Dear diary...

Alex's P.O.V.:
My feet were about to get frostbite, it was a snowy day apparently. I was wrapped in a blanket with thigh high black socks, underwear and an oversized shirt that belonged to Frank. I didn't find him anywhere, the entire house was silent, I stood up and opened my phone. I had 36 missed calls from an unknown number.
As I made my way downstairs I tried to look for the radiator, I couldn't stand the cold weather. The house was pretty small so I couldn't get lost easily. I made my way into the living room, no one was there. I grabbed my phone and decided to call Frank, it sent me to voice mail; I called the rest of the guys and no one answered.
I walked into the kitchen and noticed everything had been moved. There were empty food trays Mrs. Iero left last night from christmas dinner. There weren't any gifts under the Christmas tree, just a plate of cookies and a glass of milk.
I went upstairs back again and put on some jeans, boots and a jacket.
There was something weird about the entire atmosphere around the place.
I walked downstairs back again and opened the front door to have a walk around the block in case the guys or Frank were near there.
I passed by several houses, looking at the snow pile up every second. Everything was too silent, I could only hear the sound of my boots crashing against the snow. I walked around the block two times but found nothing. I went inside the house due to the extreme weather conditions and prepared some tea. As I sat down, sipping on the hot beverage I couldn't help to remember what had happened last night as soon as I saw my finger. I got engaged to Frank last night but... Where was he? The ring apparently belonged to his grandmother, she brought it once she came to America from Italy. I had completely forgotten to tell my parents or friends about it, I was probably going to handle that later. As far as I was concerned, only Frank and his parents knew about it,
My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of someone shovelling snow in the backyard. I stood up and tried to look through the door, nothing. I grabbed a few knives and put them near my hips. I took a deep breath and made my way down the yard. I saw three hooded figures shovelling snow and dirt into a whole.
"Hello?"
The two people laughed and raised their heads.
"Who are you? What are you doing here?"
I couldn't seem to recognise them. One of them took a few steps closer.
"Alex?"
It was Gerard.
"Oh my god, Gerard, you totally freaked me out. What are you doing out here? It's freezing"
"Come"
He had a very vicious look on his face while he walked back to the hooded people.
I walked closer to the whole they had dug in Mrs. Iero's house.
At first, I couldn't distinguish what was in there.
"What did you guys do?"
"Just come closer, don't be such a pussy"
I looked at the silently and kept making my way one step at the time.
They laughed as I came close to the hole.
I couldn't believe what I was seeing, I felt really sick to my stomach I though I was going to faint.
"W... Why?"
"Well" said one of the hooded figures "you didn't let me fuck you right?"
"Alex, you'll be fine, weren't that close anyway"
I kneeled down in the snow and stared at the hole...
Pale face, visible wounds, dirt and snow all over the place.
"You guys are sick..."
"It's completely justified, little misfit" said the third hooded figure.
"Lynz? You did this?"
"Yup, I didn't like it at first but now that it's done I feel so much better"
"Why in earth would you do this? What's wrong with you?"
"When they don't give me what I want I have to find ways"
"Killing my fiancé wasn't the answer to it, Bert"
"Fiancé?"
"We got engaged last night you pieces of shit..."
"Alex... I'm sorry it's just we didn't like him"
"Yeah, he was a real sucker while in the band"
"Too bad for you, little misfit, you don't even qualify as a widow"
"You killed my baby, my soulmate, my entire life. You took everything we away from me..." I said as a gripped on snow and cried
"Calm down, Alex. I'm better than Iero now. Now that he's gone you'll say yes to me, right?"
"No... Fuck you, Bert"
"Oh sweetheart, you are so wrong, now I'm fucking you"
He pinned me to the floor and licked my neck. I started screaming and yelling while I watched Gerard and Lynz staring back at me giggling and laughing from time to time. I didn't really care anymore, I was probably going to kill myself in a few days. It's too much pain to handle, he was taking my pants off while kissing my face in a very aggressive way.


"ALEX! ALEX WAKE UP, ARE YOU OKAY? YOU'RE SWEATING AND SHAKING! ALEX PLEASE"
"Frankie?"
"Yes, babe? Are you okay?"
"Yeah... I was just having a nightmare,,, I though i lost you..."
"Honey, you never will lose me, I'm here for you"
I sat down and cried in his chest, the mere thought of him being killed or ceasing to exist had left me with the worst emotional pain I had ever experienced in my life. It was so real and harsh I could feel it growing in my chest.
" I love you" I said while I kissed his cheek and he gave me a worried look.

Notes

Finally got time to update, hope you're enjoying this.
im really tired right now, it's really late in my country,


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