Kill This Venom From My Heart

Three days after we get back the band has it's first scheduled day in the studio and Gerard tags along, sitting on a couch behind the sound board while we work out a few last minute details and Ryan and I start laying down guitar tracks. After several hours of hard work we decide to take a break and when I go back to Gerard I find him curled up on the couch asleep and I can't help but smile as I kneel in front of him and start gently stroking his hair back off his face. "Wake up baby" I whisper softly as I press a soft kiss to his forehead and Gerard groans quietly before his eyes flutter open. "Hey" he croaks out, his voice thick with sleep and I smile as I say "Hey gorgeous, we're taking a break for a little while. Do you wanna go get something to eat?" Gerard slowly sits up and rubs at his eyes before running a hand through his hair as he says "Yeah, that sounds good." "Sorry I woke you baby" I say as I stand up, helping Gerard up and he smiles and shakes his head before saying "I'm sorry I fell asleep." "It's fine, after we eat do you want me to take you home so you can rest?" "No I really like being here, you guys sounded really good earlier." I wrap my arm around Gerard's waist as we start walking outside, stepping out into the late afternoon sun and I reach into my pocket with my free hand, digging out my cigarettes and I remove my arm from Gerard's waist to dig one out, shoving the packet back in my pocket before lighting it up, pocketing the lighter too and I wrap my arm back around Gerard's waist as I take my first puff, blowing the smoke out as I hold the cigarette up in front of Gerard's mouth and we share the cigarette as we walk down the street, going down a few blocks to a small diner and having a late lunch/early dinner. After we eat Gerard and I head back to the studio hand in hand, making small talk when Gerard says "Babe I was just wondering, when were you wanting to get married?" "When were you thinking? I know we haven't been together all that long so I understand if you want to wait a while." "I don't exactly want to wait a long time but what will people say?" "I don't care what people say. Anyone who says anything is just jealous" I tell him and Gerard nods before saying "I just, I've been thinking about it and I think maybe it would be a good idea to just keep it to ourselves." "Well baby I don't know if that's going to be possible, but we can try."

Late that night when we finally get home from the studio Gerard is on the edge of sleep again so I park the car in the garage, getting out and going around to his door and helping him out before scooping him into my arms and I carry Gerard upstairs to the bedroom. Once he's laid on the bed I sit beside him and start removing his shoes, Gerard's hand fumbling with his belt and once his shoes are off I slide my hands up to help, getting the belt undone and unzipping his jeans. Gerard lifts his hips and I slide his jeans down, his semi hard dick obvious through his boxers and when I look up at his face he smirks goofily and says "I was planning on...you know, we still can if you want if I fall asleep just keep going." I chuckle as I shake my head at him fondly and say "I can wait, get some sleep baby." I go to stand from the bed when Gerard wraps his hand around my wrist and when I turn back to face him I say "What babe?" "You're not coming to bed with me?" "I will my love, I was going to work on some stuff but if you want me to come to bed I will." Gerard nods slowly before saying "You don't have to, if you want to...." "No, I'd much rather be snuggled up with you anyway. I'm just gonna take a quick shower and I'll be right back." Gerard smiles and nods as he lets go of my wrist and I cross the room to grab some clean boxers before going to the bathroom and starting the shower. Just after I strip down and step under the hot spray I hear a small click and I turn my head to see Gerard standing just inside the door, fumbling with his shirt and I giggle to myself as I watch him struggle to remove his clothes, clearly further on the edge of sleep than I thought but fighting it and when he steps into the shower with me I quickly wrap my arms around his waist, pulling him into my chest, worried about him passing out and falling. The shower takes a little longer than I expected and I manage to wash both myself and Gerard before we get out and Gerard towels himself off while I dry myself and pull my boxers on and when Gerard is dry he drops the towel and yawns loudly, his eyes slipping closed and his body swaying and I quickly step over and grab him, scooping him into my arms again and carrying him back to the bedroom where we both settle in bed, Gerard groaning out a request that I be naked too and I chuckle as I tug my boxers back off and drop them on the floor before snuggling back into Gerard's side, holding him to me until he falls asleep and once he's out I pull away, rolling over and grabbing my notepad out of the bedside drawer, furiously scribbling down lyrics that are flowing in my mind right now in between glances at Gerard's beautiful peaceful face.

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