I'm Not Okay

"Mom its fine." I said and tried moving away.

"No it's not, let me finish." She said and made me stay in my place and she got back to fixing my hair, I groaned out but let her finish.

"Okay Frank, your suit is all pressed and ready to wear!" Ray said coming into the room with my suit, I asked him to be my best man a few months ago and he gladly said yes.

"Do you think I should change now?" I asked as my mother finished my hair.

"Yeah, I don't see why not. We have another hour until this party gets started." He said and fixed his own suit.

"Okay, help me?" I asked and he nodded and started to help me get into my suit, it's not like I don't know how to put a suit on, I do by the way. I'm just really nervous, I'm about to get married for heaven’s sake. It's not like things between Gerard and I are really gonna change though, I mean we'll go on a honeymoon, but we're still going back to our house and raising our three kids together, the only thing that's really happening is we're getting a piece of paper. But it's still something to make me nervous about.

"Oh honey your dad just texted me, he's here and wants to meet the kids." My mom told me while she looked at her phone.

"Cool, the kids are with Gerard and his dad and brother; I'll take him down to meet the kids." I said and started to stand up from the chair.

"Oh no you don't." Ray said then pushed me back down in my chair. "You're mom will do that, you still need to do your makeup and finish getting ready."

"But I wanna see my babies." I pouted and crossed my arms.

"Then you can look at one of the thousands of pictures you have of them on your phone." Ray said then turned my chair so I was facing him, "I got to do your eyeliner now." He said then started to work on my face.

"I'm just going to take him to where Gerard and the kids are and I'll be right back, okay?" My mom said.

"Okay." I said without moving my face, I didn't want Ray to mess up. A few seconds later I heard the door shut and my mom was gone.

"So, I've been meaning to ask you guys, so how's going down the aisle going to work? Like is someone giving you two away?" He asked.

"My mom and dad are both going to walk me down, they're both going to give me a hug then take their seats. Gerard is going to be walked down by his father and Mikey are going to walk him down. He's going to be walked down first."

"Gerard's mom isn't going to walk him down?" Ray asked.

"Nope, she said walking kids down the aisle is for fathers and their daughters." I said and shrugged.

"Wow I knew she was bitchy but that's just low." He said.

"I know, I don't even want to know how much it took Donald to convince her to come to the wedding."

"Convince?" He asked.

“Yeah, convince. She doesn’t want Gerard and I to be together, or for us to have our kids, that much is obvious. Hell she won’t even sit in the front row with my parents or Donald; she said she’d rather sit in the back.

“That’s so fucked.” Ray said as he turned me around so I could see what he did to my face.

“Ray! I look amazing, thank you!” I thanked him as I leaned closer to the mirror and admired myself, not gonna lie, I looked pretty hot. I can’t wait for Gerard to see me, just another hour until the wedding.

“Anytime dude.” He said then fixed his suit a bit, “Alright, I’m going to go grab you something small to eat okay?”

“No thanks I’m good.” I tried.

“Dude I know you, when you’re nervous you don’t eat and we don’t want your stomach growling as you to say your vows.” He said then left the room. He was right though, besides the coffee I had this morning, I haven’t eaten anything. I’m so damn thankful for the great people I have in my life.

Notes

Yes guys, this is an actual update. I said "screw it" to my homework and typed this up for you guys, I hate making you guys wait. And thanks to everyone who wished me well when I was in the hospital and again I'm very sorry for making all of you guys wait so long for an update.Updates still wont be regular though so sorry in advance. But enjoy :D

Till next we meet my killjoys