You're Beautiful To Me

After I manage to settle Miles down a bit we all make our way inside, his hand clutched in mine while his other clings to one of Franks hands. We enter the building and Frank goes to the receptionist, giving her our name while the rest of us take a seat, Miles sitting in my lap until a young looking woman steps out and calls us in, all of us moving into her office and settling on the two couches in there. The session is tough, Frank and I reluctant to talk about how we're really feeling in front of the kids and Miles getting choked up, crying and refusing to speak. Mikey remains quiet, only offering comment when asked a direct question while Anna seems much more open, talking about how she doesn't understand why everything is such a big deal and I smile over at her, proud of how she's handling everything. When the session comes to an end the therapist tells us she would like to see us on a weekly basis, also wanting to see Miles one on one for a few sessions too and we tell her we will have to discuss it first, booking another family session for the following week before leaving again. The drive home is silent, everyone tense and lost in their own thoughts and by the time we get home it's driving me insane. "Come on guys, everything's fine" I announce as Frank turns the corner onto our street. No one offers anything in response and when Frank finally stops the car Anna and Miles climb out without a word, walking up to the front door and waiting to be let in. I remain in my seat, Frank and Mikey leaving the car and I feel my bottom lip quiver, my eyes welling with tears and the next thing I know the door beside me opens and small hands are tugging at my arm. "I'm sorry daddy" I hear being sobbed out as I turn my head to see Miles standing there with tears streaming down his cheeks again and I unbuckle my seatbelt and quickly turn to sit sideways with my legs hanging out of the car, my hands reaching for him and I pull him up into my lap, his legs straddling me as I crush him to my chest. "No baby it's ok" I whisper in his ear as I bury my face in his hair and we hold each other as we both shed some tears.

When we finally calm down I stand up, my arms wrapped around Miles holding him to my chest still as I kick the door shut and start walking towards the house, looking up and seeing Frank standing by the open front door waiting for us, concern written all over his face. When we reach Frank he reaches out and wraps his arms around me, Miles squished between our chests and he leans back, pulling his face from my neck to lean against Frank and Frank plants a soft kiss to the side of his head. "You guys ok?" Frank asks softly and I nod, glancing over to Miles' face and he nods too so I send him a small smile which he returns. After we go inside I put Miles down and he wanders off into his bedroom and as I head towards the kitchen, planning on going to make dinner Franks arms snake around my waist and I turn back to face him, his arms tightening around me and pulling me closer to him. "Baby" he starts softly but we're interrupted by Mikey stepping out of the living room into the hallway with us. "Hey guys, I think I better get going" he tells us and we nod, pulling apart so I can give him a hug goodbye and once he's gone Frank pulls me back into his arms. "Babe what can I do? This stress is not good for you and I can't stand seeing you so upset." "I don't know, I just...." I trail off, unable to finish my sentence but Frank nods in understanding before leaning in and pressing a soft kiss to my lips and I kiss back before he pulls away and offers me a smile which I return. "I love you" Frank tells me and I lean in and bury my face in his neck as I say "I love you too." Frank continues to hold me for a few minutes, his hand gently stroking up and down my back as the other stays securely around my waist before we pull apart and he says "How about we order takeout and just relax for the night?" I nod, another smile spreading across my lips as I say "I'll go get the kids and see what they feel like."

Notes

So....hi *waves awkwardly at anyone still reading this*