Kill This Venom From My Heart

The next morning I wake up to my phone ringing and when I roll over to answer it I see Gerard's name on the screen. "Hey" I croak out, my voice rough with sleep and Gerard sniffles and says "What room are you in?" "What?" I croak out, feeling confused as my brain is still sleep fogged. "I'm outside, which room are you in?" "207. Why are you here? What's wrong?" "I'll be up in a second" he tells me before hanging up and I drag myself out of bed, stumbling towards the door as I rub at my eyes with one hand. Just as I reach the door there's a knock and when I open it Gerard is standing there, his eyes red and puffy and his bottom lip split and swollen. "Fuck Gee what happened?" I ask as I step aside and let him in and he drops his school bag on the floor as he goes, walking across the room before turning back and walking back towards me and I close the door and lean back against it, just watching him. "Gee" I try again softly and his head snaps up to look at me and he looks kinda strange. I look down and realise I'm only in my boxers and I quickly step away from the door saying "Shit sorry" as I rush across the room and pull on sweat pants and a shirt. "It's ok" he says softly and I sit on the bed, gesturing for him to do the same and I ask again, "What happened?" "Some dicks at school, they also think I paid you to come here." "Fuck" I say softly before turning my head to look at him and without thinking i shift around to kneel in front of him as I raise my hand and gently run my thumb over his split lip. Gerard's eyes slip closed and his breath comes out in slow drawn out breaths as I touch him and he looks so beautiful that before I know what I'm doing I am leaning in, my lips just an inch from his, his breath washing over my lower face and my eyes start to slip closed as I move closer when his eyes flutter open and I freeze before quickly moving away and climbing off the bed. I pace away from the bed, running my fingers through my hair as I curse to myself under my breath and I don't hear Gerard move but suddenly his extremely warm hand is on my shoulder and when I spin around his face is so close to mine I can feel the heat coming from his skin, can smell the coffee he drank this morning. "Gee" I manage to choke out as my gaze locks with his and it's like he's staring straight into my soul as he closes the gap between us and suddenly his lips are on mine and I lose all control, pressing into it as my eyes slip closed and my hands reach out to grip his hips, pulling his body tight against mine as our lips move together, slow and a little unsure on his part. When we pull away for air one of Gerard's hands come up, his fingers skimming over his lips as he softly says "I've never....I've never kissed anyone before." I stare at him wide eyed for a few seconds before saying "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to...." But I'm cut off by him smiling and leaning in, kissing me again and all coherent thought leaves my brain as I kiss back, my grip on his hips tightening as he moves even closer to me and slides his hands up to tangle in my hair, his tongue hesitantly sliding across my bottom lip and I open my mouth a little wider, desperate for the contact, letting him lead the kiss and when his tongue slides into my mouth I gently tangle mine with his and he lets out a soft groan as he pulls gently on my hair and I let out my own groan, hair pulling being a major turn on for me. By the time we pull apart again both our lips are swollen and shiny with saliva and Gerard's pupils are a little blown. We continue to stare at each other, Gerard's hands still tangled in my hair and my hands still gripping his hips as we pant softly for breath and when Gerard shifts his weight from one foot to the other I feel him rub against me and he steps back, his hands dropping from my hair and my eyes trail down, catching a glimpse of the bulge in his pants before his hands shoot down to cover it, his eyes slipping closed and his face turning bright red. "Gee" I say softly and he shakes his head, his eyes remaining closed and I sigh softly as I reach down and gently grip one of his wrists, tugging it away from himself and turning his hand over, pressing it to my own bulge as I say "You're not the only one, it's perfectly ok, don't be embarrassed" and his eyes shoot open as he realises where his hand is. I let go of his wrist, letting him take his hand back and his other hand drops from his own crotch, falling limply at his sides as our eyes rake each other's bodies. "I'm gonna step out for a cigarette, bathroom is over there" I say softly, gesturing behind me as I walk over and grab my cigarettes and lighter off the bedside table and I cross the room to the balcony door, letting myself out and gently sliding it closed again.

I smoke slowly and when I step back into the room Gerard is coming out of the bathroom, his hands freshly washed and his face slightly flushed, the bulge in his jeans gone. He looks up at me looking slightly ashamed but I shoot him a small smile and say "So if you're cutting school today, wanna go get some breakfast?" He smiles and nods and I grab some jeans, crossing the room to the bathroom to go and get changed and when I come back out Gerard is sitting on the end of the bed, biting his thumb nail. I pull on some shoes and a jacket, running my fingers through my hair again as I say "Alright let's go." We go downstairs and grab a cab, going back to the place I had lunch at yesterday and after we sit down and order I look up and see Gerard staring at me across the table. "What?" I ask softly and he smiles and says "I kissed you." I smile back and chuckle softly as I say "Yeah I guess you did." "I thought that would freak me out but I did it and...." "So you've thought about it?" I ask with a smirk on my lips, teasing him and he goes red again as he says "No, well...." And I start giggling as I say "I'm just fucking with you." He glares playfully at me and kicks me under the table and I smirk as I say "It was a pretty great kiss." "Really?" He asks, seeming unsure and I smile and nod as I say "Yeah I would never have picked that you have never done that before had you not told me." Gerard smiles across the table and our conversation dies down as our food arrives. We eat in almost silence, making occasional comments to each other but not really carrying on a conversation and when we're done the waitress comes back over with the bill and Gerard reaches into his pocket for his wallet but I get to mine first, pulling out fifty dollars and handing it to the waitress and saying "Keep the change." Her eyes bug out as do Gerard's and when she walks away he says "You just tipped her twenty dollars." I smile and nod as I say "Yeah, my mom was a waitress so I know how much tips can mean. Plus she was good, I liked her." Gerard nods and we get up, wandering out of the diner and when we step out onto the street I say "So rebel what do you want to do now?" He glares at me again as he playfully shoves me and I chuckle as he says "We could go see a movie? There's a theatre nearby." "Lead the way" I tell him and we start walking down the street, laughing and joking around with each other and by the time we make it to the theatre we have drifted so close together that our arms are almost touching, Gerard's hand skimming against mine as our arms swing with the movement of walking.

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