break my will to fly or love

upstairs in my room, as I was falling asleep, I thought about what had happened between Mr. Way and I. why aren't I mad at myself for wanting something I can't have, like when I was twelve I wanted a friend but I was to caught up not having a father and pushing people out to get one. for some reason his words swell deep inside me, and it wasn't just words, it was his lips against mine, the taste of coffee from early. he wanted more, too, he also is into the same things as me. if I keep thinking about this im going to explode, I wonder if he is thinking the same thing. this is the thing the though, we just meet, he is like what four or five years older, he is probably fucking some bitch right now, and is messing with me like the rest of the world. but if we work out, no I don't think we will. I guess we will see tomorrow, one thing we stick with me though, his singing in the car, he knew that music was the only way to connect. ~the next day~ I did the normal routine, mom wakes me up for school before she goes to work. "fwankie, can you come down here, please?" my mother called "give a second, mom" I replied "take your time" I jumped out of bed and put on some pants, being I was in my boxers. "yes mother?" "come sit baby" she never calls me baby, whats going on? "im going to California on a trip to get higher paid job, you understand right, Frankie?" "are we moving? please no, Mr. Way and I. "no, no, no, Frankie im going to be gone for a few weeks, you are seventeen, you can stay here alone" "its good to know you trust me" "you have never done anything wrong" "i'm going to miss you" "i'll call everyday, now I gotta go, hon" she kissed my cheek, got into her cab and left. as for me, I got ready for school and on my way got I saw the credit card that was going to keep money in the house. ~at school~ the same bullshit from the jocks, the names, pushing me and tripping me. I was sad that I had to wait 'till 9 period to see gerard again. for lunch it was pizza. I had homework in English and math. reading to kill a mocking bird and review in circles. I ran to Mr. Way's room and sat in the front seat. "good morning, fwankie, came back for more?" he purred as he sat in my lap. he made sure to be as sexy as he could. "hello to you to gerard" "fwankie, didn't I tell you. you can't call me that until after school, naughty boy. im gonna have to teach you a lesson later" I swallowed hard and smiled at his comment "we got a few minutes before class" he pressed his against my and we moved in sync. I parted my lips, so his tongue could enter but he did the same. he opened his eyes and I did the same, his hazel orbs looked into mine as our tongues fought for control. he pulled away and got off my lap, revealing down south's fight for freedom out of my tight blue jeans. "you keep that up for a little bit and than well we talk" he licked his lips. I on the other hand worried about fucking up. the bell rang and people found their seats "frank can you tell me the color of love?" "you" I sighed and the class laughed "sorry but no" I kept my head down and waited for the bell to ring. when it did ring I fled to my locker. got into my jeep, and went home to get pansy, my bitch. on my way out the door, I realized I was no longer having a problem with my down south. fuck. back at gerard's place, he wasn't there? "gerard, gerard, Mr. Way!" I whispered "sorry my color of love" he said entering the door. "where did you go?" "holy shit, is that yours?" he took pansy from me and sat her case on the table and opened it "pansy?" "yeah its just the name" "oh here a rose" he handed me a ruby red rose from his trench coat. "the color of love" I smiled "now for your lesson" he moved closer to me and I jumped over the table "hang on, you don't think its weird" "frank we both know enough anything can happen and if no ones know than it ain't wrong, now is it?" "but i'm a minor and you could lose your job" "fine, Ifyou don't want it than-" I jumped back over the table and pinned gerard to the floor and attacked his lips with mine. "I knew you really wanted that lesson" he smirked "nah I just wanted a kiss bitch" "so can you play" "play what?!" I freaked "pansy, you dipshit" "yeah" I got off him and got pansy out of her case and began to play 'heart shaped box' by nirvana knowing what we sang along to in the car. "I hope you will play me as well as you play pansy" he smirked "pansy is not a sex toy asshole" "oh come on, I got papers to grade" he got off the floor, fixed his outfit and sat at his desk and got onto his computer. as for me I played pansy a little bit longer, gerard tapped his foot and sang some interesting lyrics 'I kissed and I liked it, the taste of his coffee tongue, I hope we fuck hard in the future' "what the fuck!" I yelled "ahhhh" he sighed "can I stay at your place tonight?" I said as quick as possible "what?" he looked up at me with a shocked look. "my mom is going to be gone awhile and I get lonely" "sure sugar" he smirked "you can move in tomorrow" "..." I smiled

Notes

sorry if some spots are like 'wtf' is because my pc decided to rewrite over somethings. this didn't go well for my fourth fanfic on here.