break my will to fly or love

"yeah, I understand, ye- no I'll pay for child support next month" gerard was on the phone with some and I listened from the other phone.
"gerard, its time you man up and come back for her" a women's voice ringed through my head
"I gotta go, my boyfriend is coming over soon"
"you already got over me! and now you are gay! what the f-" she was cut off by gerard smashing his phone
"gee?" I whispered as I walked into gerard's room
"fwankie, did you hear that?" he looked at me with a scared look
"who is she?" I started to cry
"don't cry" he stepped closer to me but I ran downstairs and got lost on the second floor.
"frank, she isn't- isn't arg! kid you piss me off, get back here" he yelled from the third floor
"I knew it! you didn't like me, you were just fuckin with me, asshole"
"no, Frankie I did love you"
"did?!"
"no agh! I met I did love her" I felt a arm pull me into a hug but I pulled away.
"you are killing me, kid"
"I swear to god that if you continue to call me kid, I will rip your throat out"
"woah that turns me on"
"just leave alone" I finally freed myself from his grip and got out of the house
"see ya at school tomorrow?" his voice was wavy, he does care about me
"give me two reasons why I should stay here with you?" I pushed him against the wall. "I am so sick of people like you"
"like me?"
"makes something go so fast that they can't see out there life flash before their eyes"
"one I am so sorry and two its weird that I need your air to keep me alive"
"who is she?"
"a mistake that I got pregnant"
"oh?" I cocked an eyebrow
"don't listen to anyone else, I have no record with any girl nor guy"
"its sexy when you are mad and I do believe you are virgin"
"you confuse me"
"of course I do"

*

"seriously, gerard bandit misses you"
"lyn-z that's bullshit she never met me, so go get the hell out of my life"
"whatever" 10 minutes later of her crap, I finally hung up.
"gee?" a small whimper formed behind me
"fwankie, did you hear that?" my heart burst
"who is she?" he began to cry
"don't cry" I went to give him a hug but he ran off "frank, she isn't- isn't arg! kid you piss me off, get back here"
"I knew it! you didn't like me, you were just fuckin with me, asshole"
"no, Frankie I did love you"
"did?!"
""of course I do"
"no agh! I met I did love her" I went to pull him into a hug but he pulled away.
"you are killing me, kid"
"I swear to god that if you continue to call me kid, I will rip your throat out"
"woah that turns me on"
"just leave alone" he find his way outside. he was to fast for me.
"see ya tomorrow?" I cried as softly as I could
"give me two reasons why I should stay here with you?" he pushed me against the wall. "I am so sick of people like you"
"like me?"
"makes something go so fast that they can't see out there life flash before their eyes"
"one I am so sorry and two its weird that I need your air to keep me alive"
"who is she?"
"a mistake that I got pregnant"
"oh?" he cocked an eyebrow
"don't listen to anyone else, I have no record with any girl nor guy"
"its sexy when you are mad and I do believe you are virgin"
"you confuse me"
"of course I do"
"are you still staying with me?"
"yes but promise me, she will never destroy what we have"
"I don't anyone but you"

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