Don't assume

“excuse me?” mikey asked “why would you even joke about shit like-“ “i’m not joking about anything ‘mikey’” the doctor said going by the name i had spoken earlier. “Mr. Way is surprisingly not the first case like this we’ve seen here at this hospital. “ “that-that’s impossible how would he even get pregnant?” Mikey argued “anal sex. same as a woman just a different entrance name.” “he’s not gay!” “this is why i suggested you should’ve been alone sir.” the doctor said looking at me i was in shock. i’ had been pregnant… with franks child, and i’d lost it? “so will the pain stop now?” i asked quietly “i’m sorry but miscarriages don’t always just have everything leave all at once. All the blood you saw in the shower was just the lining of your inner walls exiting, we still have to remove the dead fetus. We can perform a c-section or you could have us induce you and push the fetus out.” i wanted to throw up “i have to deliver a dead baby?” i asked with teary eyes “my dead baby?” “i’m afraid so. i’m sorry mr.way.” i shook my head. “i-it’s not your fault, but can you tell me why it died?” “it seems that you were about a month or two along and with the alcohol level we found in your blood…well it gave the fetus poisoning and killed it.” my heart shattered. i’d heard of people being hermaphrodites before but i never imaged that i would be one. And i killed it. I killed my own child because i wanted to drink. i didn’t know i was pregnant but i also didn’t need to be drinking that much whether i was or not. “so am i a-“ “hermaphrodite. yes.” mikey was just staring at me with disbelief. “gee you aren't a girl!” he snapped “then fucking explain this to me Mikey!” i lashed out at him. “Mr. Way we do need to know your option of uhm delivery.” i looked at Mikey. “mom and dad can’t know.” “then you’ll have to be induced. you can’t hide a scar from a c-section and act normal while its healing.” i swallowed hard. “induce me.” after the delivery i sat on the hospital bed crying. i saw that thing come out of me. That thing that was once my child. My alive child and i killed it. Mikey tried taking my mind off the delivery by asking questions. “so you're gay? like what about ash?” i bit my lip. I couldn’t tell him about frank, they were friends and i don’t know how frank will react to this. “no i’m not gay.” “then how-“ “i got drunk a while ago and had a one stand.” i lied. Mikey looked at me with sorrowful eyes. “then maybe its better this happened. i mean we’d help you out but if the dad wasn’t even around…” “yeah i guess. listen mikes thanks for being calm, about everything.” “I'm trying because I'm worried. you haven’t freaked out yet so I'm waiting for it to happen.” “I'm not freaked out, i feel guilty.” “gee-“ “Mikey i killed my kid.” he didn’t say anything once those words left my mouth. “it was my choice to get that shit faced even when i didn’t know i was pregnant. i shouldn’t have been drinking that much just in general. i killed my baby and i had to see it be delivered. dead.” “I'm sorry i couldn’t go in there with you. “ “its fine. thanks for being here and staying with me.”

Notes

heres the update you guys have been waiting for, its sad i know but theres a lot more to come you know the drill ;) xoxox mcrlove