Kill This Venom From My Heart

Once we settle on a movie we go to the counter to buy tickets and Gerard insists on paying as I paid for breakfast and I try to protest but he playfully elbows me to shut me up and pulls out his wallet, paying for both of us and the young guy behind the counter stares at me wide eyed. I smile wide at him and he falters in his movements before saying "Enjoy the movie, Frank." I chuckle as I say "I'm sure I will" before taking Gerard's arm and leading him away, joining the line to enter the theatre. "I think you just made his life" Gerard says quietly as we get in line and I laugh as I say "I don't see how, I'm not that cool." "I think you're pretty cool" he says, a few seconds later his face going bright red and I chuckle as I lean in so close my lips brush his ear as I say "You're pretty cool yourself Gee" and I see him physically shudder. The line starts moving and after our tickets are checked we go in and find seats, sitting to one side where no one else seems to want to sit, the seclusion suddenly making this feel like more than two friends seeing a movie together. While we sit and wait for the movie to start the theatre starts to fill up more and more and a young girl comes over and kneels on the seat in front of me, hanging slightly over the back of it as she says "Hi can I get a picture with you?" I smile as I say "Sure" and stand up, stepping past Gerard on my way out into the aisle and the girl steps out with me, my arm wrapping around her shoulders as she leans in and takes the picture, thanking me and stuttering a lot and by the time she walks away she looks on the verge of tears. When I sit back beside Gerard he chuckles and says "Does that ever get annoying? Like if you're out and you have no privacy?" "Eh, sometimes. It mainly only bothers me if I'm in the middle of something and they come up with no tact or anything but fans like her don't bother me too much, they're usually sweet and polite about it." He nods and the lights go down, signalling the start of the movie and in the sudden darkness it feels like an electrical charge is pulsing through my body, Gerard's arm coming up to rest beside mine on the arm rest between our seats and I can feel the heat radiating from him. I try to focus on the movie but find it nearly impossible when Gerard shifts his arm and his fingers lightly brush the back of my hand and I look over out of the corner of my eye to see him staring at me. I turn my head fully towards him and it's like he can read my mind as he does the same and we lean towards each other at the same time, our lips smashing together as his tongue slides straight into my mouth, no hesitation this time and I find myself turned on by his dominance and confidence. I get lost in the kiss, my hand coming up to cup his cheek and when we pull apart for air I rest my forehead against his, panting into his mouth and his eyes are closed as he pants back and he looks so beautiful in the limited lighting. "Gee" I whisper softly and his eyes slowly open again, his gaze curious and I say "I think maybe we should go?" As soon as the words leave my mouth he nods and pulls away, standing up and grabbing my hand, pulling me up and dragging me from the theatre and when we get outside he turns to kiss me again but I gently rest my hands on his shoulders as I say "Gee we need to talk about this first, there could be people watching us." His face goes blank and he steps back and turns his back to me and I sigh as I say "Gee please let me explain." He turns his head to look at me again and I see hurt written all over his face. I reach out and grab his wrist, pulling him back towards me as I say "Come back to the hotel with me and we can talk." He nods and I call a cab, leaning against the side of the theatre and Gerard does the same, keeping a distance from me which makes my heart throb painfully.

When we get to the hotel we go straight up to my room and when the door closes I step towards Gerard and wrap my arm around his waist, guiding him to the bed. Once we're both seated I say "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings." "It's ok" he says softly and I sigh as I say "No it's not. Look Gee I'm going to admit something that I've been fighting for a long time. I like you, more than I probably should, more than just friends and...." "I like you that way too, I have for a while now" Gerard cuts me off to admit and I nod before saying "I like you, but you need to know that things between us...." "You like me but you don't want to be with me? Is that it?" "No Gee, I would love to be with you but there's a few things you need to know and some things we both need to consider before we make any decisions." Gerard nods and stays silent so I start. "First of all, you're underage and..." "I'm eighteen in five months." "I know but this would have to be between us until then. Also I don't think you fully get the kind of attention I am under most of the time. No matter where I go people recognise me and sometimes it's overwhelming even for me so I can imagine how hard that would be for someone who's not used to it, also the fans can be real fucking assholes when I date someone as I'm sure you've seen." Gerard nods, showing he's listening so I continue. "When I'm away touring I'm gone for a long time and sometimes I won't always get a chance to call every day and that's hard in a relationship, it's why none of my past relationships have ever worked out and it fucking sucks. I don't want this to just be physical with you and I need you to be sure about this before anything happens." Gerard nods and stands from the bed, pacing back and forth across the room a few times while I watch him, feeling my heart clench painfully as I worry about what's going on his mind. After what feels like an eternity he turns and walks over to the bed, standing in front of me and when I tilt my head up to look at him he leans down and kisses me, his hands cupping my cheeks and keeping my face pulled against his as he kisses me like he never wants to stop. When we finally pull apart he remains bending down, panting softly into my mouth as his eyes lock with mine and he says "I don't care about any of that crap, id put up with it all for you. I really like you Frank and I don't want to miss out on this." I nod slowly as I shift back towards the middle of the bed, fisting my hand in the front of Gerard's shirt and pulling him with me, Gerard following eagerly and crawling over me as I lay back and he leans down and starts kissing me again until I grab his hips and flip us over, pressing him into the mattress with my body as I deepen the kiss.

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