement but smile. He leans down for a passionate kiss before lightly tugging at the end of my shirt asking for permission. I nod and he takes it off throwing it to the side. I then realize that this is the most exposed I’ve been in front of anyone; I start to feel extremely self conscious right now. As if Gerard senses it he takes off his shirt too; I stare at his glistening chest and run my hands over his body. He lets of a small groan at the contact that makes my dick twitch in my already tight jeans. Gerard all of a sudden reaches into his back pocket and pulls out a condom placing on the nightstand next to me. I raise an eyebrow.

“You came prepared?” I joke

“No…I just….” He stutters. I just giggle and he relaxes; slowly his hands go for the button of my jeans lightly tugging. I hesitate for a moment before telling him to go ahead. He smoothly pulls my jeans off leaving me in my boxers, when he sees the tent in my undergarments he smiles and I can’t help but blush. He leans back down but instead of going for my lips he attaches his mouth to neck and begins sucking; I let out a slight moan and this apparently turns Gee on more for he sucks even harder. After he leaves a nice red mark on my skin he leans to my ear.

“Do you have any lube?” he asks.

“Top drawer, in the dresser” I respond.

He nods and gets off the mattress. I watch him as he moves a couple clothes to find the substance. I can’t believe this is about to happen. I’m about to lose my virginity to the person I love. When he pulls out the bottle he smiles and walks back over; He quickly shuffles off his pants revealing the tent in his boxers. I let out a small whine and he grins; crawling back on the bed he hovers over me and lightly presses his lips against mine before leaning up a little. I take a shaky breath as his fingers run over the hem of my boxers; He starts tugging them down and gasp as the cold air hits my hips and my hard erection is exposed. I automatically go to cover myself up but he stops me and kisses my hand before placing it beside me; I can't help but smile and blush. After a moment I feel his fingers lightly running over my thighs; I look down to see what he’s doing. His focused on the many scars that bare on my skin; I had forgotten about those. He looks into my eyes and I give a small smile. He looks back and leans over placing a kiss on each scar; He trails his kisses up and plants them on my stomach before trailing to my lips.

“My beautiful Frankie” he whispers, “You are so beautiful.”

He then leans up and grabs the lube; opening the bottle he coats his fingers in the slick substance and looks to me. I smile and get into a more comfortable position; As he slowly puts a finger inside me I let out a sharp hiss due to the small pain and the coldness of the lube. Gerard begins thrusting his fingers in and out and it takes me a moment before I start rocking my hips to his motion. He inserts another finger and begins scissoring; I let out small noises the whole time turning him on even more. After a bit and he thinks I’m stretched enough he leans back up; He tugs off his boxers and my eyes go wide at how big he is. Gerard just smirks at my reaction and reached his hand for the condom; He rolls it on and grabs the lube generously coating it. He looks to me.

“Are you ready baby?” he asks softly

“I’m ready” I respond.

He nods and gets himself into position; I take a deep breath as he slowly puts it in. I scrunch my eyes close and grasp the sheets letting out a small whine; Okay that hurts.

“Did you want me to stop?” He asks worried. I quickly shake my head and slowly open my eyes.

“No, Keep going” I tell him.

He continues filling me up, Gerard bites his lip to stifle a moan. Once I’m filled Gee stops allowing me to get used to it; I let go of a breath that I didn’t realize I was holding and wiggle my hips a couple times before I nod urging him to go on. He slowly starts thrusting in and out; it’s not a huge pain but it is distracting. I start thinking; where the hell do I put my hands? Do I run it through his hair, on his back, his chest, or do I just keep them next to me? I decide to put them on his back lightly running my nails across; luckily by now the pain has disappeared and is replaced with pleasure.

“Faster” I moan out and Gerard grins, He immediately starts thrusting faster and I lean my head back letting out heavy pants. All of a sudden an eruption of pleasure goes through my body and I scream out.

“Fuck…right there” I yell. Gerard repeatedly thrusts into my prostate making loud moans erupt from my throat. Gerard cups my face with his hand and sloppily kisses me; Teeth and tongue clashing I feel a sudden tightness in my stomach.

“Gee…I’m…” I yell out and arch my back as strings of cum find their way on Gerard’s stomach and chest. Apparently that was enough for Gerard to send him over the edge too; After he came down from his high he flopped down next to me taking the condom off and tying it, he threw it in the small trash can next to the bed. He grabbed a towel that was near the bed and wiped off the cum from his chest. My breathing was heavy and my heart felt like it was going to explode; that was it. The person I collected so many feelings for took my virginity…and he says he loves me too. I pulled the blanket up so it was covering my lower half and stared at the ceiling before I felt an arm wrap around my waist; I looked over to see a smiling Gerard.

“You okay baby?” he asked.

“Never better” I said with a smile. I looked to the clock and it was only 10:30 PM but I was so tired. Gerard then reached for his phone real quick.

“Who are you texting?” I ask as he quickly types in a message.

“Mikey, telling him I’m staying the night” he responded with a smile. It only took a couple seconds to get a response. I looked over at the message.

G: Hey, I’m staying the night again.
M: Mom says okay.

Gerard puts the phone back down and turns to me.

“I really do love you” he whispers.

“Me too; ever since I’ve met you, you’ve been there for me. I can’t ask for anything more. That’s really all I needed, just someone to be there and you have been” I said to him. Gee grins and leans closer lightly kissing my lips; I smile and look to him. We stare at each other for a couple moments before my eyes unwillingly get heavier.

“Go to sleep baby” he whispers pulling me closer. I lay my head against his chest and he wraps an arm around me. This was right now the best night ever; I slowly drift off into quite possibly the best sleep i've had in years.

Notes

Well that smut sucked.

Anyway...Hope you liked it :)

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