Lost Lovers in the sea, are you gonna die with me?

We watched the movie after I finished my pancakes. Nothing really happened...we just sat there in silence. He held me and that was nice but I feel like I'm failing him I feel like I'm failing at life and he doesn't deserve to have someone who...who doubts himself like I do sure if he's perfect and I love him but I barely even manage to look at myself day by day in the mirror...Just brushing my hair is a feat...getting out of bed, now that's the longest trip of my life. I don't want to leave the land of my dreams, but I do I have to face reality and reality shit if. I'm not worthy and he's perfect...he doesn't deserve to have someone so useless. "Frankie can you come down ?" I descend slowly down the stairs dread filling my head. "Yeah what is it Gerard?" He seems to pause for a second as he sees the fear in my eyes "We need to talk." shit I knew this was coming he's going leave me he's going to break up with me I don't even know for dating dammit "It's okay Frankie nothings wrong I just need you to tell me what your razors are." I freeze my breath catches in my throat. I shake my head and back up against the wall. "No...I-I need them Gee..." I sob. He runs over and holds my nodding as he calms me. "I know I know Frankie I just want to help you okay?" He whispers in my ear...this was gonna be one hell of a day...

Notes

Sorry??? Shits happened and passed and all that jazz so sorry