Even Lights Can Fade Away

It hadn't taken Mikey and Bob long to evacuate the house after I woke up. They had decided to leave shortly after, claiming that me and Gerard needed to talk, which to be honest, we really did.
I still wasn't sure how I felt about the whole vampire thing yet. I mean yeah, it was great, I got to be with Gee forever and there were some new abilities. But on the other hand, I had been a vegetarian before. I wasn't sure how I felt towards this whole feeding off of people. Hopefully I would be able to get more blood bags.
Any which way the recent events led me to where I am now, sitting on the couch with a very nervous vampire next to me, wringing his hands out and scratching his head every ten seconds. Why he was so goddamn nervous was beyond me, and I felt compelled to ask but restrained myself. He would talk in good time. I knew he would.
Nearly ten minutes later though he was still just sending me sideways glances before looking back at the floor with a face full of shame? Guilt? I couldn't quite place it, but it confused me nonetheless. Finally I couldn't take the silence anymore and huffed a breath.
"Okay Gerard what's up?" I asked him flat out. He jumped at the sound of my voice before picking at his hoodie sleeve. It took him so long to reply that I almost began to think he wouldn't. When he did though his voice came out as small and timid, and very un-Gerard like.
"Do you hate me now? Because of what I did?" I felt myself gape at him. That's why he had been so miserable? Because he thought this whole time I would hate him for turning me? I guess it was a legitimate worry. We had never really discussed my turning before so it wasn't like he had an idea of what I wanted. He wouldn't have know how badly I wanted to be with him forever.
"Of course I don't hate you!" I scooted him across the couch so that I could pull him into my arms. "In fact I am in love with you Gerard Way. Nothing you could ever do would make me hate you." He clutched onto me like I was his lifeline (which is kind of funny since we're both dead).
"I-I was s-so scared you were going to h-hate me," He hiccuped. "I thought you would wake up, realize how much of a monster I turned you into and leave me for good. And I wouldn't stop you because I know you would have full right to get up and leave."
"Shh Geebear. Shh," I soothed gripping him tightly to me. "I will never ever leave you until the day you're sick of me," I declared kissing his head gently. "Not even then."
"So you're not mad?" He whispered pressing back into me. Not in a sexual way, but in a cuddling comfort way.
"Not at all," I promised in a reassuring tone. I bit my lip though, turning my face so that he couldn't see the panic written across my features. This was a whole new ground for me, none of which I really knew anything about. Imagine going to your first day of high school as a freshman without having orientation. You know all the basics of school, but it's those little important details that you need.
Basically what I was saying is that I need vampire orientation. And Gerard's gonna give it to me.
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The rest of my day was spent with Gerard going over the basics of being a vampire. He told me about the venom and how to use it, how to properly feed, how to control myself, and much more. By the end of the day I felt like my brain was about to explode from information over load. I hadn't learned this much in one day since...like ever. What can I say? Paying attention in school was hard.
"All you need to do to put your fangs away is concentrate," Gerard instructed me. I had been having troubles getting my fangs to go back into place since this morning after Mikey gave me the blood. Gerard said it was totally normal so I decided to trust him on it.
I sighed deeply and closed my eyes, concentrating on my fangs and on pulling them back in. My brows furrowed in concentration, but nothing happened.
"Goddamn it!" I mumbled to myself. I had already cut myself multiple times today with them, and I wanted them back in my mouth as soon as possible. "It's not working Gee!" I cried opening my eyes and throwing my hands up in frustration. Gerard frowned, clearly confused on what to do next.
Suddenly he got an idea. "Close your eyes!" He commanded running towards the fridge. I wasn't sure what he was planning but I obliged grudgingly. This was taking way too long for my liking, and I knew I was being bitchy, but it was like I had ADHD. I couldn't sit still this long and concentrate.
I heard Gerard pull something out of the fridge before slamming it shut again and running towards me again.
"I have no idea if this will work, but I'm hoping it will." He explained, leaving me still confused considering the fact I couldn't see what he was holding.
Suddenly without warning he shoved something under my nose. Whatever it was it seemed horrible and I recoiled away from it, before pausing to realize that my fangs had retreated back into their spots. My eyes flew open and I glared at Gerard who was looking back at me and trying not to laugh. In his hand he held what appeared to be a piece of casserole in a plastic container.
"Mikey's" He told me noticing my glance. Then he leaned in to inspect my teeth, grinning when he saw they were moved. "Ah it worked. I was hoping the smell of human food would disgust you enough to the point where you won't think about eating." He waved his hand twards my mouth. "You'll get use to human food smells eventually. You'll be able to control your fangs as well."
I huffed and crossed my arms. "So we hope," I grumbled, tired and slightly annoyed. Gerard sent me a small smile and grabbed my hand.
"C'mon, that's enough for today." He pulled me off into the direction of the bedroom, and I happily obliged, following close at his heels.
We both quickly stripped down to our boxers, and I smiled softly as I caught Gerard peeking a couple of times in my direction. Soon after we both climbed into our shared bed. I crawled across the bed, closing the distance between us, and folded myself down into his arms, burying my face in his chest. I felt his arms wrap around me protectively and squeeze me softly.
My whole world had ceased and started today. I was a new person, a living dead person. I was no longer sure what was going to happen next, and I wasn't quite sure what I was doing at the moment.
All I knew was that I felt safe, warm, and happy in Gerard's arms. He made me who I am, and I'm glad for that. He made me feel loved and beautiful, and now I got to spend all eternity with him. I was even lucky enough that he wanted the same with me.
"I love you Gee," I whispered into the pale flesh of his chest. He squeezed me tighter for a second before loosening his grip once more.
"I love you too Frankenstein." I grinned at the nickname, before closing my eyes and patiently awaiting sleep to arrive. It didn't take long, and before I knew it I was off into the blackness of my dreams.

Notes

its saturday! you know what that means...update!
but hey I found out a way that I may be able to post more often. So i'll try doing that. hopefully I can get it fully figured out.
So I was laying in bed the other night when out of nowhere, BAM! Frerard fanfic idea! This idea is actually really exciting me and I can't wait to start writing it. Unfortunately with my schedule and this story I'm not going to be able to write it for awhile which is slightly disappointing. But anyway it's in my opinion a great idea and I can't wait to do it.
And that's all. Until next week (or sooner possibly)
BYE!