You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

Once Mikey's sure I'm ok he and Pete leave the room and Frank convinces me to go downstairs with him and eat something. I let him lead me downstairs, dragging my feet the whole way and once I'm sat at the kitchen bench he digs through the fridge, mixing ingredients together and making me pancakes. When they're done Frank takes a seat beside me with his own plate and we eat in silence for a few minutes before I say "I wanna go back to school." "Really?" Frank asks and I nod before saying "I don't wanna be here anymore, I need to get away, it's too hard." "Ok babe, anything you need. We'll talk to your dad ok?" I nod and we go back to eating in silence. Later in the afternoon dad comes home and settles in the living room so Frank and I decide to talk to him. We sit together on one couch while he's sprawled across the other. "Dad, I want to go back to school." His face drops for a second and he frowns as he says "Look Gee I was thinking that you and Mikes should come home, go back to school here." I feel my heart drop as I say "But, I....I want to go back to boarding school, I wanna be with Frank." Frank squeezes my hand reassuringly as he can tell I'm about to freak out. "Gee I need you and Mikes here with me and...." "So I don't get a say in it?" He doesn't say anything else and I feel my eyes well with tears as I say "I'm not leaving Frank," standing up and fleeing from the room before I break down again. I run into my room and slam the door behind me and a few minutes later Frank comes in to find me laying on the bed crying again. "Babe, it's alright" he tells me softly as he sits beside me and reaches down to gently stroke my hair. "I don't wanna...." "Baby I can understand where he's coming from, he's gonna be alone when you and Mikes leave. I think it's for the best if you guys stay, atleast for a while." I sit up and stare at Frank in disbelief. "You don't want me to come back with you do you?" "No babe that's not what I...." "Whatever Frank, fuck off back to school then and leave me alone." He sits there staring at me as I climb off the bed and start picking up his things, throwing them in the direction of his bag. "Gee..." "Just go" I scream at him as I turn back to face him. "You're leaving me alone just like she did and if I can live through it once I'll do it again, get out now and stop fucking around with me." By the end of my sentence I am screaming at the top of my lungs and Frank looks frightened. "Get out" I scream at him again and his bottom lip trembles as the door opens and dad, Mikey and Pete all come in, staring between us and I snap, shoving past them and running out the door. I run downstairs and out the front door, running down the street unable to see where I'm going through the tears and I make it half a block before arms wrap around my waist and I'm knocked to the ground, someone falling with me onto the grass. I try to move away but hands grab me and hold me down, flipping me onto my back and Frank climbs over to straddle my hips, pinning me down with his body. "Baby" he says softly, panting slightly as tears roll down his cheeks. "Baby don't run from me, talk to me." "I......you don't want me anymore." "Gee, baby that's fucking crazy. I love you so much and I just want what's best for you." "You don't want me to come back with you, you wanna leave me here" I sob out and he lowers his body down to hug me. "Baby no, of course I want you to come with me, I want you with me always but babe for right now, your dad needs you and as much as you try to deny it, I know you need him too." I continue to cry as Frank sits back and pulls me up, pulling me into his chest as he sits in my lap. "Gerard I love you with all my heart and no matter what happens I'll do whatever it takes to make this work. I'll always be there for you babe, even if we are separated for a while, I'm always just a phone call away at any time." I slowly stop crying as Frank holds me close and when we pull apart again Mikey and Dad are standing nearby watching us. "I'm sorry I yelled at you" I say softly and Franks hand comes up to cup my cheek as he says "It's alright, you're grieving right now and I understand babe."

Once we get home again Frank takes me up to my room and lays me on the bed, laying beside me and pressing gentle kisses all over my face while his arms hold me against him. "I love you so so much babe and I can't wait until we're married." I slide my hand down to link my fingers through his and I bring his hand up to my face, pressing a gentle kiss over his engagement ring. "Love you Frankie, more than I could ever tell you." We lay in silence after that, just staring into each other's eyes for a while until a knock on the door startles us and I sit up to see Mikey and Pete coming into the room. Frank sits up too and Mikey and Pete join us on the bed, Mikey sitting beside me and reaching out to hold my hand. "So we were thinking about getting out and going to the movies, you guys in?" Pete asks and I turn to look at Frank. "What do you say baby?" He asks and I smile and nod, "Sure."

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