You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

Late that afternoon when I get home from my classes Frank is waiting for me in the bedroom, the lights off but candles lit on every surface and rose petals all over the floor and bed, Frank kneeling in the middle of the bed in just his boxers. "Baby" I gasp out as I feel my face pull up into a massive smile. "Welcome home babe." "What is all this?" "I just....I love you so fucking much and I wanted to do something nice for you and this doesn't even come close to what you deserve but I thought it was a start and...." I cut him off by climbing onto the bed to kneel infront of him, sealing my lips to his and Frank immediately kisses back and his hands slide around my back to pull me closer to him. We keep kissing and Franks hands slide down to grip the bottom of my shirt, gently pulling it up and when we break apart so he can take it off me he finally notices what shirt it is and he smiles and says "Hey this is mine, have you been wearing this all day?" I smile back and nod my head. "Yeah it's comfy and it smells like you." Franks smile widens as he quickly takes the shirt off before leaning in to seal his lips to mine again, throwing the shirt on the floor and sliding his hands back down to work on my belt. Once we're both naked Frank wraps his arms around me again and lays me back on the bed, climbing over me and starts kissing down my neck, his hands wandering up and down my sides. "You're skin is so soft baby, so beautiful" he murmurs against my skin and I close my eyes, getting lost in the sensations his lips and hands are sending through my body.

After we finish we cuddle for a while, sharing soft kisses and most of the candles have burned out, the room steadily growing darker and darker and Frank breaks the kiss and cups my face in his hands as he says "Can I take you out to dinner?" "Of course" I tell him, smiling wide and we both climb out of bed, blowing out the last of the candles before getting dressed, and heading out of the apartment, Frank taking me to a nice restaurant and while we eat he says "So with this....play, do we plan it out or...." "I think it would be better if you just surprise me with it maybe." "Yeah, I guess. So are you sure you want to still do this?" "Yeah, only if you're ok with it." Frank nods and says "I think maybe we should keep using red as our word....just so it's easier to remember." I nod in agreement and Frank smiles over at me, reaching his hand out to squeeze mine. "I love you so much, you know that right?" "I know Frankie" I tell him, smiling back. "I love you too." After dinner we slowly walk home, our hands linked between us and just as we reach our building Frank stops me and turns me to face him, his hands sliding down to grip my hips. "Gerard I love you, with all my heart, so much that it hurts sometimes and I'm so happy and I know how fucking lucky I am that you chose to spend the rest of your life with me and I want to spend the rest of our lives making sure you know just how fucking amazing you are and just how much I love you." "I love you too Frankie, is everything ok?" I ask, suddenly feeling worried about why he's acting like this. "Yeah I just, I just wanted you to know." "Ok baby, come on lets go upstairs" I say as I take his hand and lead him inside, going upstairs and we settle on the couch with the tv on, Frank pulling me to lay against his chest, his arms wrapped tight around me and I wrap my arms around him too, holding him to me as I worry about what's happening in his head.

Notes

Having a truly terrible day....hope you're all having a better one : )