And then the hurricane

I grab my bike while Gee waits for me by the street lamp at the front of the hospital.
"Hey there sexy, need a ride?" I smirk jokingly.
"I'd be honored sir" he giggles. He goes to sit on the back, holding onto my waist as we take off to his house. This time the ride is a little longer, seeing as no one was in danger.

I stop right outside his house, he hops off.
"Thank you Franks" He smiles in the dim light of the street lights.
"No problem Gee." I lean in to give him a kiss. It wasn't heated only passionate. I smile against his lips.
"I really love you Gerard." his hand travels to my neck.
"I love you too." I pull away,
" You look tired... I should leave." I say awkwardly turning to leave.
"Stay?" he grabs my arm. "please"
No one should ever sleep alone after something tragic happens.
"of course, babe" I take hold of his hand, walking to the porch I know all too well. I let my bike stand against the wall. Gerard leads me inside, down to the basement where is bed room was, it's been a while since I've been here. The posters and drawings are all still there I walk past his desk dragging my fingers along some of the unfinished drawings, my eyes fall to a sketch of all too familiar faces. Me, ray and Mikey sitting around. Me with pansy in my arms, Ray with his guitar and Mikes with his bass. on the bottom in swirly letters. 'It's an idea'
an idea? what does he mean?
"Frank want anything to drink? or something?" I snap out of my thoughts. Turn to face him
"huh? oh! nah, I'm alright" He sets a pair of sweat pants on his bed. He's already changed onto a black shirt and flannel pants. "Those for me?" I smirk, "No shirt huh?" a blush creep onto his face.
"I- uhh... do you want one?"
"No, it's okay" I walk over to him wrapping my arms around his waist, I bury my face into his chest.
"wanna get changed?" he asks I nod into his chest.


I walk back into his room, he's laying in bed reading a comic book. His head shoots up when he hears me walk in.
"Hey." He smiles and yawns. A small smile creeps onto my face.
"tired?"
"yeah." he chuckles, I climb into bed next to him. He shifts himself until he's laying right next to me, face to face. We share soft kisses till he falls asleep. I'm asleep shortly after.

#dreams#

The lights flicker on and off, there he stands in front of me. I'm strapped naked to the bed for god knows for the how many time. He leans over me, the smell of alcohol is strong. he pulls out a blind fold stuffing it in my mouth. Normal Dads don't do this to there sons.
"Now don't scream you little bitch, or I swear I'll kill you!" I thrash around, my screams are muffled, tears start to run down my face. He laughs at my discomfort. "Your not getting loose." He undoes his pants, I look away in fear of what he might do this time. I try one more time to get my arm lose. It comes lose, with the force I used my hand flys to my fathers head
"You little shit, you're gonna get it now." he screams. a numb pain runs through my body, his hands wrap themselves around my throat, the air in my lungs can't go anywhere, I try to hit him away but I'm too weak.

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"GET OFF OF ME!" I scream trashing around, my hair sticking to my face. I woke up in cold sweat. Arms wrap around me, I scream again.
"Frank, FRAnk! calm down. Baby you're alright" I turn to face a shocked and tired Gerard.
I whimper.
"shh... you're alright, okay? you're alright" He pulls me into his lap, stroking my hair. I tremble.
"Please no more.. please" I whimper
"what?"
"Don't let him touch me, please. make it go away." tears run down my cheeks again
he rubs the wetness away.
"I'm here baby, nobody will hurt you." He holds me.
My breathing still hitched. He sang to me softly.

"This time it feels so right,
When I'm lying by your side,
In your arms I know you will save me,
When I'm buried by illusion.

Stay with me, yeah yeah yeah.
The photographs are never our pictures.
You'll be the one that can't forget.
You'll be the one that can't forget
Baby!

Stay with me, yeah yeah yeah.
Our conversation never quite said it.
I'm just a boy that lost the words,
I'm just a boy." He sang I felt my eyes close again. He pressed soft kisses.

"Thank you" I mumble drifting in and out of sleep.
"Any day." He kisses me one last time before I finally fall asleep again.

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