Dear diary...

We went into a diner, we walked for nearly an hour looking for a decent one and not so crowded. He ordered coffee and donuts, I ordered pancakes with some tea.
Climate in Chicago was weird, it was boiling hot during the day but at night it was freezing. While we waited for our order I studied him, he was a very handsome man. His hazel eyes and lips called my attention, he had a smirk that made me feel uncomfortable. His left arm was covered in tattoos, he had two on his neck. He wore red eyeshadow like Gerard. He was wearing black jeans with the torn knees and a military green shirt that read:
"I am a monster.
I am a monster.
I am a monster.
I am a monster.
I am a monster.
Hate me.
Destroy me."
I must've stared at him too long, he was gazing at me while smiling.
"I really am a monster. I was born in Halloween"
"Really? That's so rad, I was born in April... Such a dull month"
"How old are you?"
"22, you?"
"24, you went to school with Mikey right?"
"Yeah, we were best friends until I moved out..."
"I thought I saw you around Jersey, did you go to the band's first gigs?"
"Yeah, I was kinda dating Gerard that time, I remember seeing you live. You were with Pencey Prep"
"I left them to come with these freaks, they're like family. So... You're the one that left Gerard all icky and emo?"
"What?"
"He told me a girl left him, he wrote several songs about you. A few of them are in our first record"
"We didn't exactly date, I felt weird dating my best friend's older brother. We just liked each other, I was there for him always. I practically lived with the Way brothers for a while."
Our conversation was interrupted by the waiter with our food, he looked at us with disdain. I could understand where it came from, I was wearing heavy eyeliner. White skin, brown hair, pierced lip, tattooed wrist, skinny black jeans, black tank too with HATE written across it... I would've creeped out too.
Frank had a big bite of his donut, he had frosting on his nose and lip ring. He was obviously starving. I stood up, grabbed a napkin and wiped his mouth with a smile on my face.
"You had frosting all over your face"
He was shocked, he didn't move except for chewing.
"Uhm, thanks. I'm so fucking hungry, I barely get to eat at the bus. Guys are always touching my food and eating everything they find... Specially Gerard and Bob..."
As we ate, he told me about how he joined the band and how it had been really hard on the band that Gerard was a raging alcoholic.
"Do you think he's doing drugs?" I said while I had the last bite of my pancakes.
"I do, I think he's doing heroin. A few days ago we were hanging our with the guys from The Used... I heard they do heroin and coke, I don't hang out much with them because I feel a little uncomfortable by drugs and Bert. Gerard is always with them, that day he dropped his pants while performing... I don't know, I hope we don't turn out to be one of those bands in a VH1 special.."
"Nah, I don't think so... You guys are great. I love the energy you put on stage, make me wanna become a rock star..."
"Oh... Yeah... Why aren't you a rock star? You went to college right?"
"I did, I went to art school. I just... I don't know. I guess I was never brave enough to face touring life. I used to date someone... He didn't exactly change my life plan but I used to want a normal life before. Now that I'm with FFTL, temporarily, I recovered the sense of life and belonging."
He laughed, he was a great listener. He didn't wander off like many of the guys I met. I actually could see myself becoming friends with him.
We asked for coffee and donuts for Gerard and made our way to the bus.
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(Two days later)
It was the night before the last day of warped tour, we were finally in Jersey.
I was tired and worn out, I had to sleep in a bus with 7 other boys. We hardly even fit. Sometimes I shared bed with Sonny or Derek.
Everyone was asleep, I checked my phone and saw it was 1:54 am. I woke up, got off the bus and decided to take a walk.
Everyone was either sleeping or drunk. As I walked around the parking lot I could see what Frank talked about, the guys from The Used were high as fuck on one corner of the lot. They screamed random stuff at me but I decided to ignore them.
My eyesight was awful, i dreaded the fact I forgot my glasses in the bus because I couldn't really distinguish silhouettes from far away. I saw someone grabbing what seemed to be a whose, whoever it was he was kneeling down, he looked to be shirtless.
I walked towards him, it was Frank.
"Oh my god, Frank, what on earth are you doing?"
"Alex, sup?" He said while wetting himself with a small whose
"What are you doing?"
"I'm getting a shower, I can't be a single day without showering. I don't feel human"
I stood near him and watched him wash himself. He grabbed the whose and shoved it inside his shorts.
"This is the hard part, washing your ass and dick."
"Uh.. Well I couldn't tell, I never took a shower with a whose"
He looked at me with eager naughty eyes, "oh... Really?"
"Shit I shouldn't have said that..." I said as I took a step back.
"You're fucked!"
"IERO IF YOU FUCKING GET ME WET I'M REMOVING YOUR TESTICLES WITH MY TEETH. I'LL COOK THEM AND MAKE YOU FUCKING EAT THEM"
He laughed hysterically as he came closer to me with the whose inside his shorts, "come."
"NO, GET AWAY"
He grabbed my waist and wet from head to toe. I wasn't wearing a bra, just a white shirt with back shorts and converse.
"IERO I FUCKING HATE YOU. I'LL GET YOU. YOU'LL PAY FOR THIS"
He turned the water off and handed me his towel.
"Let's go to the bus, I'll get you dry clothes and give you some tea. Okay?"
"It better be some fucking good tea" I said while I dragged my wet self towards his bus.
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While I'm the bus I realised what Ray had said. It was very messy. It didn't smell too bad, FFTL's bus was worse.
Frank handed me a black hoodie and shorts, from the looks of them, they belonged to him. I was freezing and dreaded the fact to walk outside to my bus. While we sat around a small table drinking tea I saw him playing with my fingers.
"Frank... Uhm I was wondering... May I sleep here tonight? I mean, my bus sucks... It's really crowded and it's cold outside"
"Sure, no prob, Just text them and tell them you're here"
I grabbed my phone and texted Sonny, while I sent the text I saw it was 3:29 am.
"We should get some sleep, we both have gigs tomorrow", he said
"Yeah... I'm pretty tired. Where am I sleeping?"
He didn't answer, he showed me to his bunk.
"Hop in, I know it's not too fancy but it's really comfy"
While I was in I made myself comfortable, I saw Frank taking his shirt and pants off. Leaving himself in boxers.
"Where are you sleeping?"
"With you"
My eyes opened widely, I was okay with sleeping with guys. Like I said before in my bus I slept either with Sonny or Derek but I knew them... I barely knew Frank.
"Alex, chill, I don't bite... Hard"
I laughed uncomfortably but was too tired to bitch about it.
"As long as you don't touch my ass I'm fine" I said while looking him get in.
"I'll try" he said while laying next to me.
"Uh... Quick question, should we be facing each other or giving our backs to each other?"
He thought about it for a minute, "if I give my back you I think I'll fall. I think we should be facing each other or you give me your back"
I nodded silently, he turned the lights off.
We looked at each other, I didn't know where to put my hands.
"You can hug me if you feel uncomfortable, I'm okay by it. Besides... You're my guest"

Notes

Heeey! Second chapter's up. I feel inspired, I'm blocked with the other story but I'll update soon.
Hope it's not too crappy and you're enjoying this.

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