Love Is Insanity

I smiled at Gerard, but could feel his grin burning into my stare. He stepped closer across the grass to my shaking frame, and held my arms tight. Withought any reassurance like squeeze, he just stared like my face was a book and he thought he could read my mind. The evening air was cold and all i wanted to do was be inside with him, he was making me nervous.
"You and Ray have fun?" His voice was fairly calm but there was the ever so slight hiss that crackled in his words. I couldn't help but step back a bit.
Withought saying anything, he had brought his lips to mine and was squeezing on my arms. It was sudden and like the first night of their concert all over again. It was obvious it was just for effect though, for he soon pulled back and let go of my arms.
"I love you Frank." My eyes widened at his line, as if i couldn't step back further i did. I'm certainly a failure at making anyone jealous, including him, so this was obviously misinterpreted.
"What was that for? Me and Ray are ju-"
"I know....i guess my jealousy takes over sometimes. Maybe it's because my devotion for you is too strong." I let my head drift down a bit as i giggled. What a sucker for cheesy comments.
We began to walk where i wanted to talk to him, through the foliage and to the center of the forest where a large patch of smooth grass lay. It was similiar to the one i imagined me and Gerard at before i ever so graciously fell down that ditch. Tonight, before the concert, i wanted to make that dream true. We would watch the stars and chat about anything we could think of until we were fed up of eachother. I could never get bored of him, however we did have a show to put on.
"This is it right?" He said and i nodded. We were now standing at the center of the forest, covered with maple leaf trees and daffodils. It was tranquil and the only scenery i had found settling in my life.
Gerard and i sat down on the grass, it was dry so we had no trouble of getting ourselves comfortable and stretching our legs out. I let the wind rush towards us and blow across the trees in silence for a moment. It was nice to hear the silence and nothing but the wind and us.
"I dreamt about this once." I smiled, and tilted my head to the side. "It was the reason i fell down that ditch."
"I thought of the same thing too! Only i didn't fall down a ditch in the process, your just short and unlucky." He giggled.
"I'm cold.." I shivered into the fabric of my jumper, feeling the air gush out a heavy breath at us once again.
"Move nearer to me then silly, i'm not contagious." I shuffled next to him a bit more so our shoulders were rubbing against eachothers. I let my hand shift around on the dirt and grass till i found his hand. It was warm and smooth as i interlocked my fingers with his, and shifted my head so it was on his shoulder.
"You smell..."
"Nice?" He questioned.
"You finished the sentence for me." He chuckled ever so adorably, and turned his face so it was resting on my head. I could feel his nose poking into the hairline of my greasy black hair.
"Hey, tell me about that dream." He said, and sat up a bit more so he could concentrate on my speech and not the fact that his words were being muffled into my hair.
"M'kay. Well....we were sitting in the forest near Mikeys house on a big patch of grass, like this. Our hands were linked." I looked down at our hands and felt him squeeze mine. "And our eyes were locked." He looked up at me lustfully, his cute signature grin plastered on his face.
"You said something really fucking cheesy."
"It must be destiny that i'm with such a perfect person as you." He mimicked a line, and held his gaze seriously. So he really wanted to reinact this, huh?...
"And then i said: Say some more poetry to me. You then grinned and mentioned us kissing..."
"How about we seal our everlasting love with a kiss sugar?" It was meant to be a joke, but the butterflies in my stomach were really acting up now and more then ever like they were in the dream.
"You didn't have to ask if you just wanted it." I used the exact words i had said in the dream and hope he followed. I slowly felt his breath become near to my cheek and hotter on my collar bone. My pulse raced as his forehead bumped against mine gently and his mouth lent forward to kiss me.
There was passion, lust and fulfilmetn as i felt our lips slide against one anothers, soft and moist. My body was warm and tingling with our fingers still interlocked and his other free hand playing with my hair. I did the same, and reached up to stroke the red hair that sat at his shoulders and framed his pale prominent face. He moved his hands down to caress my cheek, before moving back to stare at me. His eyes were dark and puils were large and focused on mine.
"Your gorgeous." Was the only thing that fell from his lips as he shifted a bit on the grass. I could still feel him on my lips as i looked up to the faded stars in the tanned orange and cream sky. My body tingled, jolts of electricity running through me as his fingers remained slid across mine.
"You know that now we've sealed our love with that kiss we have to stay together forever?" I joked, his shoulder bumping against mine.
"I had already promised that anyway."
"Me too, but i'm just too good at hiding secrets."
"Sure. Like when you say i don't make you blush." My face turned a bit away from him but i still felt his fingers clasp at my chin and turn my body to face him. He pecked my lips gently, making my cheeks tint a dark crimson. "C'mon sugar, you know i do."
"You do." I admitted. No one else could apart from Gerard, unless i was made to blush with embarassment. "You probably will tonight on stage too."
"Are you implying you want another kiss?" He suggested, eyebrows raising high.
"I'd prefer for that intimacy to be kept of stage, just for my sanity and my trousers." I heard him laugh, remembering that day we were on stage and a slight problem had occured in my trousers. They turned out to be slightly ripped, and they were my favourite too!
"You love me really." He poked my arm slightly.
"You know i do Gee, you know i do."

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