Benzene Doll
I Will Try To Fix You
It's just sex, Benzene, she told herself. It's important for Killjoy lifestyle. Must have babies to raise and turn them into killjoys as well.
She awaited in the room for Ghoul to arrived. Lying in the bed, She could feel the aching pain in her heart.
"Don't worry dear, "she said. "It'll be ok. You don't have to fall in love again if you don't want to. It's just for sex anyway. All you have to do now is pump blood through my veins to keep me alive."
Ghoul entered the room and watched her. His eyes seeing nothing but her and his heart racing a fucking marathon. There was just something he saw in her.
"Yknow," he said to Benzene, "we don't have to do this if you don't want to."
"Who said I didn't want to do this in the first this?" she asked.
"It's just.....yknow.......you're the only girl out here and............I wouldn't want you to be pressured into doing this if you didn't want to and......yknow...."
"Do you want to do this?"
"Why are you asking me this?"
"You just seem so flaky on this decision."
"I'm just trying not to hurt you aagain-"
"Hurt me? Again?"
"I heard it from Grace. About your life life before the war. And you already told me about Korse. You've already been through enough shit as it is. I couldn't live with myself if."
"It ok Ghoul, you can't hurt me. I can't even feel love anymore."
"That's impossible, you don't just stop feeling an emotion."
"You can if all it ever did to you was cause you misery."
"But you're too young."
"I'm 26, that's not all that young."
"It's too young to be giving up on your emotions too quickly like that."
"I think I've suffered enough from that to realize love's just your sex drive playing tricks on you and fucking up with the rest of yourself."
"Is that what it is to you know? Sex drive playing tricks on people?"
"Yes. Exactly."
Frustrated, Ghoul stormed out the room and left Benzene alone.
That wasn't so bad, she thought.
What the fuck is wrong with her? Ghoul thought as he entered another room.
But as he was about to give up, he remembered something from years ago: his children.
He wanted them to see the world through his eyes, and not BL'ind's.
He wanted them to have real freedom, not captivity and slavery like Benzene did.
But he lost that years ago when his now ex-wife took them with him.
His only real hope now was Benzene.
And he knew that if no one was ever going to fix her, she would not only miss out on love, but on a lot of opportunities.
And she too will always see the world in BL/ind's point of view instead of his.
"I have to fix her." he said. "It's the only way."
She awaited in the room for Ghoul to arrived. Lying in the bed, She could feel the aching pain in her heart.
"Don't worry dear, "she said. "It'll be ok. You don't have to fall in love again if you don't want to. It's just for sex anyway. All you have to do now is pump blood through my veins to keep me alive."
Ghoul entered the room and watched her. His eyes seeing nothing but her and his heart racing a fucking marathon. There was just something he saw in her.
"Yknow," he said to Benzene, "we don't have to do this if you don't want to."
"Who said I didn't want to do this in the first this?" she asked.
"It's just.....yknow.......you're the only girl out here and............I wouldn't want you to be pressured into doing this if you didn't want to and......yknow...."
"Do you want to do this?"
"Why are you asking me this?"
"You just seem so flaky on this decision."
"I'm just trying not to hurt you aagain-"
"Hurt me? Again?"
"I heard it from Grace. About your life life before the war. And you already told me about Korse. You've already been through enough shit as it is. I couldn't live with myself if."
"It ok Ghoul, you can't hurt me. I can't even feel love anymore."
"That's impossible, you don't just stop feeling an emotion."
"You can if all it ever did to you was cause you misery."
"But you're too young."
"I'm 26, that's not all that young."
"It's too young to be giving up on your emotions too quickly like that."
"I think I've suffered enough from that to realize love's just your sex drive playing tricks on you and fucking up with the rest of yourself."
"Is that what it is to you know? Sex drive playing tricks on people?"
"Yes. Exactly."
Frustrated, Ghoul stormed out the room and left Benzene alone.
That wasn't so bad, she thought.
What the fuck is wrong with her? Ghoul thought as he entered another room.
But as he was about to give up, he remembered something from years ago: his children.
He wanted them to see the world through his eyes, and not BL'ind's.
He wanted them to have real freedom, not captivity and slavery like Benzene did.
But he lost that years ago when his now ex-wife took them with him.
His only real hope now was Benzene.
And he knew that if no one was ever going to fix her, she would not only miss out on love, but on a lot of opportunities.
And she too will always see the world in BL/ind's point of view instead of his.
"I have to fix her." he said. "It's the only way."
7/31/13