Dear diary...

Frank's P.O.V.:
It was 4:37 am, I was sleeping on the couch. Alex and I had moved in back together but she refused to sleep in the same bed with me. She said she needed some time to get over the idea of me and Stephanie. Although I understood I had to be patient because I fucked up, my back was killing me. Last night I slept on a plane and now I'm alone in a couch. I stood up and walked towards our room. The door was half open, I walked around and saw she'd put away most of her stuff, mostly clothes.
She was asleep hugging a pillow, breathing heavily. Her tummy looked so adorable, she absolutely loved our daughter. During the day I heard her sing to her belly and having long conversations. I still couldn't believe how life has changed for me. Seven years ago I was a sad teenager doing pot and playing in venues that smelled like piss and cheap beer. Don't get me wrong, I loved that but now we played in arenas, I had a wife and would soon have a daughter.
I had to make up with the band, I missed my friends and family. My mother had spoken to Alex earlier. They spoke very often ever since she read about us thinking about filing for a divorce. I walked in the closet and got dressed to go out. I had to get my life back.
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Alex's P.O.V.:
I woke up the next morning and found an empty house. No notes or text messages, the car was gone. I didn't have too much time to worry about that, I supposed Frank had gone for a ride or something.
I had a very busy day ahead of myself, an interview and a meeting all happening in NYC. I took a shower and drove all the way to Manhattan. I had left a text message to Frank that I had gone out and that I'd be back by dinner time.
Ever since we got back from London and I had accepted to move in together again, things looked promising. I hadn't forgotten about the incident with Stephanie but my main interest was our daughter.
While in the shower I sang Emily by FFTL, I had been thinking of naming her like that. The song always touched a nerve inside me and it reminded me of the girl with purple hair I had seen in Warped Tour, were Frank and I met.
I arrive to NY after a long drive, my morning sickness was gone, I was feeling surprisingly well. While I walked in the radio studio I saw the interviewer was an sneaky British lady that had been recently been around. Luckily, I wouldn't be alone today, Sonny had come to talk about the album. She greeted us and explained quickly the modality of the show. Before I knew it, I was having my first radio interview.
"Hey guys, it's Chelsea and we're back in KROQ Radio with our special guests. Sonny Moore and Alex Myers from FFTL. How are you doing guys?"
"Thanks for having us, Chelsea. It's been a rather busy year but we're finally resting from touring non stop"
"So, guys, what's up with FFTL? Matt Good is gone?"
"Matt was feeling very ill. After having abandoned Warped tour he went to the doctor to get some tests done and they found out he had a serious problem on his knees. So he needs a break and we hope he'll be feeling better soon"
"So sorry for Matt, any who...Nathan's when Alex came in the picture right?"
I gulped, I wasn't very good at this... I put was my first time so I didn't want to fuck things up.
"Yes, indeed. I've known this guys since high school. I left Jersey and came here to NY to study art. I had just finished college and gotten my degree so I went back home and these guys gave me a call and before I knew it I was playing at Warped Tour"
"I heard you're an amazing guitar player, how was your first tour? Was it your first tour?"
"It was, I played in a band in college with Lynz Way from MSI but we only played around local bars. A few people did recognise me from there, I wasn't a fan of the spotlight. I've been playing guitar since I was 9"
"Spotlight huh? Besides experience you picked up a few things from Warped, am I right?"
"Yes. Poor eating habits."
"Oh god yes! Since she's the only girl, she has to stand with us eating junk food and lots of sugar. Although, we'd been trying to eat healthier. I started drinking light soda" said Sonny
"Hahaha, are you friends with any other bands?"
"Well, we've been touring with Senses Fail, Thursday, Taking Back Sunday, MyChem and Underoath. Whether you want it or not you start making friends. We're very close to every single one of those bands, they're great people to tour with" answered Sonny
"That's nice, besides that... I think your guitar player got a bit too close with one of them. How's Frank?"
Shit. I knew she was going there.
"Oh, he's great he's back in Jersey, we had matching tour dates with MCR so that was fun"
"Is it true you guys got married?"
"Haha... Yeah we did, we've been married for almost 8 months now"
"Woah, congrats! And you're expecting a baby from him?"
"Yes, I'm five months along the way, it's... Quite frightening I must say"
"So how is this going to work? Are you going to the studio soon? Any news or is a new record coming?"
"Well we can't say much yet but we'll definitely be around more. We've been on a break due to Max's health issues and Alex's pregnancy but we're ready. I guess we'll start touring in about 8 months or so"
"That's fast! Are you touring with the baby?"
"Hell yeah! I want the baby girl to be as awesome as Alex! I mean that little girl is part of the crew, we're definitely looking forward to it"
"So is it a girl?"
"Yes, it's a girl. We found out recently and as soon as I told the guys they had this mental picture of her being a performer like me or Frank. I really hope I can take her touring, I would miss her so much otherwise but performing is my greatest passion"
"Well guys, it's been great having you, good luck on your new projects. I hope to have you here soon again! Sonny would you like introducing our next song?"
"Thanks for being so cool, Chelsea. So this next song is Note To Self, hope you guys have a nice day"
The song started playing, we came out the booth to say goodbye to Chelsea. She started to touch my belly and ask me uncomfortable questions about labor and stuff. It wasn't exactly a pleasant conversation for any human being. Sonny and I left to our next order of the day, a meeting with our record label a few blocks away from the radio show. The entire ride we talked about how things were going to work in this new record and what direction it was going to take. The rest of the band, Travis and Derek, were already inside.
While in the meeting the producers were extremely excited about out new idea of a record. The sales on the last one were off the charts.
"So it's decided then, you guys will start recording in a month and tour will probably start in 6 months. Any questions?" Said one of the producers
"Yes, uhm will Alex be able to tour with us?" Asked Derek
"Well, we will provide all the facilities she'll need, so you guys will be getting a new bus and certainly more commodities"
"Okay then, it's decided. Let's sign and start writing some songs" I said while putting a hand on my belly
They all smiled at me but Derek, they passed the record contract around for us to sign it.
"Okay guys, this meeting is over. It's been great having you here, I'm very excited about the new record" said our manager while he left the room for us four to discuss
We talked for a while about the concept of the record itself and decided we had a month to come up with ideas and go to the studio with them.
"Guys... I wanted to tell you something"
"What is it Alex? Are you feeling okay?" Asked Travis
"Yes. Uhm first of all I'd like to thank you guys for being by my side through all this shit and the pregnancy. I will put my best into this record, I won't let you guys down"
"Oh no, you can't let us down... Again." Said Derek
"What's up with you, man? She never let us down"
"Oh really? I heard the interview. You're back with Frank right?"
"Yes, I was getting there but got interrupted by your rubbish"
"See, letting us down again! First it was Bert and the raping, you know I think you enticed him. You're a bitch! Your husband cheats on you and you still live with him. You're a dumb bitch"
"What? Derek, are you a father?"
"No, I wear a condom"
"Well, condom man, when you finally get a family you'll understand why I forgave Frank. I know he fucked up, I know it's wrong but I want my daughter to have a family. I want her to see that we're happy and love her"
"That isn't it, you're scared to be alone. You're scared because you know you're still the fat girl from high school that got beat by an abusive boyfriend. How's Erick, by the way?"
"Derek shut the fuck up! What's wrong with you?" Said Travis
"I don't want this dumb bitch with us, she messed things up. She might be good with guitars but she's so stupid he forgave a cheater. He's probably fucking someone else right now"
"You know guys... I don't need this. I'm going home, see you in the studio, okay? It's been lovely seeing you, I missed you so much. Call me if you need anything"
I grabbed my bag and walked towards the exit when I heard Derek screaming behind me.
"THATS IT RUN AWAY YOU UGLY DUMB BITCH. GO HAVE YOUR KIDS WITH A CHEA-"
I looked back and sonny was on top of him, he was punching him.
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Frank's P.O.V.:
I spent all morning at Gerard's house, we hand an emergency meeting with the entire band and finally got things back together. We heard Alex's interview in the morning, she did really good. Chelsea from KROQ was known for being a bitch with her guests and making them feel extremely uncomfortable. Fortunately, we haven't dealt with her yet. While I drove back home I heard my phone ringing.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Frank, it's Sonny"
"Hey, sup? How are things going?"
"Great. Look, Alex just left to Jersey. We had an interview with the record label. Everything was fine until Derek started calling her names and just bringing back shit from the past and... Well you. She might be very upset, could you please take care of her? I don't want her to do anything stupid, I tried calling her but she keeps hanging up on me. When she gets there could you please text me or call me?"
"Sure man, I will I was just getting home too"
"Iero, I wanted to tell you that both Travis and I respect her decision. I know you love her and this was just an awful mistake. I want the best for your daughter too, just please don't do this again, we've got you back"
"Thanks guys, I really appreciate it. I'll go home and wait for her"
"Okay, call me if you know something about her"
I thought this was all my fault. I assume Alex got in a fight with Derek because of us living together again. He was the first person supporting the divorce. I needed to make things up with her.
I paced around the house nervously for almost two hours, by dawn she was back. With teary eyes and a bag of Twizzlers she came inside.
"hey Frankie, where have you been?"
I remained silently and hugged her. I felt her tears wetting my shirt, "I'm sorry you have to take in all this shit for my mistakes. I love you. I love you so much"
She started to vanish and a doorbell rang in the background. I had fallen asleep in the living room. She wasn't home yet, I opened the door and found a police man in the entrance.
"Mr Iero?"
"Yes, it's me"
"We have news about your wife, she had a car crash near the exit of the Hudson River. Her car was found but her body is missing"
"What?! Is she dead?"
"Well according to our first observations we think she got kidnapped, there was no blood on the car. It was just a crash but we found this among her belongings. Could you check if anything is missing?"
He handed me Alex's bag, everything was inside: wallet, keys, phone.
"Everything's here officer"
"Look Mr. Iero, there have been witnesses that have seen her leave with this lady from the picture, do you recognise her?"
He handed me a file, it was Stephanie.

Notes

Hey guys, new chapter is up. I had written it a few days ago but my iPad got weird and deleted it. I hadn't had much time to update because I've been travelling around Europe.

Enjoy.

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