I get up, looking at Gerard's worn out body, slumped across the bed,
'That was amazing' I say, still panting a little,
He turns to look at me,
'I know' he smiles, also panting, trying to catch his breath,
'mind if i take a quick shower' I say, kissing Gerard on the cheek,
'no i dont mind' he says, getting under the covers, he's still naked and i like it.
I jump in the warm shower, the water bouncing off me, I wash my body and my hair, being careful not to get shampoo in my eyes, i hate that. I have a think about whats happened today, which makes me a little sad, but i just try and ignore it, hopefully tomorrow might be a bit better, im not hoping for anything though.
When i finish i get out the shower and wrap myself in a towel, I look at my face in the mirror, the bruising has faded slightly, but slightly isnt good enough, i wanted it gone. I get dressed and join Gee back in his bed, wrapping my arms around his naked body, he looks so beautiful lying there. He falls asleep so i get up and go to the kitchen, im gonna cook something nice for him, to take my mind off things, but there's just one problem, its his place and i hardly know where things are, i suppose ill have to guess.
An hour passes and im finally finished, i place two plates of cheesy fries on the table, its not the most extravagant meal ever but it will do, im not really the best cook.
I go to wake Gerard,
'Gee, Wake up' I whisper gently, shaking him,
'W-what....oh..hey' He smiles,
'Get dressed and come sit at the table' i say, leaving him too it,
I go and sit at the table, waiting for Gee, and a few minutes later he emerges from his room and walks over to the table,
'This is lovely' He smiles, sitting down beside me,
'I hope you like cheesy fries' I ask,
'I love them' He smiles, picking one up and raising it to his perfect little mouth,

We eat our food and then clean up. Then sit on the couch,

'So' I ask,
'Hows your day been?' I add,
'Well good and bad, its been eventful' He says,
'I know, school was shit, but now has just been perfect' I smile at Gerard, who's already smiling back at me,
'Im glad your my boyfriend Frankie, i couldn't have waited any longer, ive wanted you for a long fucking time'
'Aw Gee' I smile, blushing a little, He's so sweet!
'You okay about earlier?' he asks, now looking a little more serious,
'yeah i guess, i hope tomorrow aint as bad' I sigh, I did lie a little, i was still pretty shaken up, Ive never been sexually abused before,
'Hopefully its not, Frankie, Baby, im always here for you, i promise, all we need is each other'
That puts me at ease, hes right. I guess that as long as were happy it doesn't matter what others think.

It was finally time for me to go and i was getting a little upset, as i was still worrying about being abused earlier, for some reason, i was struggling to get it off my mind, i was worrying about it happening again on my way home,
'Um, Gee, would you mind walking me half way?' I ask,
'Sure Frankie' He smiles, though I could tell he was worrying about me a little,
We leave his apartment and finally get to the crossing by mine,
'I better go then Frankie' He sighs,
'Okay' I say, kissing him on his cheek,
'See you tomorrow' he smiles as he begins to walk home, leaving me to finish the journey home, alone.
It was getting pretty dark now and i was on my street, a few gangs passed by but diddnt notice me, i walk along the quiet street and reach the building where my apartment was, i walk in and find my apartment, im glad im home.
However Im pretty sad now im on my own, I cant stop worrying about earlier, why did it happen? who was it that did it? I begin to cry. I feel like i have a weight on my shoulders and i diddnt want to be carrying it. I sit down and place my face in my palms, struggling to come to terms with what happened. I walk to the bathroom and get out my only relief, pills...I know Gerard has told me not to take them unless i need them, but i diddnt care, i wanted to forget about it all so i reached for some sleeping pills, I guess sleeping will help me forget for a while.
I swallow some, about four or five, then i begin to get drowsy, i grab onto the sink, my vision becoming blurry and then black, i collapse onto the floor in a heap.

***TIME LAPSE***

I wake up the next day still on the bathroom floor, I feel drowsy, my phone buzzing in my pocket, I pull it out, my vision was still blurred so i struggled to make out the name, then i realised it was Gee, I answered it,
'H-hey' I stammer, my voice slurry,
'Frank, where are you? are you drunk?' He asks, i can hear the fear in his voice,
'I-I t-think i over s-slept' I say, My head beginning to hurt, i think i might have overdosed last night,
'Frankie, are you coming in?' He says,
'I-I...' I couldant finish my sentence because i collapsed backwards, dropping my phone and passing out again, shit, i think i shouldn't have took that many pills last night, the stated dose is one and ive took about five, shit..I regain consciousness a little and hear Gerard shouting down the phone,
'FRANK, IM COMING OVER, FRANK!' he shouts, and that's when i pass out again.
I must've been out a while when i wake up, confused and drowsy, i hear Gerard banging on the door, shouting,
'FRANK OPEN UP'
I tried to speak,
'G-gerard' but my voice was quiet and fading,
I grab onto the sink and pull myself up, using all of the little energy i have, i stagger to the door, twisting the key and then collapsing as Gerard bursts in, I black out.

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I wake up in a strange place, it wasn't my apartment, or Gees, I hear muffled sobs beside me, I turn my head, my vision blurred and make out what appears to be Gerard. I feel something strange then look down at my arm, tubes and needles poked out of it, I suddenly realised where i was, I jerked up screaming,
'GET THESE OFF ME, FUCK....' I grabbed at the tubes on my arm and started pulling at them,
'ARRRGG, SHIT' I scream as pain seared through them,
Gerard gets up and pushes me back down on the bed,
'FRANK, calm the fuck down!' He snaps, sobbing uncontrollably,
I tried to push him away and get back up, but it was no use, nurses and doctors rushed in to help, suddenly putting a needle in my arm, and injecting something in me,
'SHIT' I snap, I fucking hate needles.
'This will calm him down' I hear a nurse say to Gerard,
Then they leave.
In lay there, drifting in and out of conciousness, making out the muffled words of Gerard sobbing beside me,
'Frank, dont leave me, please, stay with me'
I try to speak, i open my mouth but nothing comes out apart from a quiet whisper,
'G-Gee'
He lifts his head and looks at me,
'Frankie, stay with me, i beg you, dont leave me'
I can feel tears coming from my eyes, wetting my face.
I hear another nurse come in, Gerard stands up, she turns her attention to him, and says something that made him cry harder,
'Weve looked at the blood test results and we know whats wrong' she says,
'What, what? tell me' He sobs,
'Overdose' She says,

Gerard sits back down next to me, his cries broke my already broken heart. what the fuck have i done.

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I wake up again, i keep drifting into a deep sleep then regaining conciousness, I turn too look at Gee, his eyes are red from crying and he's looking at me,
'Frank, why?' He begins to cry again,
'P-pain' I whimper,
'You could have called me frank, not overdose!' he cried,
'I-i diddnt w-want t-to seem w-weak' i stammered,
'weak about what?'
'B-being s-sexually abused, i c-cant forget, i..' and at this point i faded again, becoming slightly unconscious,
'FRANKIE' Gerard screamed, I felt him grab my cold hand,
'G-gee' I whispered, more tears began to exit my eyes,
I regain conciousness again,
'Frank, i thought you were okay, why diddnt you tell me?' I could see the hurt in his eyes,
'I-i c-couldn't, I t-took the p-pills to help m-me s-sleep' i stammered,
'Frank..I...just...' Gerard couldn't finish his sentence because he burst out into tears,
I drifted off again.

I woke up and saw Gerard, asleep in a chair, My head was hurting so much, I tried to reach out for him because he seemed so close, but i couldn't reach. I tried to speak,
'G-Gee' I whimpered,
I tried to get up, but i diddnt have the energy to do so i just slumped back down,
'G-Gee' I said again, this time raising my voice a little,
He lifted his head,
'FRANKIE' he shouted as he ran to my side,
'A-are you okay? Do you need anything?' he asked,
'n-no' i whispered,
He sat down next to me and took my hand, he kissed me on the cheek,
'Please don't leave me' He whispered.

Notes

I know its not long guys but ill probably add more later!
Hope you like it :3