It's Not Love If It's Just Fucking

Dee's P.O.V


This is it. I am going to finally lose my virginity to the man I love. I'm getting nervous as we get to my room. What if he doesn't really want to do this? What if he leaves me afterwards? Maybe I'm not good enough? What if....
Gerard stopped walking as we stood at the side of the bed. He took me in his arms and looked down at me with concern. "We don't have to do this, sweetheart."
I frown at him. "Don't you want to?"
"You wouldn't believe how much I want you. But it's not about what I wa...."
I push him onto the bed. "You talk too much." I say as I climb on top of him. I put my hands either side of his head on the bed. He puts his hands on my hips. "I was not expecting that."
"Too much talking, Gee." I lower my lips to his. He kisses back letting out a moan as I move my hips above him. I smile as his tongue shoots out to run across my lips. I give him access. Reaching my hands down, I sneak them under his t-shirt. He groans as I move to pull the piece of clothing up and off. I drag mine off and throw it to the floor beside his. My bra follows straight after. I reconnect our lips as his hands run up my sides. I reach for his belt. I undo it then undo his jeans. Reaching my hand inside his boxers to take hold of his length. For a second I wonder if I can take him. But he moans into my mouth so I begin to move my hand up and down slowly. After about another minute, I can't take it anymore. So I sit up quickly. Gerard looks at me with a mixture of lust and concern. So I grab the waistband of his jeans and pull them off along with his underwear. I stand up by the bed and slowly remove the remainder of my clothes, not taking my eyes from his. The concern is still there. I smile shyly at him. "Don't worry so much." I say as I grab a condom from the drawer. "I told you I'm ready." I watch as he slides the condom on. The concern is still there. When he's finished, I climb on top of him again. I kiss him again. I reach down to take hold of his length and line him up. I hesitate for just a second, then I lower my hips as I sit up. I put both hands on his chest and stay still for a few minutes.
"Sweetheart?" He croaks out. "It's not too late to change your mind."
I look down at him. Is he for real? He's going crazy here, but he's still willing to stop for me.
He looks up at me, concern taking over the lust. "Baby..."
I begin to move up...then I lower myself again. I repeat the rhythm, slowly, watching as the lust returns again. His hands grab my hips as he urges me to go faster. I'm going at my speed right now and I intend savoring the moment. His hands move to my breasts in defeat. He squeezes them slightly and my head goes back in pure extasy as I speed up my movements. I look back at Gerard to see him still watching me. I smile at him as I slow down for a second to lean down and whisper "Kiss me you animal" and kiss him. I sit back up and resume my movements. His eyes never leave mine as we both moan loudly. I move faster and faster until I feel him release inside me. We both climax together. Then I slowly lift myself off of him and collapse on the bed beside him.
He removes the condom, ties it then throws it in the bin nearby. Then he pulls me into his side. I rest my head on his chest.
"You okay, baby?" He asks, kissing my head.
I just nod as I wrap my arm around his waist. Too exhausted to speak right now.
"I love you, Dee. So fucking much."
I smile. "I love you too. I always will." I said sleepily. I think he says something else but I don't hear it as I let sleep take over.

Notes

Okay so that was really awkward for me. Did you expect that? Okay no more for tonight.xxx
P.S.
While writing every chapter in this story I have been listening to every MCR song.xxx