If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky! (Frerard)

I just stare at Gerard. I mean yeah he lives here now but in no way is he allowed to bring that abusive cunt into my fucking home I paid for. “Want a coffee?” Gerard asks me. I didn’t mean to but I snap. “Really Gerard? A fucking coffee? You bring that cunt into MY FUCKING HOUSE and that’s all you can say?” “Take that as a no then.” He gets up and heads into the kitchen. I follow suit. He isn’t getting out of this that easily. “Look at me!” He just ignores me and carries on measuring out the contents needed for the coffee maker. “LOOK AT ME RIGHT FUCKING NOW!” I shout at him. He flinches and drop the coffee on the floor. “Shit!” He says and grabs a dustpan and brush to clean it up. I grab a cloth and help him. As I bend down I notice the floor’s wet. He spilt coffee granules so this confuses me. “I’m sorry.” Gerard says and starts to sniffle. I look up to find tears falling from his eyes. “No I’m sorry. I just thought after last night you wanted to be with me. I guess I should of realised that Andy will always be there.” I chuck the cloth into the sink and head out to the living room leaving Gerard alone. I head over to the liquor cabinet and grab a bottle of Whiskey. I open it up and down half the bottle not caring about the burn in the back of my throat. I need to get help for my drinking problem. “Frankie? Please stop drinking. I don’t like it when you drink.” Gerard says as he sits down on the other couch. Wow he doesn’t even want to sit near me. Fuck him then.

“It’s my house Gerard so I can do what I like. Seems you brought him in here and thought it was a good idea to make out with him on my fucking couch! I’m not going to stop drinking.” I snap at him. “Well if you actually fucking meant what you said last night I wouldn’t be with him again!” He snaps back. Me being angry plus drinking is a very bad idea. I stand up and throw the bottle against the wall not even caring that I wasted half of it at that moment. “I DID mean what I said last night. I don’t understand why you thought I was lying.” He laughed at that. “Oh I don’t know Frank, Maybe because you were fucking hugging that girl earlier today!” Molly? Does he seriously think something’s happening there? “She’s my friend I helped her out at college the other day. She left because I had to take care of you. Nothing is happening between us. So you’re with Andy again?” He nodded. “Is that why you disappeared of me this morning?” “Actually I went to get some of my stuff to bring here. I was going to tell him we were officially through.” None of this made sense to me.”Then why were you at the coffee bar with him?”

“He slept at a friend’s house. I didn’t have my key so I went to meet him.” He said it with so much confidence I was sure he was lying.”What happened to your face then?” He looked down towards his hands and started playing with them as he answered “I told him I was moving out. He flipped and did it again. I swear I’m his favourite punching bag.” There were tears in his eyes. “Gee why did you kiss him after he did this to you?” He looked up from his hands then and let out a shaky breath before answering me "I-I saw you hugging that girl and I honestly though..” He was interrupted by his own sobs. The tears fell fast and he caught his breath to carry on “ I thought you were going to choose her over me. S-so I kissed Andy. I know I’m stupid but I-i love you so much Frank it hurts me to see you hug-hugging another person.” He put his head in his hand and sobbed so much he had trouble breathing. I went over to him, sat on the couch next to him and pulled him into my chest. He stayed there and cried it all out. I didn’t care that my shirt was soaking wet half way through his crying. By the time he’d finished, I shit you not, The whole front of my shirt was soaked. He stayed in my arms and we were silent for a while. I finally broke the silence. “Gee?” He pulled away slightly to look at me. He had a stray tear still on his cheek so I used the pad of my thumb to wipe it away. “I promise you I only ever want you. Molly is seriously just a friend. Please Gee you have to believe me. I understand if you want to stay with Andy because I’m a shit person and haven’t treated you the way I should do. The end of the day I fucking love you and all I want right now is to be with you. I know I said the other day it was too soon but life’s too short to waste any of it. Plus the waiting for me is painful. I don’t know what I’d do without you Gee.” I suddenly remember when Gerard tried to kill himself. He’d drank so much he passed out in a scolding hot bath. I could of lost him.

“Frankie, Why are you crying? Please don’t cry.” He buried his head in my chest again and I started to stroke his hair. “Please never try to end your life ever again Gee. I can’t lose you!” I cry out. He pulls away fully and looks at me. He reaches his hand out and wipes away my tears. “I promise I wont if you promise to stop drinking.” I nodded and shook his hand in agreement. He leaned in to kiss me but I moved away and stood up. “What’s wrong Frank? I thought you wanted me?” He said as he started to stand. “I do more than anything believe me.”I reply. “Then why did you move away?” I really did want Gerard but he wasn’t mine right now. “I don’t want to see you hurt.” He shakes his head. “You’re hurting me now. One minute you want me the next you don’t. WHICH FUCKING ONE IS IT FRANK?!” He snaps. “Gee I do fucking want you so badly, But you’re not mine. You’re currently dating Andy. I don’t want him to find out somehow and beat you again. I’m sorry if you think I’m being selfish right now.” He doesn’t say anything he just goes into the kitchen and returns a few seconds later with a cloth and the dustpan and brush. He heads towards the smashed Whiskey bottle and cleans it all up. “I could of done that. It was my mess Gee.” He shrugs and disappears into the kitchen again.

My phone starts to ring so I grab it out of my jeans pocket and look at the caller ID.
Molly Moo Moo. I’m so nice to my friends.

“Hello Molly Moo Moo.” I say into the phone.
“Frank! Do not call me that or I shall call you fruit loops!”
“Fine by me.” I laugh as she growls into the phone. “What’s up anyways?”
“I just wanted to know if you’re still on for tonight or not. Also if you sorted things with Gerard.”
“Yeah the movies is still happening. I need to make sure Ray and Tay are alright still. They’re so cute together. Don’t you think?”
“Yeah they are. How’s you and Gerard?”
“What movie we watching then?”
“Some movie called Children of the corn. Frank?”
“Sounds good and yes?”
“Stop avoiding the question! How are you two?”
I hesitate for a moment before reply with “Honestly I don’t know. I fucking love him and want to be with him so badly but he’s with Andy.” I feel tears begin to fill my eyes threatening to spill. I don’t want Molly to think I’m a baby or something so take some quiet deep breath to control my voice.
“I’m sorry Frank. I don’t know what to say to you.” She sighs.
“Hey don’t worry about it. So we all meet outside the cinema at 8? Sound good to you?”
“Yeah, Erm Frank? Who going to be there?”
“Me, You, Ray, Tay, Olly and maybe Gee.”
“Okay well You’re awesome. Ray and Tay seem nice from what I’ve seen. I don’t know about Gee and I’ve never seen Olly before.”
“Olly’s sound. Gee has his moments but he’s a cool guy. Ray and Tay really want to talk to you. They think you’re cute!” I hear Molly aw from the other end of the phone.
“See you at 8 tonight Frank. I hope you and Gee sort things out by then.”
“So do I. Bye Molly.” With that last sentence the phone line goes dead.
I text Ray,Tay and Olly the details ebfore slipping the phone back into my pocket.

I let my tears spill and sit back on the couch. I didn’t hear Gerard come in but he’s suddenly sat on the couch next to me and pulling me into his chest. “Frank? I’m meeting Andy in an hour.” He states. I pull away. “What? Why?” He smiles at me before answering with “I’m going to finish with him. I want to be with you as much as you do me. I don’t like seeing you cry when I know you’re so much stronger than me. I love you Frank.” I smile and suddenly I stop crying. “I need you to do something for me though Frank, If you don’t mind?” I nod “Gee baby I’d do anything for you, Even if that meant leaving you alone to be with someone else. I want you to be happy.” He leans in and this time I don’t pull away. The kiss is sweet and quick. “Come with me? I want you to be there when I end it. I want him to know how much I love and want to be with you. You only. I don’t care if he beats me up.” I peck him on the lips and pull him into a hug. “Of course I will go with you. I’m not going to let that bastard touch you. See how fast he ran out the house earlier?” I laughed along with Gerard. “I’m so sorry Gee.” He pulls away and looks at me confused. “For what?” “Kissing you. I shouldn’t have done that. I hate cheaters and those who wreck others relationships. I just made you one and I became one.” He shook his head.”No! I wanted the kiss and Andy ruined our relationship. He always has done. Every single time we get together he ruins it.” I just pull him into a hug and we stay like that until Gerard says it’s time to leave or we will be late to meet Andy.

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Notes

So here you go as promised the seond update for today.
I'm on a fricking roll.
I kind of feel like this chapter is so crap.
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