Kill This Venom From My Heart

The next morning I wake up in bed alone and when I sit up Gerard is gone from the room. I climb out of bed and pull on my boxers, stumbling my way to the bathroom before looking for him and on my way I hear a small noise come from my music room just past the bathroom so I keep walking, stepping into the doorway and I see Gerard sitting on the couch over near the window, his knees pulled up with his sketch pad resting on them, his pencil moving rapidly across the page and I smile as I stand quietly and watch him work, mesmerised by the intense look on his face. After a few minutes of watching Gerard lifts his gaze and notices me standing here, gasping softly as he drops his pencil before giggling softly and saying "You scared the shit out of me." "Sorry" I say softly as I offer him a smile and start crossing the room to him. "You just looked so intense, I didn't want to interrupt." "It's ok" he says as he offers his own smile and I kneel down infront of the couch as I say "You look so beautiful when you're in the zone like that." Gerard chuckles softly and shakes his head so I just smile and nod, reaching out to rest my hand against his cheek. "Can I see what you're drawing?" "It's not done yet" he tells me softly, an apologetic look on his face and I nod as I say "It's alright." We fall into silence for a few seconds, my thumb gently stroking Gerard's cheek before I say "I've gotta head to the studio soon, what would you like for breakfast?" "I can make breakfast if you want" Gerard offers but I just smile and shake my head as I say "I got it babe, you just relax." "Ok then, um, pancakes?" "Coming right up" I tell him with a smile, standing up before leaning down to press a soft kiss to his forehead before I leave the room and go downstairs to make us breakfast.

After we eat Gerard starts clearing the dishes and I go upstairs and get dressed, brushing my teeth and getting ready to leave and by the time I'm done Gerard comes into the room. "What are your plans today baby?" I ask and he shrugs his shoulders and says "I have no idea." "Well, there's plenty of movies downstairs or you can have my car and go out? Or you could come with me if you like?" "Do you mind if I just stay here?" "Of course not baby, it's your house too." Gerard smiles wide at that comment and I walk over and press a soft kiss to his lips. "Do you want my car incase you want to go out later? I can get Ryan to come pick me up." Gerard shakes his head and says "Nah, I think I'll just stay home." "Ok then, well I better get going. Have a good day baby and call me if you need anything." "I'm sure I'll be fine, go, don't worry about me." I head downstairs and Gerard follows me to the door to the garage, pressing a soft kiss to my lips before saying "Have a good day" and I smile to myself as I climb into the car, Gerard stepping into the garage and waving to me until the door closes again and he's gone from sight.

When I get to the studio Ryan and I pick up where we left off yesterday, laying down more guitar tracks and tweaking ones we've already done, playing with them to see what sounds better and just as we finish one track one of the studio techs comes in and says "There's a woman who keeps calling here for you Frank, says her names Jamia." I glance over at Ryan before looking back to the tech and saying "I'm so sorry, I don't want to take any of her calls." The tech just smiles and nods before he leaves again and Ryan chuckles and says "You're screwed dude, she's nuts." "Yeah I know" I tell him, sighing softly before turning my attention back to my guitar and half an hour later as we decide to take a break my cell starts ringing and when I pull it from my pocket I see Gerard's name on the screen. "Hey baby what's up?" I hear a loud banging right before Gerard says "Jamia's here with some other girl and they won't leave." "You didn't let them in did you?" "No, they tried to come in but you changed the locks and they couldn't but she won't stop banging on the front door and calling my name and I...." "It's ok baby I'm gonna be right there ok? Just don't let them in and I'm coming right now." "Ok" Gerard says in a shaky voice and I hang up, telling Ryan I have to go and rushing from the building, leaving my guitars behind as I run towards my car, desperate to get home and make sure Gerard's alright.

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