Kill This Venom From My Heart

Two days later I wake up wrapped in Gerard's arms and I smile to myself as I snuggle closer into his side, burying my face in his neck as I let out a contented sigh before my mind fully becomes aware and I realise what today is. I swallow hard as I roll back onto my back, separating myself from Gerard and he rolls his head in my direction, quietly watching me as I sit up and run my hands through my hair before exhaling shakily. "Babe" Gerard says softly and I turn my head to look at him, my bottom lip quivering slightly and I can feel my eyes starting to tear up. Gerard frowns slightly as he slides his hand across under the sheets to rest on my thigh, squeezing softly and the first tear breaks free and rolls down my cheek. "Oh baby" Gerard breathes out softly as he sits up and slides over closer to me, letting me lean into him, my head resting on his shoulder as he wraps his arms around me. "It's alright Frankie, no matter what happens it's gonna be just fine. The record label are making a massive mistake, everyone can see that. Any label would jump at the chance to take you guys and either way you're still gonna go on to do amazing things and I'm actually kinda excited to see what you become now, you're already amazing but I know you still have so much more to give. I love you so much." I feel my mouth pull into a smile as I sniffle back more tears, pulling out of Gerard's side to shift around and sit in his lap, straddling his legs as my arms come up to wrap around his neck and his hands slide down to rest against my lower back, holding me to him. "I can't believe how lucky I am to have you" I tell him softly as I stare into his eyes and Gerard smiles as he says "I'm the lucky one," his thumbs soothingly rubbing back and forth over my skin. "I love you more than I could possibly explain" I whisper as I lean in to rest my forehead against Gerard's and he remains silent, both of us just staring into each other's eyes before I tilt my head, leaning in and closing the gap between our lips.

After we manage to drag ourselves out of bed Gerard takes my hand and leads me down the hall to the bathroom, starting the shower before turning back to me and we share a small smile as I strip naked, Gerard doing the same and we get into the shower together, Gerard soaping his hands up and gently washing me, my eyes slipping closed as he steps around to wash my back and once I'm soaped up his fingers start gently digging in, massaging my tense muscles and I feel myself go limp, slumping forward so my forehead is resting against the cool tile wall as he continues to work down my back. Once he's done Gerard guides me to step under the water more, his hands helping wash the soap off and I smile softly to myself as I turn and wrap my arms around his waist, pulling him to me and pressing a soft kiss to his lips. "Thank you" I whisper, pressing another kiss to his lips and Gerard smiles back at me before we pull apart and he quickly washes himself. After Gerard has washed himself I reach out and turn off the water, both of us stepping out and drying before going back to the bedroom naked, grabbing clean clothes and dressing for the day and once I pull my shoes on I see I have ten minutes before I should be leaving for the meeting, wanting to leave plenty of time incase there's traffic. I turn back to look at Gerard and I see him sitting on the end of the bed, pulling his own shoes on and I frown in confusion, opening my mouth to ask where he's going when he looks up and takes in my expression, smiling as he says "I'm not gonna make you go alone babe."

Once we're in the car Gerard digs out his iPod, connecting it up and picking out some soothing music, turning the volume down so it's just soft background noise before reaching out and gently easing my hand off the wheel, sliding his fingers through mine as our hands come to rest on my thigh and when I glance over Gerard is staring right at me, a small smile on his face as he says "I love you." The drive to the label office seems to take hours but forty five minutes later we pull into the car park, my hand reluctantly dropping Gerard's as I pull into a park and turn the car off. In the sudden silence I feel all the fear and anxiety I felt a few days ago about this meeting come flooding back and Gerard takes his seatbelt off, quickly getting out of the car and coming around to open my door, reaching in and undoing my belt for me before guiding me to sit sideways, my legs hanging out of the car as he kneels on the pavement in front of me. "Hey" he says softly, my head tilting up from where I was staring into my lap to look at him. "It's ok" Gerard says softly, his hands coming to rest on my thighs and I try to nod, trying to push away the despair overtaking me but I can feel my breathing becoming more and more unstable. "Oh babe" Gerard breathes out, his own face falling too and just as I reach my hand out to cup his cheek I hear Ryan's voice says "Are you guys ok?" Gerard and I both look up to see Ryan approaching the car, Bob a few steps behind him and when they see the state I'm in they both rush over, Gerard standing back up to let them get closer. "Come on" Bob says as he reaches out and helps me stand out of he car, his arm wrapping around my shoulders and I take a deep breath, swallowing hard before I look up at his face. "It's all good, I swear" he tells me and I nod, trying to focus on those words and I repeat them over and over in my head along with the words of encouragement Gerard offered before and I start to feel better. I look around, wanting to apologise to Gerard for being so pathetic and I see him standing nearby in conversation with Ryan so I step towards them and as I come closer I hear Gerard say "I'm really scared for him." "It's alright, we'll take care of it" Ryan says and Gerard nods, he and Ryan falling silent again as I take the last few steps over to them, both of them turning their heads to look at me. "Babe" I say as I reach out and offer my hand to Gerard which he takes and I start leading him away. Once we're a few steps away from Ryan I drop Gerard's hand and wrap my arms around him, pulling him into a hug as I say "Thank you, for everything." "You don't need to thank me" he tells me as he hugs back and we stand there holding each other for a minute until Bob calls out and tells me Brian is here and we need to go in now. "I'm gonna go for a walk around but I'll be right here when you get back" Gerard tells me and I nod, leaning in to press a kiss to his lips and he kisses back before pulling away and saying "You're amazing and you don't need the label, you can do anything you want."

Notes

Just a quick question, I feel like my updates are all over the place because usually when I have the chance to write I will usually manage a few chapters in a row and then some days if I'm working a 10-11 hour day I won't get a chance to write at all so some days you guys might get two or three updates in one day and others you won't get any at all so my question is would you guys rather just one update a day every day or should I continue how it is and just update as I write them?