And then the hurricane

"You two should file a report and Mr. Iero you should get your ribs checked at the hospital. Mr.Way you'll be fine in a few days." The nurse said to us, in a sincerer voice while handing Gerard a cloth for his nose.
"As if a report would help this.." I mumbled under my breath holding the ice-pack to my ribs.
No one seemed to notice.

"Need a ride home?" Bob asked as Mikey and Ray helped Gerard and I out of the school, I swear I'm not coming back tomorrow. Or ever.
"Yeah, dude that'd be awesome" Gerard smile, still a bit of blood in his teeth.
Fuck this is all my fault. My stomach twists, my chest aches. Just the thought they could have done much worse.... Tears sting my eyes.
I drowned out what the guys were saying as a wave of guilt came over me.
soon enough I was sitting in the back of bobs car. Mikey in the front and ray next to me and Gee on the other side, my hands are rested on my knees. Gerard puts his hand over mine, intertwining our fingers.
"I-I'm sorry Gee.." I say softly tears running down my cheeks again.
"Frank, stop. You couldn't have helped it." He planted a kiss on my cheek. The guys didn't care I suppose. I'm glad they saved us, who knows what would have happened....

~

I spent the rest of the evening laying on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, I haven't felt the urge to cut for so long.. I'm craving the razor blade kisses, the sweet sting. I must seem like a mad man, smiling at the thought of hurting myself.

"Frank, are you coming to dinner? My mum made vegie lasagna... I know it's your favorite.." Gee poked his head out of door.
"umm... I'm not hungry Gerard." I said softly
"Please? You haven't eaten well the last week.. Just come upstairs?" He looked at me with puppy eyes.
"Fine." I stated blankly. "Only if you help me of the bed." I smiled slightly, as his eyes melt my insides, making me feel a little better. He walked over to me helping me off the bed.
"My raven hared prince" He smiled, wrapping his arms around me carefully.
I frowned slightly at the bruises on his face. "I'm sorry about your face.. I-" I'm cut off
"Frank, shut up. It's not the first time, and it's probably not the last.."
"but-" I tried to interrupt but his lips connect with mine, softly. He pulls away brushing a lock of hair behind my ear. hoping it would stay, but it only falls back in front of my face. He chuckled, I laughed slightly, only to wince in pain. He looks at me concern.
"are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'll be fine.." He kissed my forehead.


Dinner passes, most of the time with me barely eating and moving my food around the plate. Every once in a while Gee looking up in concern, I smiled back. weak I know, lying to the person you love. His parents tried to ask what happened, although they already heard the story for Mikey, they still tried to strike up a conversation with me. I just drowned it out... Rude I know.. I feel horrible but I have no intentions on talking about it. Gerard griped my hand under the table, squeezing slightly. While he explained. I excused myself from dinner. Thankfully they are very kind people and let me go.


So here I am about an hour later.... All I can think about is the glimmer of razors, the sick and twisted way.. They are beautiful.... Fuck Frank, No. You promised Gee. At that moment a tried looking Gerard enters the room.
"Hey, babe." He smiles. walking over to the bed, laying down next to me.
"Hey.." I say softly. I turn to face him
"What's wrong? Don't even try to object, because I know you far too well. Frank Anthony Iero." he turns to face me as well.
fuck
I shrug "I don't know, I just feel horrible, and I was so... urrghh during dinner... I'm so sorry Gee." and I broke...
"I'm so sorry for keeping you up for the last few months, I'm so sorry that I let this happen to you. I'm so fucking sorry gee." I start to full out sobbing.
He pulls me close, holding me as I sob into his chest.
"Frank." He tried
He held onto me, saying everything was okay... I was so tierd of everything that happend, I fell asleep in his arms.

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