You're Beautiful To Me

When I wake up again Frank is gone and I'm alone in the room. I slowly drag myself out of bed and pull on pyjama pants before I walk out into the living room to see Frank and Mikey on the couch, Anna in Mikey's lap and neither of them see me so I hear their conversation. "He completely freaked out, like I haven't seen him that bad in a long time. He kept telling me about all this fat and all these marks that I think he truly believed were there and....like he was hallucinating or something and I'm so fucking stressed out and worried about him when we're not together." I step back into the hallway and hang my head, tears burning my eyes that I'm putting Frank through this. "I dunno what to do anymore Mikes." "I don't think there's much we can do Frank, really we just need to keep supporting him through this and pray that he pulls through." "How did this start? He never wants to talk about high school and I know that's when this started, but he won't tell me why." I feel my breath get stuck in my throat as panic floods through me that Mikey's going to tell. "It's really not my place to tell Frank." "Mikey come on, I'm his husband, I think I deserve to know why the love of my life is so damaged, it's not like it could scare me off." I hear Mikey sigh and he says "You're right. When Gee was fourteen he met this guy and he wasn't even in high school anymore, he was like twenty and a total fucking scum bag and he got Gee into drinking and drugs and..." "I FUCKING TRUSTED YOU" I scream at Mikey as I walk into the room and they both stare at me, shocked and I run across to the other side of the room, grabbing my keys and wallet off the table beside the door as I leave the house, running towards my car, not caring that I'm in pyjamas and have no shoes on. "Gee" I hear Frank call as he runs after me but I make it to the car and get in, locking the door behind me and starting it, putting it in drive and driving off, watching him through the tears falling from my eyes in the rear view mirror.

I drive around for a while, slowly regaining control of myself and I don't know where to go so I pull over, turning the car off and shivering in the sudden loss of the heat. I look around and realise I probably shouldn't have stopped in this neighbourhood so I quickly start the car again and start driving towards the only person in the world I want right now. By the time I'm halfway there I'm crying again, feeling so broken and betrayed by my best friend/brother. Frank will never look at me the same ever again now that he knows and in that brief moment I hate Mikey for the first time in my life for ruining everything I worked so hard to get. I drive for almost an hour until I pull up at the very familiar house and get out, stumbling up the path to the front door, knocking twice before I hear shuffling inside and the door slowly opens, revealing the person I so desperately need comfort from right now. She opens her mouth to speak, looking shocked and a little scared at my appearance and I launch myself forward into her open arms. "Mommy" I sob as she wraps her arms around me and I bury my face in her neck, breathing in her familiar comforting scent and I remember a time when she could make everything better with a simple cuddle and kiss to the forehead and I wish it could still be that way. "It's alright baby, whatever it is, we'll fix it" she says soothingly and I cling tighter to her, my hands clenched into fists in the back of her shirt.

Notes

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