You're Beautiful To Me

A week later I am better again and Frank has band practice which he has been brushing off to take care of me and I tell him to go but when I wake up that morning I feel truly terrible and I burst into tears over nothing at all. "Baby what's wrong?" Frank asks softly and I launch myself into his arms as I say "You're gonna go to practice and not come back." "Why wouldn't I come back baby?" He asks as he wraps his arms around me and holds me to him. "You'll see someone prettier and skinnier with less issues and you'll run away with them" I sob into his neck and he sighs before saying "Baby that's stupid. There's no one prettier than you and you're not fat baby, I promise you. And I love you baby, not anyone else, I would never not come back to you." I continue to cry into his neck, feeling irrationally insecure and scared and he brings one hand up to gently stroke the back of my hair. "Baby baby baby it's alright, I promise you I won't leave you" he tells me softly and my tears slow until I'm just sniffling against his soaking wet skin. "Oh my Gee baby" he croons into my ear as he keeps holding me close, pressing soft kisses in my hair. I slowly unclench my hands from the back of his shirt and stand up straight, going to step back but Frank cups my face in his hands and keeps me where I am as he gently wipes
my cheeks dry. "I love you, so much" he tells me as he stares into my eyes and I sniffle again as I say "Really?" "Yeah baby, look" he says as he takes one of my hands and gently pulls it up to lay against his chest, his hand laying over the top and holding it there. "You feel that?" I nod and he says "It's only beating for you. It would have no reason to beat if you weren't around." I sniffle again as a small smile spreads across my face and I lean forward again, resting my head against his shoulder with my eyes closed as I keep my hand pressed over his heart.

When we finally pull apart Frank starts to get ready to leave before coming into the living room and saying "You wanna come with me?" "Really?" I ask, feeling myself getting upset again at the thought of him leaving. "Yeah babe, come on, you go put some warm clothes on cause it's freezing outside and I'll get Anna ready." I nod before getting off the couch and going into the bedroom, pulling on jeans and one of Franks sweaters, pulling on my boots and a scarf before making my way back out and when Frank sees me he smiles and says "You look so hot when you wear my clothes." I feel my face heat up and Frank chuckles as he ushers me out the door, putting Anna in his car while I climb into the front seat. Once we're all buckled in Frank drives us to the practice space and we rush inside, desperate to get out of the cold. "Hey guys" the rest of the band greet us and they all crowd around cooing at Anna and taking turns having a cuddle while I sit on the couch, exhausted from the effort of the small walk between the car and here. We settle Anna down in her portable car seat again while the guys begin to fool around and play and I sit back and close my eyes feeling my chest grow tighter and tighter until I feel like I can't breathe anymore and I choke out "Fffrankie" as I clutch my chest and wheeze for air. I vaguely register the guys crowding around me and Anna screaming but everything goes dark and the last thing I remember seeing is Franks crying face.

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