The Light Behind Your Eyes

"WHAT?!" Gerard screeched causing everyone to look up once again. He smiled quickly before looking down to me, "You want me to do what!?" He asked a little more quietly to not cause anymore attention he already has. "I'm telling the truth Gee." He pinched the bridge of his nose and let out a long sigh. "Hey, I'm not the one pregnant here!" He said. "Well it is your fault I'm pregnant!" "Well I'm not harming anyone by doing this. I mean I need drugs and booze to be the Gerard on stage. And it's not like I'm gonna be carrying the baby!!" I gasped and crossed my arms, "Well you're gonna be a parent! You expect us me to take care of it alone!? I'm 26, Gerard, not 40. I don't know these things." "I'm not quitting Rain. No way, no how." I just scoffed and stated, "Fine. Then I'll just raise it alone. I don't need you. Goodbye Gerard. After this tour, I will be gone forever." I turned on my heel before walking off. "You don't mean that Rain! RAIN!!!

Come back!!" I heard him call. I let a few tears slip out of my tear ducts and tried not to run back into his arms. I entered the bus and cried my eyes out. "Rain? Rain?!" I could hear Frank's voice call my name. I dabbed my eyes quickly but it was too late. The curtain had opened and Frank stood there in makeup and costume. "Oh Sunshine." He whined before sitting down and hugging me. "He's just too blind to see that you need him. He'll come around!" He said lightly trying to make me nod and agree. I didn't, "I'm leaving tonight Frank. This is the last of us." I whispered. "No," he started his eyes going wide, "No Rain it say that! Stay the rest of tour. Show him that you need him. You love each other!" He pleaded. I knew he was trying to get me to stay. It was not working. "Fine I'll stay." I lied. He smiled and stood.

"You coming to the show?" He asked. I shrugged, "Why not?! I mean it's not like my ex is there! And might I add, drunk." I spat. He glared and warned, "Stop." I looked down before following him to the venue. I watched as they ran on stage and started to play. Gerard jumping around and singing his heart out. Everyone wasn't looking my way so here was my chance. I looked around before biting my lip and sneaking away. I ran back to the bus and packed my bags. I sighed and put the necklace he gave me to show how much he loved me and so I would always be with him on Gerard's bunk before taking my bags and running for it. I took cab by cab until I made it to my destination at five in the morning. I put my bags down, then knocked on the door. I bit my lip and looked to my shoes. How did my life end like this?

Pregnant.

Alone.

Broken.

Depressed.

And separated from the one man that would fix it yet, he was the cause. I broke down and heard footsteps. I smiled slightly before the door opened. Pete stood in shock at me. Yeah, I haven't visited him for about a year. "Hi." I waved. He searched my eyes. And he saw the pain in the tears. He looked down at my neck to see the necklace was gone. He saw the bags and my small bump. His eyes softened and he pulled my into his chest. Sure he wasn't a morning person but when his baby sister that he vowed to take care of for life comes knocking on his door at five o'clock in the morning, mascara running down her cheeks and a baby bump when she's supposed to be on tour with her boyfriend, he's there. He's always there. "I'm so sorry Sunshine." He murmured. He grabbed my bags and led my in by arm.

"Babe? Who is this?" A soft feminine voice asked alarmed. I'm guessing it's Meagan. She was skinny with short light brown blondish and black hair and a models face. "Meagan honey, this is Rain. My baby sister." Meagan nodded but looked at me, "Is she alright?" She asked worriedly. It made me feel a bit good. A stranger who I just met, worried. "She just broke up with her longtime boyfriend." She snapped, "You're dating Gerard Way? He always posts things showing how much he loves you on Twitter and everything." "Was" I whispered. "Oh, oh! I'm so sorry!" She gasped. I shrugged and her eyes landed on my bump. "I'll uh make the guest room up. Make yourself at home." She whispered before running upstairs. Pete handed me coffee and I drank it.

But when I did, the smell reminded me of Gerard, causing me to burst into tears. "He'd rather have drugs than me and a kid!" I sobbed as Pete pulled me close. "It's okay." He murmured. "The guest room is made up c'mon Rain." Meagan said softly before taking my hand and leading me upstairs. She entered a huge room and I walked in behind her. "If you need anything, and I mean anything, were here." She said sincerely. I turned to her, tears forming again. "Thank you so much Meagan." I whispered. She hugged me tightly before shutting the door and leaving. I dug though my bag and found what I was looking for. I stripped into my panties and bra before sliding the shirt on. I was overwhelmed by the scent of coffee, mint, cigarettes, and cologne. Gerard's oversized shirt. I slid into bed and closed my eyes. Trying not to cry.

Gerard's POV

I watched her run off and I tried to call for her. I dropped to my knees. Had she just broken up with me after delivering the news that i was a father?! Well I did just say I'd rather prefer drugs. Tears escaped my eyes as I closed them. How could it end so quickly and just like that?

It was later and almost time for the show. I rimmed my eyes with the makeup and tied my tie before drenching myself in the fake blood. I rubbed my eyes and went backstage. And that's when I saw her. She had mascara under her eyes indicating she had been crying. She just looked so beautiful. I was gonna go for her when Brian pushed me back and said, "Showtime." I groaned and ran onto stage. I didn't want to sing. I wanted Rain. "Run for her after the show man."Frank whispered as he tuned his guitar. I nodded and prayed for this to hurry. Luckily the show did end quickly and I ran off stage calling Rain's name. I stopped Missy, "Where's Rain!?" I asked shaking her. "I- I don't know! She was here before the show. Now she's gone." She informed in shock. "Fuck!" I hissed before running away and to the bus. I barged in and searched the bathrooms.

"Rain??!! RAIN!!!" I called. I opened the curtain to our bunk. I looked under the bed. Her bags were gone. I stood back up and notice a glisten on the bed. I picked it up. It was the Infinity necklace I had bought her. It showed our love was infinite (cheesy I know). "No. No. No." I said clutching it. She can't be gone. No. "NO!!!!!!!!" I screeched throwing the necklace onto the bed and collapsing onto the ground in tears. "Noooooooo!!!" Was the only word that managed to come out of my mouth. The door opened and everyone ran in. I sobbed louder. She can't be gone!!!! I pounded my fists into the ground harshly screaming. Frank and Bob sat me in bed and laid me down. I sobbed and sobbed. I pulled my phone out shakily and scrolled through my folders. I stopped at the one labeled Rain. I clicked on it and clicked on the first picture ever taken of her.

It was her and I. I was kissing her cheek as she looked at the camera with a huge teeth- showing smile her bright hazel green eyes sparkling. I would do anything to see them again. And kiss her cheek. I scrolled to the next one. It was taken by Missy who though it was adorable. It was of her and I sitting in a booth with everyone but her and I were looking into each other's eyes smiling widely. Another was of her and I feeding each other strawberries. I scrolled through so many. From cheek kisses to nose touches. From hugs to smiles and teeth showing. I miss her. So fucking much. I'm such an idiot. I went on Instagram to see I was tagged in a fans post.

As was Rain. It must have been one they taken. The caption read, "Saw MCR tonight. I couldn't help but notice Rain had been upset. I've been to every show this tour. Every time I saw her, she had a huge smile on her face. But now she was crying and I saw her run away during I'm Not Okay. Read my Tumblr post to why I think they broke up." Shit! How did this happen so fast. I clicked on the link of the Tumblr post. It explained that she changed her profile picture to her and Pete from before I have her the necklace. Other shit was there. I sighed the wiped my eyes. Then before sleeping I told myself, Gerard way you are one big idiot.

Rain's POV

"Rain you've been in bed for the past week eating and crying. Please come out." Pete pleaded knocking. "I won't." I whispered even though he couldn't hear me. I logged into Twitter finally able to move and so many notifications popped up. Fans have tweeted me stuff about me not tweeting and same to Gerard. They even asked for a selfie Friday post. The fans loved it. Because Gerard and I posted either selfies if us, or a decent selfie of ourselves and the other photo bombing. I sighed and took a selfie. I wrote, "Here's your selfie Friday. Not doing well." That's when Gerard posted. It was of a selfie of him in his makeup and costume and blood and he tried to smile.

Everyone wanted to know why we weren't photo bombing or taking one together. For some reason and girl found out and posted that I was pregnant and we broke up. Which caused me to sob again. "Rain." Pete whined. I heard the door knob. Then it stopped. "Just go in I have the key here." My heart froze. Please tell me Gerard didn't come for me. Okay...I wanted him to. The door opened and I didn't look up. That's when a familiar and soft voice said,



"Hey Sunshine, how you holding up?"

Notes

Sorry if there is mistakes. Sorry for breaking them up lol. But soon my Killjoys, soon. Things will look up. Trust me. So uh, there you go. I'm going to keep trying and not quit. I know ir sucks but I'm trying guys, I really am. So comment, rate, subscraibe all that shit. Thoughts? Who is the voice?! Who came to visit?! Who do you want it to be?!