If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky! (Frerard)

Franks P.O.V:
I had to ring him. It’s been playing on my mind for ages now. Thankfully Gee’s still asleep. I don’t have Andy’s number but I’m sure Gee does. I grab his phone from his discarded jeans pocket and find Andy’s number in his contacts. I type the number into my phone and let it ring. I mange to return Gerard’s phone in his jeans before Andy picks up.

“Alright Arsehole I hope you’re aware of the time. What is your problem?” Wow someone moody tonight. “Andy? It’s me Frank.” It takes him a while to answer me. “Erm... What’s up Frank? Is Gee okay?”I understood why he asked me that but it still pissed me off. I didn’t let it show though. “Gee’s fine. I just needed to ask you something because it’s been playing on my mind for a while now.” I pause for his answer. “Go on then.” Okay you can do this Frank. “Did you really mean what you said earlier? That you still love me?” He sounds like he’s panicking. He quickly gets it undercontrol before answering me again. “ Yeah I did Frank. Every bit of it. Why?” I sigh and answer with “That’s what I was afraid you were going to say.” I then end the call.

What am I going to do? I still love Gerard don’t get me wrong. Problem is old feelings for Andy dug their way up from the bottom of my brain and heart. I grab some of my hair in my hands and growl but not loud enough to wake Gerard up. “Frank? You okay?” I remove my hands and turn to see Mikey in the door way. “Yeah. You okay now? I didn’t mean to upset you. I was upset and angry.” He gave me a weak smile and nodded.”Yeah I’m good. I really did want to tell you but Gerard asked me not to. I’m sorry Frank.” He looked at his shoes nervously. I walked over to him and gave him a hug. “No worries Mikes. I get it. I respect you because you respect Gee’s wishes like a brother should.” Mikey pulled away and smiled brightly at me. I wish he was my brother. Gerard started to stir a bit and we both looked at him. “I shall leave you too it Frank. Don’t hurt him too much.” Mikey said and left. What did he mean by that?

“Frankie?” Gerard said and started to panic when he realised I was not by his side. “I’m right here Gee baby. Don’t you worry.” I say as I walk towards him. He smiles and hugs me tightly. “I thought you’d left me. Don’t ever leave me Frankie. I’m sorry for being a little twat all the time. I just- I’m just scared.”He began to cry quietly like he didn’t want me to hear him. He was trying to be strong. To be honest I wouldn’t of realised he was crying if it wasn’t for my shirt being soaked again and his body was shaking slightly. “Gee?” He looked up to meet my gaze. Tears still falling from his eyes. “Never be ashamed to cry around me. I love you. Alright?” He nodded. “I’m never going to leave you.” I say and kiss him gently. He kisses back and refuses to let me pull away. I laugh and smile into the kiss until we break for much needed air. “I’m going to use the restroom and get cleaned up. Don’t go anywhere okay?” I nod in response and watch Gerard head for the restroom. He stops before heading into it and says “I love you Frank.” I smile and say it back and he’s gone.

I’d made my decision then. Time to ring Andy and tell him I’m staying with Gerard. Andy finally answered me with a “Helloooooo” Shit not again. “You’re high and drunk arn’t you?" He went silent for a few seconds. “Frankie?” Yeah he was if it took him that long to recognise my voice. “Yeah it’s me. What’s wrong? Why have you been drinking and doing drugs? You’ve been clean for years now from drugs!” When Andy got high he did stupid things to himself. Said how worthless he was so on several occasions he tried to end his own life. Including my birthday the first year we were together. He know had me worried. “I’ve come to realise I will always be alone and I will die alone.” I’ve heard that before. Before I started to date him. He was going to end his life. Why did this make me feel bad about my decision? I don’t want Andy to die, He can’t. Fuck this. “That’s what I wanted to talk to you about. Andy I still love you.” The line went dead. Maybe he didn’t hear me? I have to get to him fast. I need to be with him. Gerard will find someone better and he’s safe here.

“You still love Andy? “ I spin around to see Mikey holding on to Gerard as his brothers eyes let tears spill freely. I just nod my head. I can’t say anything. “So you’re just going to leave poor Gerard here and fuck off with the guy who abused the so called love of your fucking life? Is that what you intend to do? Tear apart my already broken and beaten brother?” I stay silent. “WELL FRANK? FUCKING ANSWER ME!” I still stay silent. “You know what Frank? Gerard deserves someone better for him. Go fuck off to you boyfriend now. You two are perfect for each other. Both abusing poor Gerard here. Him physically and you emotionally. You should be ashamed of yourself!” Maybe he was right. I was exactly like Andy. I close my eyes tightly to stop the tears from flowing.”I’m sorry Gerard. Mikey’s right. You can do so much better.” Gerard's breathing starts to get quicker and heavier. I know he’s having another panic attack. He falls to the ground and I try to rush over but Mikey stops me by saying ” Stay the fuck away from him, You did this too him again! He doesn’t need you. Get the fuck out of here now!” I watch as Mikey shouts for Ray who scopes the situation and runs for a nurse. Mikey gets Gerard on to the bed and turns back to me. “Out!” He shouts and the nurse comes in. I leave the room without looking back. I’m a shit person. I pull out my phone and scan through my messages till I find Ashley’s name. I look over the messages until I find the address to his and Andy’s new apartment. Bingo! Got it. I call a taxi and a few minutes later it arrives.

10 minutes later we pull up to the tall building and I pay the taxi driver tipping him and extra 5 for being so nice and turning the radio on full blast for me. I watch as he drives away and make my way up to Andy’s door. I brace myself and knock. I wait a few seconds before the door opens. I smile at Andy and say “Hello Andy.” Before I launch myself on him and kiss him.

Notes

Hey guys. So Franks a twat right? Though he doesn’t want Andy dead. Though that could lead Gee to death maybe? Nah just kidding. Next chapter will be in Gerard’s point of view and it will be exactly a year later. Mikey’s brilliant isn’t he? So next chapter some relationship’s will have changed. We will say goodbye to some characters too and hello to some new ones.
On Halloween though will be a longer chapter and I have something big planned for that one.
I hope you guys are enjoying this. I’m enjoying writing it but I always find myself thinking it’s crap at the end. Ugh writing is annoying. This is the only thing I have to put my mind of things.
Anyways thanks for reading.
Tatz. x