Frank’s POV
“I love you,” I muttered as Gerard closed the door behind him. As soon as the words escaped my lips, I instantly regretted them. “I Love You?!” I pulled at my hair pacing my room. I had conflicting, swelling, feelings for Gerard, “saying I love you after his forst break up in a very long time is not the way to get a guy to like you Frank!” I paced back and forth mumbling things to myself as I continued.
“So what’s got you in such a bind?” I heard Ray chuckle.
“How long have you been standing there?!’ I jumped.
“Long enough to know you said I love you to a guy,” Ray brought his bottle of beer to his lips with a smirk.
“How’d you know that?!” my expression grew from concentrated to concerned.
“Well you said yourself,” Ray nodded towards me, “just now, when you were pacing, you said, ‘saying I love you after his first breakup in a very long time is not-’”
“I know what I said!” I barked rubbing my eyebrow.
“So Gerard and Lyn broke up huh?”
“How’d you know it was Gerard?!” I was shocked; I just couldn’t understand how he knew did I say his name?
“Frank,” Ray gave me a look like I was losing my mind, “did you really think we didn’t know? I see the way you look at him. We know you guys hang out all the time. Mikey was the only one who hadn’t figured it out, mainly because he didn’t want to believe it. Did you really think we couldn’t figure it out?”
“Well I had hoped,” I grumbled. I hadn’t even considered the fact the guys had known.
“So wait, Lyn-z and Gerard broke up?” Ray put the beer down on the floor.
“Yup, apparently she’s pregnant with his best friend from his old school’s baby,”
“Gees,” (no pun intended) Ray put the bottle to his lips, “that’s intense.”
“Yeah,” I ran my hand through my hair.
“Wait,” Ray put the beer down using his hands to make his point, “you said you love him? I mean I know I licked crayons to impress girls in junior high, but still man.” Ray’s voice cracked, “He made grumbling sounds in the back of his through to fix the issue, I couldn’t help but smile.
“Yeah, I did,” I chuckled lightly at my idiocy. I couldn’t help it.
“Dud, he just broke up with Lyn today right?”
“Ray, I know! I know, I know, I know….” I muttered rubbing my face, “I don’t know why I said it I just did. It just came out so… naturally.”
“Be careful man, you don’t want to scare him off.”
“You don’t think I know that?!” I took a deep breathe to calm myself down, “Ray, could you please just leave?”
“Sure Frank, oh and Rob has got us booked for a gig,” Rob was out tour manager, he took good care of us, but we really needed to focus on recording.
“Does he even consider the fact that we have a studio rented out at the moment?”
“Yeah, I brought that up this morning, he said this would be the last one for a while.”
“Okay man, I’ll see you later ok?” I politely ushered him out the door. Ray was brilliant with his guitar; he picked up on things that I would never be able to do or want to do. Ray and I have completely different playing styles, that shouldn’t work together, but do.
Ray left and I was on my own again, left to my thoughts.
Gerard’s POV
Writing music and recording was the best experience of my life. I was back to square one though, I was avoiding Frank again. I mean this time I didn’t make it such a big deal. But I was avoiding him, we didn’t make out anymore, and I made sure to not make him think that I wanted to, in anyway.
“And… It’s,” Rob put his hand to the computer waiting for it to spit out of the computer, “Done!” He spun around in his chair with the CD in his hands, “Here it is boys, bullets, my chemical romance’s first album.” Once the excitement died down, “well I’m going to go guys,” I said, “I’ll see you all at practice later.”
“Alright we’ll see you later Gerard, I’m going to send the disk out to publishers,” Rob’s voice faded as I walked out the door.
“I miss you,” I heard once noise feet stop behind me, I turned around to see Frank with sad eyes waiting for a response.
“Frank please,” I ran my hand through my hair.
“No, listen to me,” Frank got my attention, “It’s been months since you broke up with Lyn-z she’s gone it’s over! I want you, I want you mine and now one else’s! Can’t you see it? Wasn’t the point in breaking up with her to be with me?”
“That wasn’t the reason and you know it,” Gerard frowned at the memory.
“It was originally going to be, but you chickened out and used the reason she gave you!” Lucky for me Gerard wasn’t aware I had done the same thing.
“Don’t you see the way I look at you? I see the way you look at me, that’s for sure, I see it, they see it,” Frank motioned back to the studio. “You’re the only one that doesn’t see it! Gerard, your running from happiness, I know you, you want this, you’re afraid of being happy, because you are so sure you can’t be.” Frank made his way to putting his finger to my chest, “but you can be all you have to do is grab it,” obviously implying that if I wanted to be happy with him I should grab his hand in that moment.
I pushed his hand away from me, “Frank, I need to breath, I can’t handle something this new just yet. I need time to think, time to breathe,” I began to turn away.
“Gerard…” Frank whispered, “I’ll wait for you until there’s not a chance in the world that I can have you, I’ll wait. Let me know when you’ll let yourself be happy.”
And that’s when I walked away.

Frank’s POV
And he was gone as if I hadn’t said anything. I was done chasing after Gerard, I was completely done. I wasn’t going to waste my energy swimming upstream if the current would just bring it to me.
Weeks passed, maybe months, neither Gerard nor I really went out of our way to hang out, but we got together when shit needed to get done. Other than that he wanted nothing to do with me and I was ok with that. Tour started, and then I had to live with the guys.