You're Beautiful To Me

Ryan and I break apart, Ryan quickly sliding off the bed as we both look over to see Mikey standing with his hand still on the door handle, his mouth wide open. "What's going on in here?" Mikey asks in a frighteningly calm voice and Ryan looks back at me and says "I should go, I'm sorry" before rushing towards the door, Mikey stepping aside to let him out. Once we're alone in the room Mikey closes the door and slowly walks over to me, my heart pounding harder with every step he takes and when he reaches the bed he remains standing and says "What the hell Gee? What were you doing?" I feel my bottom lip tremble, my eyes welling with tears as I choke out "Frank and I just had a fight and Ryan kissed me by accident and I just....it felt so right, like when Frank and I first got together." "You had a fight? What about?" Mikey asks and I sigh softly in relief, knowing he's not holding it against me. "This will make you laugh, he accused me of cheating on him with Ryan." "Oh Gee" Mikey sighs as he sits down, reaching out to take my hand. "What is he even doing still hanging around?" Mikey asks and I swallow hard before saying "He's crashing, he lost the love of his life and he's all alone. I'm just trying to be a friend and help." "But Gee you don't even know him." "I know but.....his boyfriend died to save my life, I feel like I owe it to him to make sure Ryan is ok." Mikey nods, not questioning me anymore and we fall into a comfortable silence for a minute before Mikey breaks it to ask "Do you have feelings for him?" "I didn't think so, but his kiss gave me butterflies" I answer honestly and Mikey lets out a loud drawn out breath. "Fuck Gee, what are you going to do?" "Do about what?" Franks voice asks and we both glance up to see him coming through the door, my face going pale as Mikey says "Oh just different treatment options with his medication that the doctor was talking about." "Oh ok" Frank says, smiling softly at me and I turn my head, mouthing thank you at Mikey.


Mikey stays for a little while longer, my mom looking after Anna and Miles and after he leaves Frank climbs up on the bed with me, me shifting over to give him room and he snuggles under the blanket with me, pulling me against his chest. "Baby I know I over reacted before and I just want to say I'm sorry. I love you so so much and I didn't mean to upset you, I just....I got scared but I know you love me and..." "I kissed him" I blurt out, unable to stand the guilt bubbling in my stomach as he apologises. "What?" "After you left before, he woke up and while he was still half asleep he thought I was his boyfriend he kissed me and after that we kissed again." Franks face freezes in shock, our gazes locked and I wait for him to explode but he swallows hard, his eyes slipping closed for a few seconds before he opens them again and instead of anger all I can see in them is hurt. "You kissed him" he says softly and I lower my gaze, nodding slightly and Frank cups his hand under my chin, tilting my head back up and once we're looking at each other again he says "Did you like it?" I shrug, unable to form words, still waiting for Frank to snap and start yelling but he just softly says "Was he better than me?" "No" I say softly and Franks eyes flicker from my eyes down to my lips and back again. "Do you want to be with him?" I shake my head, knowing that I don't feel for Ryan that way and Franks lips twitch up in a small smile as he leans in closer to me, our noses just brushing as he pauses and says "Gerard you're the love of my life and I'm not letting you go" before closing the gap between us and as his lips touch mine my heart starts to race and I press forward, deepening the kiss as I slide my tongue into his mouth. We make out heatedly for a few minutes before Frank guides me over onto my back, climbing over me and pressing me back into the mattress as we continue to kiss, my heart racing and as I turn my head away to gasp for air Frank trails his lips down to suck and bite at my neck, pulling a needy gasp from my lips. "Mine, you're mine" he growls out softly as he marks my skin, trailing his lips down further to work on another mark and I shift slightly beneath him, my leg brushing against his hard on in his jeans causing him to groan against my skin and buck his hips down, seeking more pressure. Frank pulls back from my neck, his face hovering just over mine as he smiles down at me, me still panting into his mouth, unable to catch my breath fully yet and he says "Wanna fuck you so bad baby." "Can't, Frankie I can't....can't breathe" I wheeze out, starting to feel slightly dizzy from the lack of oxygen and Franks face pales as he sits back over my lap, his hands coming down to gently cup my cheeks as he says "Shhh baby it's alright, just stay calm, you're gonna be ok I promise. Do you want me to get a doctor?" I nod, unable to speak as I continue trying to catch my breath and Frank climbs off the bed, making his way over to the door and slipping out of the room, coming back with a nurse a few seconds later. "It's alright hun, you're gonna be just fine" the nurse assures me as she hooks me up to some oxygen, fitting the mask over my face as she fiddles around and a few seconds later I find it a little easier to breathe. "Better hun?" She asks and I nod, offering her a weak smile and she smiles back as she says "I'll leave it on for a little while, just try and stay calm and I'll be back soon." After the nurse leaves Frank sits beside the bed again, taking one of my hands between both of his as he says "Oh baby I'm so sorry, I know I got carried away and...." "Wanted it" I pant out, my voice slightly muffled by the mask. "You did?" Frank asks, a hopeful smile on his face and I nod, smiling back as I say "Want you to fuck me too, but the doctor said we can't for a few weeks."

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