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Gerard's pov

Me and frank continued kissing like there was no tomorrow, grabbing each other's hair and pulling each other closer until frank was in my lap.

It was amazing to say the least, that is until the bell rang. We separated and looked at each other. Franks pupils were wide and his cheeks were red, I'm guessing I probably looked the same.

Out of everyone I've ever kissed it's never been like it was with frank right then. it wasn't as caring or loving as frank had made it.

"Gerard people are going to be coming in here soon." He said

"yeah.. Shit uhm do you wanna ditch and like talk?" I asked

frank smiled and laughed. "What's so funny?"

"I'd never thought I'd hear you say you wanted to talk." He said

"yeah well after that I think we should. So what do you say?" I asked

he nodded and stood up fixing his hair and patting it back into place. "wanna head down to razzy fresh?" He asked.

Razzy fresh was a frozen yogurt place I used to love, until I stopped eating. "Gerard?" Frank asked raising his eyebrow.

"Uhm yea sure lets go before the class comes in here to change." I said grabbing his arm and pulling him out of the locker room and outside through one of the many fire exits that the alarms didn't work on.

we walked almost silently to razzy until frank tried to start a casual conversation. "Whats your favorite fro-yo flavor?"

"Uhm probably just chocolate and vanilla mixed, you?"

"Birthday cake." He smiled as we walked in through the front door.

frank instantly went and grabbed a cup and began filling it all the way up with birthday cake flavored yogurt. Then he ran and began covering it in multiple toppings.

I didn't want to eat and I didn't want frank to notice but after he paid for his he noticed I was still standing there empty handed.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"I'm not hungry I ate a big lunch." I lied.

He sat down at a booth and pulled me with him making me sit across from him. "Hey dipshit I was with you in the locker room and no eating happened in there unless your talking about my lips." He joked and I blushed.

"But seriously don't tell me your not eating gerard you're so thin."

"Shut up I'm not."

"Uh yeah you are." he argued.

"Frank can we not fight about that right now. Plus I bet you have some questions for me while I'm talking."

"yeah I do have a lot of questions." He said

"okay go." I told him ready to answer.

"One why do you and mikey fight so much
two why do you have all those blades anyway
three what's going on with the shoots you do
four what's going on between us
and five, who's Bert?" He asked

i was kind of taken back that he had all of them listed and I didn't have any answers ready.

"Uhm me and mikey just don't get along, never have and when I came out it just got worse. Two because I'm not trying to quit cutting. Three it's my job and it's the easiest way for me to make money without needing to have my parents cash checks or anything and mikey will never find out about it. Four I'm not really sure what's between us but I'd like to find out." I said hoping that was enough for all his questions.

"You didn't answer the last one." He said
"who's Bert? Mikey told me some-"

"mikey doesn't know shit, and Bert's not important." I said harshly trying to get him to drop the subject.

"No I wanna know why whenever mikey says Bert you freak out." Frank said stubbornly.

"Frank."

"No excuses." He said "How about this, either you tell me about Bert or you have to eat a bowl of yogurt." He said smugly.

"That's not a fair trade." I told him. "Frank I'm just not comfortable talking about him okay." I said looking down at my lap feeling like I was going to cry.

"Okay I take it back I'll drop it, but can we go back to another question?" Frank asked softly like if he said something wrong I'd crack.

I nodded and frank began speaking. "Us. What's going on with us."

"Well we kissed and I liked it." I told him honestly.

"I did too...does that mean anything more..." He trailed off.

"Frank if your talking about a relationship I don't think it's a good idea. Mikey would kill me and hate you, and I doubt you'd be able to date me knowing I take dirty pornographic photos with other men for a living."

"Can't you stop?" He asked like it was the simplest thing ever.

"I could but then id have no money and if I'm not monitoring my pictures then they'll end up everywhere." I told him
"it's just I have to complicated of a life for a relationship."

"I could deal with it." Frank persisted. "I mean could we at least try?"

"Frank it won't work" I told him honestly. I had feelings for frank but in reality it was just going to blow up in our faces if we even tried dating.

"that's bullshit." Frank said angrily. "Does you not wanting to have a relationship have anything to do with Bert?"

"Frank I said drop it."

"So it does have something to do with him. What is it like a trust issue, because gerard I'd love to try and at least become close friends and maybe more." he said hopefully.

"Frank it won't work." I said harshly.

"Why not?"

"Because."

"So you're telling me you won't even give it a shot?" Frank asked.

"I'm sorry but no." I said

"Gerard you cant just-"

"I have to leave." I lied standing up and walking out of the store ignoring the confused and hurt looking frank now sitting in the booth alone.

Notes

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