You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

I sit on the bathroom floor until Mikey comes back and gently knocks, announcing his presence before coming back in and taking my hand, helping me up and back into my room. Once I'm settled in bed Mikey sits on the edge and grabs a hold of my hand again, squeezing softly and offering silent support. We stay silent until Pete knocks on the door and comes in, kneeling on the floor near Mikey. "Hey Gee, are you alright?" I nod, not sure what to say to him and he offers me a supportive smile before saying "I have something for you, from Frank...." I take a deep shaky breath before asking "What is it?" Pete holds his open hand out and I see my commitment ring laying on it. "I don't want it" I tell him, turning my head away so I don't have to look at it and when Mikey squeezes my hand and encourages me to turn my head back the ring is gone. After a while Mikey and Pete go to bed and I curl up on my side under the blankets and close my eyes but I know I won't be getting any sleep. The next morning when I get up and go downstairs I join dad at the kitchen table with a cup of coffee and he turns his head to look at me, frowning at the bite mark on my neck which looks even worse today. "I'm sorry Gee" he tells me, pulling me into his side as he hugs me.

Being Saturday dad, Pete, Mikey and I spend the day watching movies and hanging around the house and in the mid afternoon a knock on the door sends me running for the stairs and just as I near the top I hear Franks voice say "Is he here? Can I please see him?" "No Frank he doesn't want to see you" I hear Mikey say and Frank starts to protest before dad's voice sounds clearly, "Frank he doesn't want to see you, get off my doorstep right now or you'll regret it." I hear Frank let out a small sob before the front door closes in his face
and I sink down to sit on the step, feeling torn between the hurt and betrayal I'm feeling and the part of me that wants to run to Frank and comfort him. My inner turmoil makes me feel physically sick and I know I won't be getting any sleep until I resolve this so I get up and run back downstairs, running down the hall and ripping the front door open to find Frank stepping off the end of the path and onto the sidewalk. At the sound of the front door opening his head snaps up in my direction and when he sees it's me he turns and runs back over, meeting me at the bottom of the porch steps as he wraps his arms around my waist, picking me up slightly as he crushes me to his chest. "Gee" he croons out as he puts me back down and takes a half step back, staring at my face. He leans in for a kiss but I step back and brace my hand against his chest. "No." His face drops as he says "Yeah, ok I deserve that. We need to talk, please?" I nod, taking a seat on the steps and he sits down beside me, keeping a small distance between us. "I want to know why? Why him? What does he have that I don't? How could you lie to me like that, for a whole month? When were you cheating, while I was at school? Do you really work as much as you claim or are you out fucking around? Is he the only one? Were you ever going to tell me or where you going to keep stringing me along like an idiot and I would have married you and never known? Do I really mean that little to you?" The questions tumble out of my
mouth one after the other and the more questions I ask the bigger Franks frown gets. "Baby I'm sorry, he actually doesn't mean anything to me, it was just a physical thing..." "So I'm not good enough in bed? Is my body too repulsive for you?" I cut him off to ask, my self doubt creeping in and making me think the worst things possible. "No baby you're incredible I just.....I met him and I was so attracted to him and it just happened and then he kept texting me and I just....I was weak and I gave in. He's the only one I've ever cheated with and I was actually trying to end it because I didn't want you to get hurt." "Bit late for that now isn't it?" I scoff and he sighs before reaching out for my hand but I pull it away. "Baby you mean the world to me and I'm sorry, what do you want me to do to
make this up to you?" I take a deep shaky breath before saying "Frank, it's over. I'm sorry but I don't see myself getting past this and even if I could, I don't trust you anymore." "Gee please, you don't meant that, give me a few days, think this over, please don't end this. We're getting married and spending our whole lives together and I can't let that slip away from me." I feel my resolve crumbling but I take a deep shaky breath, my eyes filling with tears again as I say "Its over, this was your choice." Frank shakes his head and says "But, I have your name tattooed on me, this is forever baby, we can't be over." I stand up, unable to deal with this anymore and when I stand Frank stands too and as I go to walk away and go back inside Frank grabs my waist and pulls me into him, sealing his lips to mine and I go, kissing him one last time as tears stream down my cheeks before I pull away and cup his cheek gently in my hand. "Have a good life Frank, I wish you nothing but the best" I tell him before walking back inside and closing the door, sinking to my knees as I let out a heart breaking sob, feeling my whole body ache.

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