Truth Be Told

*Frank’s P.O.V.*

It’s been over a week now. I haven’t seen him since he beat that kid. Leaving him bloody and broken because the kid hurt me. I had been afraid of Gerard at that moment. I mean who wouldn’t be scared of a guy holding down someone much bigger than himself beating the crap out of him. And the look in his eyes, empty and venomous. Once he was pulled away though and he saw me, his eyes soften with concerned. And now he’s in solitary confinement. I haven’t been eating much, no ones here reminding me to eat, so I don’t. Bob’s been yelling at me but, I really don’t care for his opinion. And Ray, well he just makes fun of me saying I miss my boyfriend. I do miss Gerard he was supposed to be here with me, to help me he promised. I mean it’s not his fault that he’s stuck in confinement. He should be coming out soon though.

Also since he’s not been here more people have been making fun of me and using me as punching bag. I just really can’t stand it anymore, Gerard needs to come out. I decided to ask Friedman when he was supposed to be able to leave. She just looked at me and told me that once he stopped, attacking the nurses and throwing stuff at the walls he’d be able to leave confinement. I ran from her, straight to my room. Gerard was purposely staying in solitary confinement. Why? He’s supposed to be there for me whenever I need him and he won’t help me.

I’ve convinced myself that he was lying to me the whole time. He had used me. He was probably only talking to me and hanging out with me as a joke. Let’s see if we can fuck with the kid that doesn’t speak or like to be touched! That should be great fun! Oh! While we are at it why don’t we just make the kid trust us, then get him to spill his guts so we can laugh at him behind his back! Sounds like a plan!

He should of never trusted Gerard or Ray or Bob. What the hell did they know? Gerard didn’t need me to help him. I needed him though. Or I thought I did. Fucking Bob and Ray! They should've just let him alone and not got him stuck in here. He was not meant to be here, he wasn’t mental.

I decided to just kill myself. Gerards never coming out of that room if I’m still here. He doesn’t like me, he just likes to be around me to laugh at me. You know what’s funny? I actually really liked him. No, I loved him, or was beginning to fall in love with him. I never thought I would ever be in love but here I was. And here he wasn’t. Gerard would never love him. Who would love a boy who had been ruined like he was. No one would. So this was the end for Frank. No one cared about him, so no one would stop him or miss him as he passed. His parents wouldn’t even know he was dead. They had disowned him. I was left with no one.

I decided the night it rained to do it. I went into my little bathroom and saw myself in the mirror. I was so pale, my cheeks sunken in and purple bruises under my eyes from not sleeping. The clothes I wore were too big on my frame. I took my shirt off exposing my clearly shown ribs and collar bones sticking out, with numerous bruises all over. I was basically a walking skeleton at this point. I got some pills that I hadn't taken that the nurses had been trying to get me to take, and swallowed them all, about 20 in total. Then I decided that if I was going to make sure I died I sliced my wrists open and watched as my life drained into the sink. Soon I began to feel dizzy so I layed on the floor crying. I would never be able to tell Gerard I loved him, or that he broke his promise face to face he’d just have to read my note. As everything started to go black around I saw Bob’s face. From what I could see he was saying something like “Oh God Frank! What did you do?” tears began to fall from his eyes. I assumed he tried to stop the bleeding but I was too far gone. As everything went black the last though I had was would Gerard even care that I killed myself?

Notes

Frankieeeee

I'm still sorry about letting you hang but, after the next chapter maybe all will be revealed? This story though might be coming to an end soon though. Thanks again for reading this far even though you probably hate me right now.