You're Beautiful To Me

The next day Frank goes to work and I am bored out of my mind and I decide I need to get out so I load Anna into the car and head off for the magazines office. Once I walk in all the receptionists crowd around and coo at Anna which unfortunately wakes her and she starts to scream and cry. I lean down to pick her up and as I'm straightening up a sharp pain rips through my lower stomach and I try to shrug it off, more focused on making Anna stop crying. Once she's settled back down and her little eyes have fluttered shut I put her back in her pram and as I stand up again one of the receptionists gasps and says "Gerard oh my god" and when I look down I see the bottom of my shirt is blood soaked and when I lift it up I see my stomach is bleeding and I've torn some of the stitches. I try to remain calm but inside I'm panicking and the receptionist says "I'll take you to the hospital." I nod frantically as I hand her my keys and once we're all in the car she starts driving. I pull out my phone and dial the number for the bar, Ray answering. "Ray, it's Gee." "Gee are you ok? You sound..." "I'm on my way to the hospital, I've torn my stitches, please tell Frank to get over here" I plead before hanging up and as soon as the receptionist pulls up at the emergency department she runs inside and comes back with a nurse pushing a wheelchair. "Easy Mr. Iero" the nurse tells me as they help me from the car and into the wheelchair. The nurse starts to push me away from the car and I start to panic. "No, Annabelle...." "It's alright Gerard I'll bring her, she'll be alright" the receptionist assures
me and I nod. Once I'm in the hospital I'm taken to an exam room and helped onto the bed. A doctor comes in to assist the nurse and once they clean all the blood off he fixes my stitches and says "Mr Iero, you need to be taking it carefully. You could do serious damage to youself if you don't. Now I'm going to order you another weeks rest and you need to stick to it." I nod and he says "Ok, so I'll just give you a quick check up while we're here. Any other issues before we continue?" "Is it really unsafe for me to have sex?" I ask and the doctor chuckles as he says "At this stage I guess not but you need to listen to your body in regards to positions and I strongly advise you use protection. I don't think your body could handle another pregnancy this early." I nod and don't say anything else and the doctor pokes and prods me before telling me to get on the scales. I bite my lip as I step on, worried about what my weight will be. "Well Mr Iero your current weight is 109 pounds. This is quite alarming Gerard, have you been eating?" I don't answer and the doctor says "Gerard I know you have a history with anorexia but I strongly urge you to seek help, for the sake of your new baby. She needs you strong and healthy." I nod, my gaze on the floor as I take in his words but I'm secretly excited that I'm slimming down again. After the doctors lecture I go back into the waiting room to find Frank and the receptionist sitting there with Anna and Frank launches himself out of his chair and marches towards me saying "You fucking idiot, you went back to work? Why would you even leave the house? You're meant to be resting and taking it easy, are you trying to fucking kill me with worry?" Before taking my face in his hands and smashing his lips to mine. I kiss back immediately, my arms wrapping around his neck as his hands slide down my sides and rest on my hips and the kiss turns a little heated before we both pull away panting. "I'm sorry" I pant against his lips and he gently rubs his nose against mine as he says "I love you so much and it would really kill me if anything happened to you." I lean in and kiss him again before we break apart and Frank says "Come on, I'll take you home." We all head out to my car and after we drop the receptionist back at the office we head home and Frank gives Anna a bottle and changes her diaper while I shower and change.

When I come back out from the bathroom Frank is laying on the couch with Anna on his chest, watching tv and I sit in the recliner across the room and lay back, turning my head to look at the tv and before long I drift off to sleep again. I wake up to a wet warm sensation on my stomach and when I open my eyes Frank has my shirt pulled up, pressing soft open mouthed kisses up my body. "Mmm hey baby" I groan out and he pulls back and smiles weakly before saying "Baby I wanna ask you something and I don't want it to start a fight, I just want to know." I swallow hard knowing exactly what's coming. "How much do you weigh right now?" "109" I tell him and he huffs out a breath as he says "Babe, please" and a few tears roll down his face. I feel my own bottom lip quiver at the sight of him crying because of me yet again. "I hate being fat Frankie" I tell him as I start to cry and Franks hands come up to cup my face. "Baby you are so far under weight right now. I need you around, forever and if you keep going we might not get our forever. Please, please, for me and for Anna, please try." I nod, even though I have no intention to gain any weight and Frank leans in to kiss me. "Will you see Dr Saporta?" I bite my lip and shrug but the desperate look in his eyes makes me nod instead and he smiles and says "I'll make you an appointment."

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