Falling For You

Gerard POV

I walk home with Mikey in silence. Once home he spoke.

"When are you going to tell her," Mikey said crossing his arms.

"What?" I said.

"Blaze. When are you going to tell Blaze you love her, Gee?" Mikey said.

"What. Pff, as if. I only like her as a friend." I said making sure it didn't look obvious.

"I seen the way you look at her, dude! You like her and you know it!" Mikey said with a smile.

"What if I do like her?" I said crossing my arms.

"Then, I'll say 'I knew it' and make a speech at your wedding on how you crushed on her since 7th grade!" Mikey said. Was it really fucking obvious!?

"Fine. How the fuck did you know!?" I asked.

"Gerard, I'm your brother. I know when you like someone," Mikey said.

"Fine. You win," I said and he smiled.

"I know." Mikey said and left to his room.

I went back to my room and started to draw a vampire. I remembered when vampires were consider scary, now since they put out the book Twilight , every girl wants to date a vampire now, don't they.

I sighed. Why would Blaze want to date me? I am hideous! I'm so pale and I don't even look like those Hollister or American Eagle guys. Not even close!

But Blaze likes someone else. It broke my heart when she said she liked a guy. He probably looks better than me. Everyone does actually.

I finish the drawing and get a call. I look at the caller ID and it's Blaze.

"Hey B!" I said.

"What up, Geezy!" Blaze said happily over the phone. I can hear in her voice she is smiling.

"Here, drawing, you?" I said.

"You'll never believe what just happen!" Blaze said.

"What?"

"You know Hayley right," Blaze said.

"Yeah," I said.

"She said she likes me and then kissed me! Now we're together!" Blaze said.

That really fucking hurt. Blaze and Hayley are now going out together. I guess she really wouldn't like me at all.

But Blaze and Hayley rarely talk to each other. Not since Blaze met Miranda today and turns out Hayley and Miranda are cousins.

"W-wow! T-that's great! I'm happy for you, Blaze," I said hidding my sadness in my voice.

"Yeah. Hey, stop by my house in an hour. Okay?" Blaze said.

"Yeah. See you then," I said.

"Bye, Gee," Blaze said and we both hanged up.

I sighed and got out of the damn school uniform. Fuck my life. I need to get over Blaze now. Blaze has Hayley, right. I lay on my bed and started to cry.

I really hate love. I hated that I love Blaze. She probably friendzone me. She'll never love me the way I love her.

I sighed and wipe away the tears and head to the fridge. I grab a couple of beers that Dad had and drank them quickly.

I went to my room and passed out on the floor of my bedroom.

Blaze POV

I sighed after the phone call with Gerard.

I didn't know why I felt guilty, after all, he doesn't like me. But does he?

I shake the thought out of my mind and open the door of my house.

"Hey Blaze!" Mom said from the kitchen.

"Hey Mom! What are you doing?" I ask looking what she was making.

"We're having chicken soup." Mom said. I smile and went to my room quickly.

I tip toed when I passed Carlos' room because I didn't want him to come out and start calling me 'emo'. I had enough name calling in school, I don't need home.

I successfully pass Carlos' room and head to mine down the hall. I open the door and lay on my bed.

I was dating Hayley. She had kiss me. But, the sparks. There wasn't any sparks that people talked about when they kissed the person they loved. Maybe that's why there wasn't any sparks at all when Hayley had kissed me. I wasn't in love with her the way she loved me back.

But the real person I love, Gerard. I love him more than myself. But, he'll never love me for I was in the friendzone. It sucks being in the friendzone. Fuck that!

I replay the conversation of Gerard and I's. I told him about how I was dating Hayley.

He had congratulated me, but, he didn't sounded happy for me at all. He sounded more sad. Why the fuck was he sad? Wait, did he like me?

No. Gerard doesn't like you, Blaze.

I sighed. I must forget about Gerard. He probably likes some other girl.

Just forget about him, Blaze. Just think of him as a friend. He's just your friend.

"Dinner's ready!" Mom yelled. I headed down stairs to the kitchen.

"More emo!" Carlos said and push me to the wall. Goddammit do I really hate him.

I heard laughter in Jenn's room. Crap, her friend the bitch Lala was here. Seriously, who the fuck names their kid 'Lala'?

I hear more than one voice, double fuck!

"Oh Elisa, that is a nice dress for prom!" Jennifer said.

"You really think so, J." Elisa said.

"Yeah," Jennifer said.

"Just wear some heels with that and your hair up," Lala said.

"Okay, so what do you think about my dress girls." Jennifer said.

"I'll go with the pink one," I heard Elisa said.

I shake my head and head to the kitchen.

Prom is the last week of April. It's quit stupid actually.

"Is Jenn coming?" Mom said setting the bowls on the table.

"I don't know. I hear she has Lala and Elisa here." I said moving the soup.

"Jennifer! Come on, your dinner will get cold!" Mom said.

"Hey Mom, remember Gee's coming over here." I said.

"The emo is coming over here. Ew!" Carlos said.

Mom slapped Carlos on the back of his head.

"What was that for!?" Carlos said rubbing his head.

"For calling Gerard 'emo'. Don't call anyone that, Carlos!" Mom said.

"I always call him and Blaze 'emo'. Why is it wrong, it's true, they both should die," Carlos said looking at me.

As if on cue, Dad walks in.

"Hey!" Dad said.

"Honey, tell Carlos it's wrong to call someone 'emo' and tell them that they should die!" Mom said.

"Carlos! We told you before, don't call anyone 'emo' or tell them to die! How many times do we have to say this to you!?" Dad said.

"She and Gerard are Satanic emos! They deserve to die!" Carlos said.

"CARLOS!" Mom and Dad yelled.

"Just because one like rock music, doesn't mean they're fucking Satanic! Open your eyes, boy," Dad said.

"And no, they don't deserve to die, Carlos. How many times do we have to tell you!" Mom said.

"You know what, you're grounded for even thinking about that. You're also grounded for calling your sister and Gerard 'Satanic', 'emo', and I'm guessing you call Gee a 'faggot'. Go to your room now! You're grounded for a month. No prom either!" Dad said.

"What! Why the fuck am I grounded! It's true! Blaze or should I say emo, should die! People like her should die. They dress like they're dead anyways!" Carlos said then turned to me. "I hope you cut your wrists so deep that you die!" Carlos said and I slapped him and went to my room.

Gerard POV

I head to Blaze's house. I knock on the door and Alexis, Blaze's mother, opens the door.

"She's up in her room," Alexis said and let me in. I said hello to Jesus, Blaze's father, and then knock on Blaze's door.

I was still drunk. I can actually barley remember half of the things I did from that moment and forward.

I open the door to see Blaze with her science book out.

"Ready to start?" Blaze said with a smile.

I don't remember what I did but I know I ended up sitting next to Blaze, in the middle of her teaching me.

"Gerard."

"What."

"Are you listening to me?" Blaze said.

"Yeah," I said.

She narrows her eyes and comes closer to me. As Blaze was close to my face, I quickly held my breath.

"You're drunk," Blaze said looking in my eyes.

"No I'm not!" I said.

"Gerard, I can smell it. You're not able to be taught if you're drunk." Blaze said. I know she said more things and maybe she didn't even say that at all. But, hey, I'm drunk!

"Why do you care?" I said. Blaze looked heart broken.

"I care because you're my friend. That's why," Blaze said looking into my eyes. She still was close to me.

I look into her eyes. I cup her face and press my lips against hers.

Blaze POV

Gerard is kissing me! Is he really that drunk!? I kiss him back. Wait, but why the fuck is he kissing me in the first place!? Does that mean he actually likes me!? Or is it just him being drunk...

He quickly pulls back and looks at me. Gerard get's up and runs out of the house.

"Gerard! Wait!" I say to him but he's gone.

I sit there and cry. I was so confuse on what just happen. Did Gerard really like me? Did the kiss meant anything at all?

After crying my eyes out, I head to get my blade and go to the restroom and cut myself again.

My heart is a hole.

Gerard POV

I kissed Blaze. Why the fuck did I do that!? But she kissed me back. That meant something, right. Did she like me?

So many questions runs through my head. I head home and lock myself in my room. My heart is defiantly a hole. How ironic that is goes with the Cherri Bomb song.

Everything that I think of, reminds me of her. I guess it's safer to hate her. But I can't do that. I love her way too much.