Kill This Venom From My Heart

Half an hour after my last message with Gerard I am eating the food I ordered to my room when I get an unfortunately familiar pressure in my lower stomach and I sigh as I climb off the bed and grab my small toiletry bag full of medication, taking a handful of pills, hoping it's not too late for them to take effect. I sit back on the bed, picking at the food left but not really feeling like eating it anymore until I get tired of it and sit the tray aside, laying back on the bed and grabbing my laptop, surfing the web for a while until the pain gets worse and I start a movie, pushing the laptop onto the other side of the bed and curling up in a ball, half watching as I feel my stomach get worse and worse to the point where the pain makes me want to cry. I end up falling asleep only to be woken a few hours later by someone knocking on the door and I drag myself off the bed and my eyes burn from the too bright light from the lamp I left on as I stumble across the room, the pain in my stomach flaring up again and when I open the door Gerard steps towards me with a big smile on his face but freezes when he sees the state I'm in. "Uh, Frank are you ok?" I point to my stomach as I let out a soft groan and double over, my hands clutching at my stomach and Gerard grabs my arm, helping keep me upright as he guides me back into the room, closing the door behind us as we go back over to the bed where Gerard helps me lay down before kneeling beside the bed. "Can I get you anything?" He asks softly and I groan as I point to the bag on the table and he stands up and grabs it for me, grabbing my bottle of water as well before coming back to the bed and I sit up, opening the bag when he hands it to me and I open a few different bottles of pills, taking another small handful and washing them down with the water and Gerard watches me wide eyed before saying "Should you be taking so many pills?" "Yes" I snap at him and he nods slowly, looking a little upset and I sigh before reaching out and cupping his cheek in my hand. "I'm sorry, it just hurts." "It's ok" he tells me as he smiles softly and reaches up to gently stroke my hair back. We smile at each other for a few seconds before I ask "So what are you doing here? What time is it?" "It's like three in the morning and I had a massive fight with Mikey and I needed to get out." I nod in understanding before laying back down and patting the bed next to me, Gerard smiling as he kicks his shoes off and I move the laptop onto the floor as he takes his pants off and climbs onto the bed beside me. Once we're laying side by side facing each other I say "Do you wanna talk about it?" He shakes his head before saying "You're wearing my shirt," his face breaking out into a massive smile. I smile back before saying "Well you left here in mine." He chuckles softly before saying "It smelled nice." I laugh softly too before sliding closer to him and pressing my lips to his, the pain in my stomach slowly fading as he kisses back, my arm sliding around his waist and pulling him tight against me. When we break apart for air Gerard is panting softly and I smile as I say "You're really great at that," making him blush. We lay in silence for a few minutes, just staring at each other before I break the silence to say "I can't believe you actually like me back." "I was thinking the same thing" he tells me before leaning in and sealing his lips to mine and we share slow soft kisses until we fall asleep.

It's late morning when I wake up again and Gerard is still sleeping, curled up against my chest and I smile as I roll onto my back, careful not to wake him as I reach out for my phone, snapping a quick picture of him before sitting the phone aside and I reach out to gently stroke my fingers through his hair. A few seconds later he starts to stir, his eyes slowly fluttering open and I smile warmly at him as I say "You have no idea how adorable you are when you're sleeping." Gerard's face goes bright red again and I laugh softly as I sit up, Gerard sitting up with me and saying "Thanks for letting me stay here." "It's ok" I tell him softly before climbing out of bed and going into the bathroom to wash my face. When I come back out Gerard is sitting on the bed looking at his phone and when I step closer to him he looks up and says "You posted a picture of us?" I frown, confused for a second before I remember the twitter post I made and I smile as I say "Is that ok?" "Yeah" he tells me before adding "So, when are we going to tell people? Like our families and stuff?" "Do you wanna go get breakfast and we can talk about it?" "Uh, yeah ok" Gerard says and I grab some clean clothes from my suitcase, throwing a clean shirt at Gerard and he smiles gratefully as he climbs off the bed, grabbing his jeans on the way and once the door is closed I change, pulling on shoes before sitting on the bed and waiting for him to come back out, chewing nervously on my thumb nail as I worry about how this conversation is going to go.

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