Kill This Venom From My Heart

Twenty minutes later I have moved into the music room, laying on the couch and staring at the clouds in the sky outside the window and I hear the bedroom door open, Gerard's footsteps going downstairs again and a few minutes later I hear him come back up, heading down the hallway towards where I am but I keep my back turned to the doorway as I hear him come to a stop. A few long seconds of silence pass, the lack of footsteps leaving the only indication that he's still there and just as I consider turning my head to look at him he walks over and climbs onto the couch, laying completely ontop of me as he leans in and nuzzles his face against my cheek. "I love you and I'm sorry" he whispers in my ear and I bite down on my bottom lip to keep it from quivering again. "You hit me" I say softly and Gerard swallows hard before saying "I know, I don't know what I was doing, I'm so sorry baby." "I would never hit you" I whimper out and Gerard lets out a soft whine as he nuzzles into my cheek again and says "I'm so sorry, can you forgive me?" I slowly release my lower lip, breathing out slowly before I turn my head to look at him, Gerard pulling back to look down at me and as I open my mouth to tell him to leave me alone he dives down and seals his lips to mine, his tongue sliding into my mouth. A few seconds pass and I remain still, not kissing back and Gerard pulls away again, hurt written all over his face as he says "I'll go then." I watch as he climbs off me and slowly crosses the room, stopping at the doorway to look back at me but I just roll onto my side, turning my back to him again and I listen to his footsteps going back down the hall again.

I end up falling asleep on the couch and when I wake up again my cheek aches. I stumble my way into the bathroom, splashing water on my face and my cheek is slightly darker than the rest of my face, the bruising still forming under the skin and I push myself away from the basin, leaving the bathroom again and going into the bedroom but Gerard's not there. I turn and go downstairs, finding Gerard asleep on the couch, the tv still playing and I can see tear tracks on his cheeks. I stand in the doorway, watching him sleep for a few minutes, feeling my heart ache as I think about the hate and anger I saw in his eyes earlier when he hit me. I turn and leave the room again, going into the kitchen and just as I reach out to open the cabinet to get a glass warm hands slide around my waist, a warm solid chest pressed to my back as Gerard nuzzles his face into the side of my neck, pressing soft kisses to my skin. I melt back into his touch, needing affection and comfort right now and Gerard's soft little kisses turn into lingering open mouthed kisses, sucking gently on my skin and I tilt my head to give him better access as his hands slide down and gently skim over my crotch. Gerard slides his mouth down a little lower on my neck and gently bites into my skin and my eyes slip closed, a small whine escaping me before I spin around and smash my lips to his, Gerard's tongue sliding into my mouth and I kiss back, our tongues battling for dominance as Gerard's hands slide down under my ass, picking me up and as I wrap my legs around his waist he turns and starts carrying me from the room, our lips only parting for seconds at a time before we surge back in for more heated, bruising kisses.

Gerard carries me upstairs to the bedroom, laying me down on the bed and once my back hits the mattress our hands start tearing at each other's clothes, our mouths placing heated biting kisses all over each other until we're both naked and Gerard is kneeling between my open legs, three of his slicked up fingers buried deep in my ass. I groan softly as Gerard rubs his finger tips against my prostate and I reach out and grab the bottle of lube from between the sheets and pour some into my hand, tossing it aside again as I reach down and slick up his dick, causing Gerard to groan softly at the contact. "Mmm I'm ready" I groan out a few seconds later and Gerard nods, pulling his fingers out of me and as Gerard goes to position himself I gently push against his chest, knocking him back and moving around to straddle his lap, Gerard making himself comfortable sitting before I line myself up and slide down, sinking down onto his lap and when he's fully buried inside me I throw my head back and groan out loudly. As I start to slowly bounce and grind in his lap Gerard leans in and seals his lips to mine again, the kiss slow and passionate this time and his hands start gently rubbing up and down my bare back as I work myself on his dick. "Love you so fucking much Frankie" Gerard whispers against my lips when we break for air and I lean forward, resting my forehead against his as I stare into his eyes. "I never meant to hurt you, I'm so sorry baby and I would never do that to you again" he tells me and I close my eyes for a few seconds, still bouncing and grinding slowly in his lap before opening my eyes again and I say "I love you so much and I got scared when I saw you with that guy." "Oh baby" Gerard croons softly, leaning in to press a soft kiss to my lips again before pulling back and saying "I'm yours, only yours, forever." I smile softly and Gerard smiles back, his hands still gently rubbing up and down my back and I move to rest my head against his shoulder, nuzzling my face into the side of his neck and breathing in his scent as we work together, Gerard's hips thrusting up slightly to meet my pace and his arms tightening around my back to pull my even closer to him and I let my eyes slip closed again, clinging to him as hard as I can.

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