Kill This Venom From My Heart

Two days later I tell Gerard I have band stuff I need to do and I leave him home as I go out, driving to the airport and picking up his mom, dad and Mikey. I take them to a nearby hotel, helping them check in and paying for their rooms before telling them that I will have someone pick them up the following day and at what time. After they're settled I go back home to find Gerard curled up in bed, snoring softly and letting out occasional sniffles in his sleep and I frown in concern as I sit gently on the edge of the bed and lean over, softly stroking my fingers through his hair, brushing it back off his face and being careful to not wake him. When I stand back up again I pull the covers further over him before leaving the room again and I go downstairs, tidying up the living room before going into the kitchen and grabbing out a pot, going into the pantry and the fridge and grabbing out what I have to make soup and I find some chicken that's still good so I decide to make Gerard chicken and vegetable soup incase he's sick. I put all the ingredients in the pot and start cooking, stirring it all together before turning the heat down a little and putting a lid over it, letting it slow cook while I go back upstairs and I check in on him again, finding him still asleep but in a different position and I close the door before going down the hall to the music room, closing that door too and I grab one of my guitars, sitting on the couch and staring at Gerard's latest half finished painting as I start to softly play, melodies running through my mind and I close my eyes and let my fingers move across the strings until I'm startled by the door opening and Gerard comes wandering in, his hair a mess and his eyes slightly swollen and red. "Hey gorgeous" I greet him softly as I sit the guitar aside and open my arms, Gerard crossing the room and curling up on my lap, laying back against my chest while I wrap my arms around him. "How are you feeling baby?" I whisper softly as I press soft kisses to his hair and he snuggles further into me and says "Head hurts." "Are you sick?" I ask as I bring one hand up to feel his forehead, the skin warm and clammy and Gerard just shrugs, remaining silent. "You hungry?" I ask after a few minutes of silence and Gerard shrugs again before saying "I don't feel well." I stand up from the couch, taking Gerard with me and I carry him downstairs, sitting him at the kitchen bench while I go over and check the soup, stirring it again and it smells delicious. I turn the hot plate off before stepping over to the cupboard and grabbing a bowl, scooping some soup into it and taking it over to Gerard with a spoon and he smiles at me as he says "You made me soup?" I smile back and nod as I take a seat beside him and he starts to eat, groaning softly before saying "This is really really good." After he finishes, eating almost the whole bowl before he pushes it away I stand and take the bowl over to the sink, rinsing it out before sitting it to the side and I cross the room and scoop Gerard into my arms again and carry him back upstairs, taking him into the bathroom and sitting him on the closed toilet as I turn and start running a bath.

After Gerard soaks in the bath for a while I help him out and after he's dried off I carry him back into the bedroom, laying him on the bed before stripping myself naked and climbing on next to him, pulling the blankets over us and pulling him into my chest and once we're settled and comfortable I start gently stroking Gerard's hair as I say "How are you feeling now?" "Better" he tells me and I smile before asking "Are you nervous about tomorrow?" I feel him tense in my arms for a second before he relaxes again and he says "I'm...." trailing off and turn my head and press a soft kiss to his temple as I say "It's alright to be nervous, I am." "Yeah" he admits and I tighten my arms around him, squeezing him softly as I say "I love you so so much baby and if you don't want to do this yet it's alright." "No I do, I really do Frankie" he assures me and I smile as I press another kiss to his temple and we fall into silence, just holding each other until we drift off to sleep together. The next morning I wake up alone and I drag myself out of bed and wander down the hall where I can hear soft music playing and I find Gerard in the music/art room, dressed in only boxers as he stands at his easel swaying softly to the music playing from his iPod while he paints. I stand in the doorway and watch, mesmerised by his movement until he stops to switch brushes and he notices me out of he corner of his eye. "Hey" he greets me softly as he smiles wide and I smile back as I cross the room to press a soft kiss to his lips. "It's really coming along now" I tell him, both of our attention turning to the easel and I move to stand behind Gerard, my hands resting gently on his hips as he dips the new brush in the paint he wants and starts working again. I watch, waiting for him to take the brush away for more paint so I don't distract him before I lean around and press another soft kiss to his temple and I say "Can I take you to breakfast Mr Iero?" Gerard turns and smiles wide at me as he nods and says "Yeah, can I have fifteen minutes, I just really want to finish this." "You can have as long as you like my love" I tell him, offering him another smile before turning and leaving the room, leaving him to it as I go back to the bedroom and dig out my suit, finding a tie and I lay it on the bed before going into the bathroom and taking a quick shower, my stomach fluttering with nerves and I lean back against the wall, letting the hot water wash over me in an attempt to calm my nerves.

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