Kill This Venom From My Heart

I tense up and pull away from Gerard but my arms are still around his waist when Jamia walks into the doorway. She freezes for a second before her face changes from shock to anger to neutral and she forces a big fake smile onto her face as she says "So who's this?" "This is my boyfriend and you need to get the fuck out of my house." "No, I don't think I will. Hi I'm Jamia" she says, turning her attention to Gerard and he slowly takes a small step away from me, looking extremely uncomfortable and he says "Hi, I'm Gerard." "Gerard? As in Gee I was talking to on the phone?" He nods slowly and I reach out to grab his hand, squeezing comfortingly as I say "Jamia, I don't know how many keys you have to this house but you need to give them back and get out before I call the cops." "No need to be so cranky Frank, just calm down. I've misplaced a few things and just wanted to make sure I didn't leave them here." "Fine, go check and then get out." Jamia sighs softly, her eyes lingering on Gerard before she turns to leave the room and when she's gone I pull Gerard into my chest and wrap my arms around him as I say "I'm so sorry about her, she's insane." "It's ok" he says softly and I lean in to press a soft kiss to his lips which is interrupted by Jamia shrieking "He's only seventeen?" Gerard pulls away from me and I let go of him as I take off running, rushing upstairs to find Jamia in my bedroom, Gerard's wallet in her hand. "Give me that" I yell at her as I charge towards her and she backs up, looking scared as she says "Frankie....calm down" but my anger takes over and I snatch the wallet from her hands, shoving her harshly and she falls back onto the floor. "How fucking dare you touch his stuff" I scream at her and a warm hand on my back startles me. I spin around to see Gerard standing there looking worried as he softly says "Frank, stop." I take a deep breath, feeling myself calm down as we stare at each other before I turn back to Jamia who is silently crying on the floor. "Get out Jamia, I don't care if your stuff is here or not, I'll send it to you, just get out." She nods, dragging herself off the floor with a small whimper before rushing from the room and a few seconds later the front door slams shut.

Once Jamia is gone I turn my attention back to Gerard and when I take a step towards him he looks unsure. "Here" I say softly, standing a small distance away from him and holding out his wallet. Gerard takes it and throws it onto the bed before locking his gaze with mine and I say "I'm sorry." "It's ok, you just frightened me that's all, I didn't think you would be like that." "She just....she destroyed me Gee. I never wanted a relationship with her in the first place but she persisted and I let her in and gave her everything and she completely killed me inside and it was like I was dead for so long and then I met you and you make me feel more alive than I have in a really really long time and she's threatening that and I snapped." Gerard nods slowly before stepping forward and wrapping his arms around me. I melt into his chest as I throw my arms around him and hug back and Gerard presses a soft kiss to the side of my head as he says "I'm here and nothing is gonna make me leave." I nod slowly against his neck as I pull him even closer to me and we share a tight hug for a few minutes while I calm down completely. When we break apart again Gerard turns and walks over to the bed, laying down and holding his arms out to me and I smile as I climb onto the bed with him, cuddling up to him and we lay in silence for a few minutes before he says "You don't think she'll tell people do you?" And I freeze, fear washing through me as I think about what will happen if she goes to the press about us. "Fuck" I hiss out as I sit up, frantically looking around the room like I'll find the answer and Gerard sits up too, reaching out to gently rub my back. "Frankie?" He asks softly and I jump off the bed, grabbing my phone and dialling the only person I can think of that could possibly be able to help me. "Bob? It's Frank, I think I fucked up."

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