You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

When we finally drag ourselves off the grass we keep our hands linked and we slowly walk back to the house. When we get there we go up to my room and when we're sitting on the bed facing each other I say "So how do we do this?" "Um, I guess we just tell our parents?" "What if they freak out?" "It'll be ok, we'll figure something out. I'm miserable without you too baby, surely they'll understand." I nod and lean in to kiss him when a knock at the door startles us apart. "Yeah?" I call out and the door slowly opens to reveal dad. "Hi boys we're ordering takeout for dinner, what would you like?" I glance over at Frank again and he smiles softly and squeezes my hand and I turn back to dad and say "Dad I need to talk to you first." His face grows serious and he steps fully into the room and closes the door. "What's going on?" "I want to move out." "You what? And go where?" "Franks going to drop out of school and we're both going to get jobs and get our own place." "No." "What?" "I said no Gerard. It's bad enough I let you get engaged but you are not moving out and throwing your life away." "Dad I'm not throwing anything away, I'll still be going to school." "The answer is no Gerard, end of discussion." I feel my bottom lip tremble yet again and I stand up as I yell "Get the fuck out of my room." "Don't you dare speak to me like that" dad yells back and I drop my head to gaze at the floor, tears streaming down my cheeks again before I look back up and say softly "You're killing me by keeping me here away from Frank." "I'm what? Don't be so dramatic Gerard, I'm not changing my mind." I feel my heart crack all over again and I sink to my knees on the floor and dad says "You'll get over it" as he leaves the room. Frank jumps off the bed and kneels beside me, wrapping his arms around me and I lean into him, whimpering softly as I cry. "Shh baby it's ok, I promise I'll figure this out."

I don't go downstairs for dinner that night and when Frank tries to get me to eat I refuse, not in the mood. I fall asleep in Franks arms that night and the next morning I wake up to him pressing soft kisses all over my face and when my eyes open he pulls back a little and smiles down at me. "Good morning beautiful. I can't wait until we can do this every morning again, I've missed this a lot." I smile back and lean up to kiss him again. After we pull ourselves out of bed we are about to head to the bathroom to take a shower when Franks phone rings and he looks to see it's his mother. "Go ahead babe and I'll be in in a minute." We share another soft peck before I leave the room and go into the bathroom, starting the shower and getting in. A few minutes later the door creaks open and Frank comes in and strips off, joining me in the shower and I press him back against the wall, kissing him roughly. He kisses back and his hands tangle in my hair as we make out under the hot water before he pulls away and pants out "Babe we need to talk." "About what?" I ask and he smiles and says "My mom is going to help us." "What?" "My mom said she would help us out with like getting a place and stuff." "Seriously?" "Yeah babe, she's not thrilled about me dropping out but I explained it to her and she understood, she also said she can help talk to your dad too." "Wow, Frankie I don't know what to say." "It's ok, you don't have to say anything, just know that we'll be just fine and I told you I would figure it out." I smile at him and lean in to wrap my arms around him. We cuddle under the hot water for a few more minutes before we pull apart and I climb out and dry off while Frank quickly washes himself before climbing out too. We spend the whole day together, just laying around in my bed watching movies on my laptop and having sex and by mid afternoon we have had sex three times and I am exhausted. "Aww my little baby" Frank coos as I yawn and turn my face to rub against his shirt. "Shut up" I mumble, my eyes slipping shut and I'm quickly losing the will to open them again. Franks arm tightens around me and I let myself drift off only to be woken a few hours later by raised voices downstairs and Frank is gone. I jump up and pull clothes on quickly before rushing downstairs and when I reach the living room I see dad on one couch and Frank and his mother on the other and dad is yelling at Frank and his mother about how much of a bad influence he is on me. "He was a good sensible happy kid before he met you and now he's spiralling out of control. He barely talks anymore and spends all his time in his room not to mention this ridiculous notion of being engaged and moving out." "Mr Way you are seriously fucking deluded. When I met Gerard he was the very definition of sad, he had not one person in the whole world he could count on, not even Mikey but I fell in love with him and I have done nothing but support him and make him happy since the day I first saw him. What's making him depressed, not spiralling out of control, depressed is that you have literally torn him away from the only happiness he's been able to build for himself in a long time. He's suffering being here alone and I'm not leaving here again without him. I love him and I won't lose him, I refuse to." I stand silently in the doorway, none of them having seen me and watch Frank and my dad have a tense staring match. "Ok this is getting ridiculous, Gerard is a seventeen year old boy who's going through a lot and I understand where you're coming from Don but honestly, why don't you try asking him what he really wants and actually listen to what he has to say instead of telling him he's wrong? The boys happiness should be one of our biggest priorities as parents and I intend to make sure they get what they need" Franks mom says, her tone slightly bossy like she's telling my dad what to do. I watch as dad bites his bottom lip and his head drops down into his hands and his shoulders start to shake. "I can't lose him too" he sobs out and I walk across the room and sink onto the couch beside him, wrapping my arms around him. "You won't, I'll still be here, I'll visit every day if you want but I can't do this without Frank anymore, it's too hard and it hurts too much." "I'm sorry Gee" he whispers in my ear as he turns his body and hugs me back and we hold each other as we both shed a few tears.

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