Kill This Venom From My Heart

When we finally get back to Gerard's house we go down to his room, the house empty aside from us and we strip down to our boxers, curling up in his bed with the covers pulled tight around us and we share soft kisses until I pull away to let out a soft yawn. Gerard shuffles over to snuggle into my side again, burying his face in my neck and wrapping his arm across my waist as he softly says "Me too" and we fall silent, just listening to each other breathe as I wrap my arms around him and he tangles his legs with mine and we slowly drift off to sleep together, feeling warm and content in each other's arms. I'm woken a few hours later by the sound of a door slamming and when I open my eyes I realise Gerard is gone from beside me and when I sit up and look around he's not in the room at all. I slowly drag myself out of bed, crossing the room to my bag and I dig though for a pair of sweat pants and a tshirt when I notice my jeans from earlier have been moved. I feel my heart momentarily stop as I step over to pick them up and I reach into the pocket, breathing a sigh of relief that the box is still in there and I quickly flip it open to make sure the ring is still there before snapping it closed again and burying it amongst my clothes in my bag instead, not wanting Gerard to find it. After I'm dressed I make my way upstairs, running my fingers through my hair in an attempt to smooth it down and when I step out into the hallway I hear Gerard's voice coming from the kitchen. I make my way down the hall and as I step into the doorway I see Gerard and Mikey in the kitchen with their mother and five other women I don't know. I hesitate in the doorway until Mikey notices me and flips me off and Mrs Way notices the gesture, glancing over to see me in the doorway before she turns her gaze back on him, reaching out and slapping him up the back of the head. "Michael James, I did not raise you to be so disrespectful" she scolds him and everyone turns to look at me. "It's alright Mrs Way" I say softly as Gerard steps over to take my hand and she turns her attention back to me and says "Please, it's Donna" before looking back at Mikey. "And it's not alright, go to your room." Mikey opens his mouth to protest but the look on Donnas face makes him reconsider and he turns and brushes past me as I step aside to let him go.

After I've been introduced around to all the women, who I learn are Gerard's aunts who have come for his graduation we spend some time with them before we decide to take a walk, going back down to the basement and pulling on shoes and jackets, me slipping my cigarettes into my pocket before we leave, slowly walking hand in hand through the neighbourhood and to the park down the street. We end up laying on a picnic table side by side, sharing a cigarette with our hands still linked between us and when the first cigarette is finished we light a second one and I chuckle as I say "We could have just had one each." "Yeah but I like it better this way" Gerard tells me and I can't help the smile that threatens to split my face in two. While Gerard is finishing the last two drags of the cigarette I turn my head to watch him, taking in the way his eyes flutter shut as his inhales and the way his lips purse around the cigarette and I fall a little more in love with him. I watch as he flicks the cigarette butt away and exhales his last lung full of smoke before he turns his head and notices I'm staring. "What?" He asks, smiling at me and I smile back as I say "You're so beautiful." Gerard starts to giggle and blush as he rolls his head to look away but I reach out with my free hand and gently cup his cheek, turning his head back to face me again and I shake my head slightly as I say "I'm serious, you're so beautiful baby and I can't believe you're mine. I love you so much." "Aww baby I love you too" he tells me, leaning over to press a soft kiss to my lips and I kiss back eagerly, rolling my body to face him and he rolls onto his side too, shuffling closer until he's pressed against me and I reach up to gently stroke his hair back as we continue to kiss, my heart feeling like it's trying to break out of my chest.

After we go back to the house we go down to the basement to take our shoes and jackets off again and as we turn to leave the basement again, Donna calling us for dinner, Gerard stops me and says "Frankie there's something I wanna ask and....." He trails off, biting his bottom lip and looking down at his feet. "Baby if you keep biting your lip like that you can have anything you want" I tell him, making him giggle and look back up again. "What is it my love?" I ask as I reach out and gently cup his cheeks in my hands. "I, um, the other night I was watching....um....porn and uh..." I start to smirk as he continues to stutter, not really asking for anything just making nonsense noises and breathing heavily and I can't take it anymore, leaning in to press a soft kiss to his lips before I step closer and wrap my arms around his waist. "What would you like baby?" I ask and he sighs and leans in to rest his head on my shoulder. "Well the guys were...like against the wall...like with one holding the other up and I kinda thought that might be hot." I let out a small chuckle as I say "And you wanna try that?" Gerard remains silent, just nodding his head and I smile wide as I say "We can definitely do that." I feel him relax in my arms a little and I lean in and press a soft kiss to the side of his head before I ask "Is there anything else you'd like to try?" Gerard pulls back from me, looking into my eyes as he opens his mouth but he's cut off by Donna yelling down the stairs for us to get up to the table for dinner and I smile at him and say "We'll continue this later....by the way I now have to have a family dinner with a hard on, thank you" and Gerard looks down to see my pants slightly tented out, images of fucking Gerard against the wall running through my mind and he lets out a small giggle and says "Sorry Frankie" before taking my hand in his and dragging me towards the stairs while I try and will my erection away, following him up the stairs.

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